(Three years ago)
Quinn's POV
The entire sky darkened as I saw one drop on her casket, then two, then too many to count as her casket was finally settled near the pit hole that she would be buried in. I couldn't bring myself closer to the people who are mourning for her death, I couldn't finally accept that she's fucking dead and she will never come back to me. I can't still fathom that she left me forever.
I have always been haunted since I saw her dead body ditched near Zayn's car, it was the exact time that we went to get the fucking blow so we could finally find the people that kidnapped her but the informant that we were so sure he could give us the lead was killed immediately the moment we arrived and it was the exact night we found her dead body ditched at her brother's car. It was just long enough to ditch her body for me to find.
When I saw her body, I couldn't even recognise it was truly her. Her whole body was filled with blood and fresh cuts all over her body even her face was severely damaged that you couldn't yhink twice but to look away immediately. The only thing that made us to know it was her, was a letter attached to her body.
"She's just a token of our vengeance, so watch out for the next. Fucking Valkov."
Those very words made my heart to just tighten even more with pure pain and sorrow. She was just like a fucking pawn to this game, to the game her father got himself into. She was a spitfire, courageous, sassy but she was even sweet, innonocent and caring but all for what? To be just torn away from us?
The marks all over her body showed just how she went through hell and all because I couldn't protect her, just because I couldn't find her in time. I felt just like a fucking loser just by looking at that very casket. She's there because of me.
I felt Delvin squeeze my shoulder giving me a sympathetic smile while he held Chloe tightly against his chest, trying to sooth her but nothing can ever take away the pain of losing someone you loved. We stood in a far corner, our suits soaked completely through from the fucking monsoon.
Ever since Delvin came he has been always by my side even now his here to support me even if he truly never met Kater, he came for her burial and I will always be thankful to him. Friends like him are usually hard to find in this life, most of them leave you when you're in trouble but with him his different. His the rarest of the many friends that you can find and I wouldn't like to trade him for anything in this world.
I glanced over my shoulder seeing how Chloe is sobbing miserably while trying to control her breathing as she hid her face on Delvin's chest. Ever since he came to New York he has been incredibly close to Chloe that you could practically smell the stench of love that surronds them.
I felt my heart tighten knowing that I will never feel that way again because the one person that I truly loved is gone. Delvin motioned for me to go ahead as I gripped harder on the bouquet of flowers that I knew she loved and because its my sister's name.
I hesitate for a bit remembering the real reason I stayed in the far corner was so that I wouldn't make a scene knowing full well Mrs. Valkov still despise me and always blamed me for her daughter's death. Even fucking Marcos is here to support but I was the supposed villian to Kater's life and him, he was he hero.
Maybe it would have been true because all I did was made her cry, maybe she would be happy right now if she would be with Marcos. I remember the last time I saw her was in tears, she cried because of me because I hurt her and that will always stick in my mind because it was the last thing I saw her do. Cry.
I strode slowly to her casket, in every step I took the harder it was for me to breathe but all in all her mother stopped me from going further.
"Why are you even here? Have you forgotten its because of you, she's dead right now!" She raised her voice throwing daggers at me as she spoke. If it were someone alse, I would have made sure she wouldn't talk again but not her. She the woman who gave birth to my angel, she's the one who brought the light in this dark world of mine.
I clenched my teeth as she continued to talk, "...for once in this very god damn world can't I have something that doesn't involve the lifestyle you people do. It's your lifestyle which killed her, what you do killed her! She would have been happy if she never met you. She wouldn't have known about her dark past that I spent years from her. But you..."
Zayn came to her side engulfing into an embrace that she immediately accepted, her soft sobs was all I heard. She just lost her only daughter, she will wake up every morning knowing that her daughter was taken away from her, that she will never see her again and because of what? My fucking job! The work I wake up every morning to do.
But the truth is I loved her, I still love her and I will always love her so no one can take this away from me, not even her mother. Cam comes to their side her eyes red and puffy like everyone else here as she took Kater's mother from Zayn.
