As I sober up I'm inside my car but not as the driver but as a passenger because some annoying gangster is driving it. For what reason? I guess he said something like it's gonna be dangerous if I drive. Maybe because I'm shaking uncontrollably earlier but as I said, I sober up. Now I'm looking outside the window and on the road then it dawns on me.
"Where are we going?" now hearing my voice, wasn't it a little too hoarse? Did I cry that much? Damn this pathetic old me, why haven't you leave my brain yet?
"I'm taking you to my place if you don't want that tell me your address then." by this I thought he will be joking but he looks a little too silent even for his usual immature gangster aura. Thinking of what he just said, I think it's a little too early on letting them in my house. And so as me going in their house.
"Take me to AD's building, please" I know he's now looking at me.
"You just suffered some harassment there and you still think of work?" He sounds calmly irritated if that's a thing. And I'm not in the mood for an argument right now so I muttered a little fine and call my secretary to cancel and move some of my appointment. As we arrive at a building he helps me get out and guides me to his penthouse. Unlike the other guys who live in their mansion and such, I guess Paige wanted to live alone.
"Sit there, I'm getting you a drink," he said as he walks towards what I think is the kitchen. Well, I won't just sit here so I roam around a little. The interior is quite dim like his furniture is mostly black, grey, or white in general. And he doesn't have much furniture, I guess he just have the essentials in which it's kinda spacious.
Then my eyes land on some pictures where it looks like he was a kid with his family. With his mom, dad, and another guy close to his age but a little taller than him in which I guess is his older brother. In another frame is him still a kid with his friends that is consists of six boys and two girls. The boys are Paige, Thoven, Zeke, Vaughn, and the twins. My heart aches to see those smiles that will never come back.
"What are you looking at?" I didn't know that he's already here with a glass of water. I look at him, take the water then smile and again look back at the picture.
"I just saw this picture when you are a kid and also with your friends. It feels kinda nostalgic." As I keep on staring at the picture I can't help but miss the good ol' days. When we are still a kid not thinking of these kinds of things. Having deep thoughts about this, I haven't noticed that there is a very thick silence around us. I look at him and he's looking at the ground both hands on his pocket.
"Paige? Is something wrong? Am I intruding? I'll go right away." for some reason I think Paige doesn't want me to be here. I know you guys had known me for being bad but I'm not the kind of person where I won't know my place. I put down the empty glass on the table and about to grab my stuff when he blocks my path still looking down and hands in his pocket.
"Why did you do it with Thoven while you scared of me?" I know that there's a pain in his voice and I kinda know why. He's still suffering from that.
>>FLASHBACK<<
"Why do they always scold me when Thoven did that?!" wait it sounded like Paige? Is Paige angry? I follow that voice and saw Paige kicking the tree! I ran towards him and hug him to stop him. I know I'm about to cry and that startled Paige.
"W-why are you crying? Shhh.. shhh.. Please don't cry." I saw him panicking but he's hurting mr. tree there. "Paige? W-why are you kicking mr. tree? Do mr. tree do something bad to Paige?"
"N-no, mom scolded me because we go home muddy. She said that it's my fault."
"But it's not Paige's fault. And it's not also mr. tree's fault." he then looks at me and laughs a little. He then faces mr. tree and apologizes. I then smile because of that, "I think mr. tree forgives you. Don't worry Paige, I'll tell your mommy that it's not your fault."
I'm about to run when he called my name, "You don't need to tell her that. As long as you believe me it's alright."
>>END OF FLASHBACK<<
Then another flashback occurs in my head where Paige is looking at me like he doesn't recognize me. And I shake my head. Focus KD. This is an opening.
"T-Thoven also scares me, And I don't want anything to do with him." I can't look at him right now and I guess it's the best in this situation.
"Then why do it with him?" He's now looking at me, probably measuring my expression.
"I-I guess he would stop it if I give it to him. And also Beethoven is a powerful man and I think he will ruin me if I do something that will displease him." I said as I fidget a little acting a little uncomfortable. Some of it is true. I don't want Thoven to move yet when I still haven't damaged my mark.
"Then why give him a letter to fuck off?" I then look at him startled. "T-that's not what I said in the letter."
"I think that's how he reads it. Stop changing the topic just answer me why?" he now looks pissed with his both hands on my shoulder.
"I don't want anything to do with him. That's just it" now I'm back at avoiding his gaze while looking at the ground. "Then why are you scared of me?" I look at him a little confused thinking of a way to get to him. And I guess I'll move I piece here.
"I'm not scared of you. It just reminded me of the past."
"That dumbass of a boyfriend that leaves you?" I look at him in shock and remember the diary. See, I told you the diary works.
"H-how do you know that?" I raise the tone of my voice and struggle to get out of his hold. "You left your diary with Vaughn one time and some of my stupid friends decided to read some pages of it." I now glare at him.
"Let go of me, Paige!" I struggle a little harder and freed myself at last. "You don't just read someone else's life like that! At first, I thought you're a player then with everything I thought you cared. It's all just a pity, huh." I then look at him with anger that I had kept for a very long time.
"I hate you," I said it as simple as that. I don't need to shout it. I guess he gets the message. And as I turn around I got manhandled and drop at a bed.
"I fucking do care!" he said angrily as he's on top of me both legs are keeping me in place as I'm lying in my back against the bed right now.
"Paige please," I try to sit down but he just hugs me, his head next to mine.
"I do care," he said in a whisper and I know that this isn't about KD anymore.