Philip stared at the Soulblood Marble and his curiosity is getting the best of him ashe wanted to ask him about the Soulblood abilities
But he had his priorities and he internally thanked Soulblood for saving them before immediately shifting towards the Totality Catalyst
He caught the Totality Catalyst on his arms and inspected her to make sure that she's okay
"Hey, are you alright?"
"Mmm~"
The Totality Catalyst gruntled after hearing Philip's voice and feeling his touch and warmth
She then slowly opened her eyes that is entirely white with no pupils. She slightly turned her head towards Philip, who's looking down at her with worry
"That was quick... I thought I will be summoned again soon, but I didn't expect it to be sooner..."
"Yeah... I was careless that I placed Tenshi in a deadly situation. I never even had the chance to protect her"
"Hm... I don't think it's your fault though. This mansion is a safe place, a safe haven. You didn't know that the alchemical woman would produce these deadly fumes"
"I know... But this doesn't remove the fact that Tenshi almost died, if it wasn't for you... I learned my lesson... It won't happen again"
"..."
'I can't always rely on the system for any dangers or any warnings... I must have complete awareness so that no one will get hurt around me ever again'
「 ... 」
In this moment, Philip has decided to keep his guard up at all times, even if he's in peace or if he's in a safe place. He won't be able to relax at all and he's ready to strike or react at any given time
'Emily... Permanently activate my Extreme Self-awareness ability and manually activate Clairvoyance and Eye Vision whenever I sense immediate danger'
「 Okay... 」
Philip requested an absurb condition to Emily and she didn't have the choice to deny him
Being extremely self-aware permanently would make Philip specially sensitive to things that he shouldn't be paying attention at all. This will also increase his suffering more than before when he was a child because the range and intensity of his self-awareness might reach the universal levels
But knowing Philip, he will go through with it using his [Emotion Manipulation] and [Pain Denial] abilities. He'll be like traversing an uphill pitch black snow storm mountain with only an oil lantern in hand
He did it once, he'll do it again, all for the safety and protection of all his loved ones. He will not forgive himself for letting Tenshi be harmed
In fact, he is currently pissed and the [4th Gate of Wrath: Rage] has instantly opened
But, the Totality Catalyst put her right hand on Philip's left cheek and Philip was distracted from his trance
"Fate Controller Philip... I know I'm not in a place to say this but... Don't be too hard on yourself. Not everything is your fault and sometimes things doesn't go the way you planned it! All you need to do is step back and learn from it"
The Totality Catalyst gave an advice. Philip was plenty surprised that the Totality Catalyst was able to do that, given that the Totality Catalyst was supposed to be an emotionless entity
This just shows how Tenshi and Philip influences her very being and turn her into a being who's capable of feeling emotions
Philip gave a warm smile and he shifted his right hand and ruffled the top of her head
"I'm aware, but trust me... I know everything's my fault and that's a fact. Maybe one day, you'll understand it also, Amatsuka"
"!!!"
After a while, Philip has finally decided to name the Totality Catalyst
"Amatsuka?"
The Totality Catalyst, Amatsuka, asked in surprise and shyness
"Amatsuka Shokubai, or Amatsuka Zentai, you can use both... Those will be your name from now on. I have given you an identity, be sure to keep it..."
"Amatsuka... Shokubai... Zentai..."
"Angel, catalyst, and totality or entirety. So, it can directly translate to Angel Catalyst or Angel Totality. You can also go by as Zentai Shokubai and it's directly translated to Totality Catalyst"
The reason why Philip gave her the name of Amatsuka is because he wanted to keep her identity close to Tenshi, not only because they're one of the same, but it's mainly because both of their names directly translates to Angel
Not only that, this will give meaning to Amatsuka's name, as per the Principle of Naming, and she might find a greater power as her own bring evolves along with her name
This logic of Philip was immediately proven as a loud thump, that only Amatsuka can hear, was generated in her chest. Amatsuka never had a heart when she emerges as her Void Angel form, since Tenshi has her own heart also
But this time, Amatsuka seemed to be subconsciously creating her own heart from something unknown
"Amatsuka... I'll treasure it..."