Zayn sighed heavily clumping his hands together has he saw his mother still sobbing uncontrollably before he looked at me. You could tell by his red eyes that he was crying for his sister's death but he still mastered to be strong and emotionless as he looked at me, that's one thing I liked about him since we started looking for Kater together.
It wasn't quite exciting from the start because we both had our differences but we had one thing in common and that's Kater. Even if he wasn't brought up to my kind of life, you could still see how natural he was in this kind of things.
"Am sorry about my mother, she's a little shaken up by very that's going on." His gaze fell on his sister's casket, "during these past months that we have worked together, I saw how much you loved her and I know the feeling of losing a sister is different from losing the one you love." He looked at Cam with so much love that it hurt me knowing that I will never see the person that made my heart beat so fast. "I won't stop you from saying goodby to her but can you please be discreet."
I didn't say anything, I had nothing to say, all I know is that I would take even a millisecond to be near Kater even though she's dead. I strode slowly my hands shaking while my heart seemed to drop every second I took a step until I reached it.
They say life is like a game of chess, the wiser you are the better you're in that game but if you lose one step you can never recover it up again, that's how life is to me.
Being in the most dangerous crime family was a rough life but there was an upside to it all. It feĺt like the whole world was afraid of what their own indexable demise would be, where be it from, cancer or a car accident or just from serious health issues.
But not me. I have always known what was waiting for me in the end well that's what I thought until I lost my love, my better half of me. I never knew true love existed until I met her but I didn't think my lifestyle will be the death of her.
I just didn't expect it would be the death of her too.
I gazed at the fucking box in front of me, her casket all sealex up because of how her face was too damaged, from the scares that were concealed to her body permentaly. They made sure that we wouldn't even be able to get a glimse of her fair skin, of her angelc face and they had no god damn right.
And now this was what we were left with. Sorrowful words written over this wooden box. They should be the ones in this box.
I grazed slowly the casket putting her favourite Calla flowers on it before I finally felt that warm tear that has been longing to get out. I have always known how to hide my emotions but now I don't even care if there people around here. All I know is that I will never see her again.
I will never see my favourite smile on her face, how she used to wrinkle hrr nose when she thought something was disgusting, her melodius laughter, her beautiful eyes or even how she used to curse me every now and again as if she had narrated it before. I chuckled to myself thinking of how she even called me big man once.
I know my mother would have liked her, they were basically the same, the same fire that egnites when they are angry, the sound of their laughter how it would lighten the mood or their fury when they stood by something and wouldn't let that go. She was basically the same as my mother, she was like the young version of her but with more sass and that was what made me fall head over heels for her.
She was my starting point and now she's my ending point too. I lost her and I will never get her back, thid fight is not worth if she isn't even by my side. This life isn't worth it without her. The only thing that kept me going during these four months without her was the urge to find her and now because she's dead there is nothing for me to leave for.
She was my joy, every breath I took was for her but now she's gone, so what's there for me to live in this god damn world. What's there for me to fight for if she's gone?
During these four months, I was out of my mind. I couldn't hold shit together, I could only explode and that's when shit got messy. I chased every useless lead I could think of in between that fateful night she disappeared and the funeral. I was restless and according to my father, I was reckless but I couldn't care more of what he thinks but now that she's dead, I onky thrive of those monsters blood. I want them dead before they take my last breath away.
I will get fucking justice for her. I will literally fucking do anything to find the people who killed my Kater even if its to please my father zo that he can finally hand the business to me so I can find them.
The priest started rumbling over the roaring thunder for an hour about heaven and how her soul would live on in enternal peace and whatever other bullshit he spun to make us feel better. I have been to many funerals first my grandfather, then grandmother and even other relatives have never even met or cared about in my life did I feel this void in my heart. The emptiness and tge urge to get my revenge, its like one emotion I could feel.
I clasped my hands together tightly feeling the rage pounding through my veins as the priest finished a final prayer, sprinkling I think holy water. I don't think even that can take away the devil that is weighing on my shoulder right now.