Amatsuka said in a quiet tone as she avoids Philip's gaze. Her body also seemed to hardened the more she felt Philip's touch, showing that she became more insecure and confused by the newfound emotions that she's feeling
"Alright then... Now to penetrate this death hole"
Philip lifted Amatsuka and let her stand back up. He then faced Vanessa's door and his anger was released towards the Vanessa's room
P: Do you need our help diluting and dispelling the fumes?
S: Don't be stubborn and try to brute force your way in just to prove a point or take revenge. You don't want to die and resurrect at a later date after all
Pureblood and Soulblood immediately knew what Philip wanted to do. He wanted to try and take in the deadly fumes to find out if he can resist it. He plans to go through by sheer willpower
'Thank you for your offer and warning, but I think I know what will happen if I do this...'
P: Very well...
S: Suit yourself
It was then that Amatsuka called for Philip's attention
"Do you need my help? I've unlocked all the catalysts that comprises the deadly fumes. I can just remove them as we go"
She offered her help in an aggressively cute way
"Hm... Do you know the concept of when you keep doing something, eventually, you'll get used to it? Just like pain... If you keep feeling pain time and time again, you'll get used to it, unless a more intense pain is inflicted... A cycle"
"You don't mean!"
Amatsuka's eyes widened
"I'll do it with the deadly fumes, but to an extreme degree"
"Why would you do that to yourself?!"
"Hmmm... Pride? Stubborness? Predetermined plan? Mainly, I think something good will happen to this"
"You're crazy... But I already knew that!"
"Okay, let's make a condition... I'll go first and if anything happens bad to my body, you, Pureblood, and Soulblood will immediately act to save me"
"I don't think I can't stop you... It's your own choice anyway"
"I know. It's not that you don't care if I perish or die..."
"It's because I have complete trust in you. I won't be the one to scold you when you get severely harmed anyway"
"..."
Philip wryly smiled as he turned back and faced the door
"I guess I need help to not let the fumes scatter across the mansion"
"Got it"
S: I got you
Amatsuka raised her right hand and multi-layered different hues of violet rings manifested around her wrist. The violet rings belonged to the newfound catalysts that she just obtained. She will be manipulating most of the deadly fumes that will escape from the door
On the other hand, Soulblood will make sure that no one will be affected by the trace deadly fumes that might escape from Amatsuka's eyes
S: Soul Hall: First Pillar: Soul Detection Wards
Transparent blobs of brown energy emerged from the Soulblood Marble and flew across the several hallways of the mansion and seek every exit. Soulblood will fulfill Philip's goal of keeping everyone safe
Even if Philip challenges the deadly fumes will put everyone in danger, it is required for him to confront it so that it won't affect anyone in the future. It's a sacrifice that Philip's willing to make, even if he will put himself in risk, especially that he's being reckless
"I'm going in..."
Philip opened the door once again and he immediately aimed his right hand towards the small hallway leading into the room
He was immediately blasted by the deadly fumes and he almost immediately lost his consciousness once again. He lost his balance and Amatsuka shifted forward to catch Philip
But Philip caught himself as he shifted his right foot backwards in a impossible angle, like his entire leg was about to snap and break. Amatsuka and the marbles halted and watched Philip
「 Body will take over. Null of Magnificence 」
Philip's body maintained his balance with the help of the ⟨⟨ Null of Magnificence ⟩⟩ ability, but his form is all over the place. His right hand trembled and twitched but it kept its gesture as it glowed with golden light
「 Maintaining control of the body while I attempt to bring back Philip's consciousness 」
Emily worked in Philip's head, deep in his consciousness and tried to wake him back up
~~~
Deep inside Philip's mind, he is free falling in empty space, like he was sinking down in a bottomless ocean
"Did I die again? Welp... I had it coming. That was too reckless of me"
He was inside the ⟨⟨ World of Imagination ⟩⟩. This scene was almost similar to the times when he died. His death was always represented by him drowning in an endless ocean
"I guess the next step here is that I will resurface downwards and my entire perception will flip?"