When the service was finally over and people started paying their respect to her family, I checked my watch to see what time it is before Delvin came by my side. 'So what's next?" He asked worridely has he saw how stoid I become and he knew this was a calm before a storm, hell even I knew this was what its gonner be. Am gonner haunt every single phsco that laid hands on her even if it will kill me.
"Now I go and say hello to my father before we haunt for Gabriel Valkov" I said with a devious smile on my face as I stalked to my car ready to have a talk with my seet father. I didn't know fucking shit. I had so many questions and zero answered, but I didn't care. I would've killed anyone who even gave me a dirty look at that moment. I'd kill everyone. My figer hovered over the trigger. I wanted to kill everyone.
I know my father knows where exactly that dipshit of a Valkov lives at. I know they used to do business but as usual my father had to fuck up and their alliance ended which for one he was happy because he knew how dangerous that man was and secondly, a fued never formed between the families but now I won't be very sure of that because when I find him, I will make sure to land a few blows before I get answers.
Kater might be my weakness but she's also my strength. And this awakend devil thst ghey have rivived within me is going to be the death of them all.
I arrived at my parent's house and immediately I found my youngest sister sitting outside at the porch, her usual headphones stuck up to her ears. By now the rain has stopped that you can even catch a glimse of the sun.
When I slumped my car's door shut she immediately jumped up as soom as she saw me. She stood patiently at the porch waiting for me to approach her before she engulfed me into a warm hug. Apparently, she doesn't even care that am wet from the rain as she tighten her hold on me.
"How was it?" Her small voice ringed into my ears as she left me go giving me a small smile. I pinched my eyes shut not really ready to talk about it as she ran her hands up and down my arm trying to console me. "It's gonner be okey and heads up, mum is around you wouldn't like her to find you slaking around with wet clothes." She tried her best to lighten the mood but I was too far gone by now.
We entered the house her tugging beside me as she texted someone in her phone muffling a laugh. If it was any other day I would have taken that phone reading through that text, to make sure it wasn't one of those dipshit that try to hit on her every time.
I found my mother humming a song as she made her pastries, her warm smile plastered on her face disappeared immediately she saw me as she wiped her hands coming to my side. "Oh honey, everything is going to be okey."
I hate how she always tries to coo me everytime she has the opportunity but what can I do, she's my mum after all and even if I have to go through this torture so be it. "Mum, where is dad?" I broke the hug she gave me looking around for any sign of my father. Her face fell when she noticed how my features are serious before she strocked my arm slowly.
"His at the study room. Everything is going to be okey."
I nodded giving her a hug before I headed straight to my father. I don't want any of his bullshit anymore, all I want is answers. I opened the door without knocking before I sat down across him as he arched his brow at me from my manners. Oh that's not all dad!
"I want answers, now" I demanded and his frown deepened has if he didn't understand what I meant. "Where is Gabriel Valkov?"
That's right, straight to the point, am done by all the beating bush shit.
"Son-" I cut him off before he could even finish what he was saying. "Don't fucking son me. I want to know where Gabriel Valkov is. All you have done all thid time have been looking for Kater, was only complain how reckless I am and guess what, that didn't fucking help because right now she's six feet under. Now don't try any bullshit and judt answer me."
I was frustrated, no beyond frustrated. I didn't care if he was my father anymore, because he hasn't acted like one over the past months. Its as if he was waiting for her to die so he could finally live in peace from my none ending questions but am only started. He has too much explaining to do.
He sighed heavily, pinching the bridgr of his nose before he looked up at me. "My informant told me that he had a terrible accident and no one has heard of him ever since. Its as if he vanished from yhe face of the earth."
What? Accident? When and where?
"When did you know about this?"
"Just a few weeks ago but the accident occured four months ago just after Kater was gone."
And with that I slumped into the chair that I hadn't realised I stood from trying to fathom everything. He has had an accident right after Kater had disappeared and nobody knows if his alive or dead. More so if he had that accident right after Kater was kidnapped then who took her?
All this time I have been thinking it's her father who took her but after the letter and now that have learnt her father had an accident am not quite sure anymore.