Philip already knew the protocol since he's seen this several times, not only during his past deaths, but also in movies and anime
But this time, it's different. Displays of black and gold color appeared in his vision
『 Did you die? 』
Philip curled his eyebrows in confusion
"What kind of question... Yes, I died... But I know I will resurrect"
『 Does resurrection meant that you experienced death? 』
"You resurrect by dying"
『 What is death? 』
"The ultimate goal of life... Though, a lot of living beings and existences avoid death due to fear of losing the experience that they made when they were alive"
『 Why do you have the ability of resurrection? 』
"..."
Philip paused. He didn't know how to answer the question and he only took the ⟨⟨ Resurrection ⟩⟩ ability for granted
"Hmmm..."
Nevertheless, Philip thought deeply of the main reason
"Hm... I think the reason is that Death doesn't want me or he doesn't accept me for some reason... But per the rules of the universe, if my body, mind, heart, soul, origin, concept, source, being, existence, essence, and signature is damaged beyond repair, then I should be destroyed and whatever was damaged will slowly be fixed as my everything gets transported through somewhere... Like River Styx in Greek Mythology, but backwards, since I'll be able to resurrect... Death doesn't accept me and the rules of the universe binds me, I think that's why I have the resurrection ability"
In simpler terms, Philip already knows that Death doesn't accept him in some way because no matter what he does, he simply won't die. He tried to indirectly kill himself, but no danger came in his way. His body also reacts against dangerous conditions that was inflicted to his body, as per the [Pain Denial] ability
Since Death doesn't accept him, the time that his heart was pierced and destroyed should have been enough to bring him in front of Death. But instead, he stayed in the material world and he somehow survived with no existing heart inside his chest
He could be called as an undead at that point, but he was still clearly human
On the time of his second death, his body and soul was obliterated by True Omega's white broadsword and she confirmed that she has eradicated Philip as ignored him completely after one strike
But Philip was completely fine and he resurrected six months later
If Philip couldn't die when a part of his being was destroyed, then the universe will keep him by resurrecting him with the cost of time
『 Incorrect 』
The system flat out said that Philip's deduction was completely wrong, that the universe wasn't keeping him nor the universe binds him
『 It is true that Death won't take you, but it is not to his own will 』
『 You are not allowed to die since you are needed 』
『 Resurrection is the only method to retain everything while getting stronger 』
『 Reincarnation will reset life and Revival will take something away 』
『 Resurrection is the most ideal method to keep you alive 』
『 But resurrection takes time 』
『 You won't die from trivial destruction. You won't easily die 』
『 Instant Death Immunity obtained. 』
『 Poison Immunity obtained! 』
『 Toxin Immunity obtained! 』
『 Acid Immunity obtained! 』
『 Stimulant Immunity obtained! 』
『 Corrosion Immunity obtained! 』
『 Corruption Immunity obtained! 』
『 Venom Immunity obtained! 』
『 Paralysis Immunity obtained! 』
『 Petrification Immunity obtained! 』
『 Hypnotism Immunity obtained! 』
『 ERROR!!! 』
『 Immunities regarding mental capability and capacity has been denied 』
『 Immunities regarding mental stability has been denied 』
『 You won't be immune to mental attacks or instability 』
『 Now, arise back on your feet! 』
The strain of displays rapidly appeared across his vision and his expression became sour as his eyebrows furrowed
Instead of falling deeper in the ocean, he began to resurface upwards. His upper body didn't go upwards as he resurfaced with his feet pointing upwards
Eventually, he penetrated the surface of the water and continued to fall towards the sky. The ocean behind him splashed chaotically and shot towards him as he followed him
The ocean became a bullet and Philip entered terminal velocity, close to the speed of light, until his vision faded into blinding light
~~~
Back in front of Vanessa's room, Philip's body struggled to maintain his balance, considering his consciousness was completely out. The system also didn't help too much and his body needed to maintain his form
His right hand continued to emit a golden light while it's still lifted in the air. His fingers were contorting but it suddenly straightened
Philip's body slowly rose from the ground. Eventually, his body straightened and his right arm also became more straight
"Are you okay, Philip? Didn't you just die?"
Amatsuka asked in extreme worry
"A denial... I'm alright... This has been delayed for too long, shall we start?"
Philip glared inside Vanessa's room as his right hand glowed brighter and his eyes shone with golden light. White roots occasionally faded in and out across his skin and along his veins. His expression is extremely bad and dreadful after the system told him the truth