Deion's Pov
Grey was looking after me the whole time.
"They found you a donor it was already scheduled 2weeks from now. Good news right? So take a rest Deion." He smiled and walked outside.
I didn't know when did it started but I have this kind of feeling inside of me.
When I saw Riekko look at me like he needs me I can no longer say no at all.
But.
"Hey Deion I didn't know if I should tell you this but I think you need to know." Bee stared at me in a worried voice.
"Silly what is it?" I asked.
"When we and Finn stayed over with Riekko I accidently peep at his laptop and saw a woman. I actually asked him but he immediately closed it and replied its no one." He said while thinking over.
I didn't know how to react at that time so I smile faintly.
"Maybe its just one of his family." He added reassuring me but I doubt that.
Bee waved his goodbye the moment Riekko walked in the room.
Riekko smiled at me and walked towards me. A lot of things that are coming in my mind that I want to ask him about it but this words came out.
"I wanted to go home can you take me home?" I told him.
I guess I'll keep this to myself its not that important what matters to me is his with me.
When we were at the apartment I somehow notice him worrying about something.
Does his actions prove what Bee told me is that because of the woman?
It saddens me I don't want this kind of feeling at all. Waking up every night crying and staring out of nowhere.
Who is she?
This curiosity make me wanted to know nothing at all because now I regret it.
"Riekko- who are you?" She asked.
"I'm sorry but this is my apartment you are mistaken." I said.
"Oh I'm sorry I'm Riekko's fiance I just got back from states from my treatment." She said and smiled at me.
Those words struck me Fiance? Then what am I? What's my place?
"Leave Riekko doesn't have a fiance he never told me about you. I'm he's partner so get out of here stop lying." I said while holding the door tightly.
"No I won't Riekko is mine! I need him what are you talking about?! You are a guy!" She exclaimed.
"No Riekko is mine he owns me." I said in a dark tone.
"Please I beg you to stay away if you continue to be with him. Riekko will lose everything even his mother's company. Are you that selfish?!" She exclaimed.
"Selfish? Yes I am and I don't care so stay away." I laughed and pushed her.
I saw her bruises which made me froze will you look at that.
"You have leukemia?" I suddenly blurted.
I saw her fist clenched and gave me a smirk while trying to stand.
"Riekko will always be mine, I know he was just using you to forget about me. Look at you weak and vulnerable type it reminds me of myself. Oh well, you can see that for yourself I don't need to tell you about it." She said and walked away.
"You are wrong." I exclaimed.
She stop and spoke. "You bet.
When she's finally gone my knees suddenly weakened and drop myself on the floor.
Tears are flowing in my eyes it hurts so much. I shouldn't have acted strong I doesn't deserve him I will just leave him in the end.
When I felt fine I decided to call him I wanted to be with him. I finally decided what should I do I wanted to be selfish for one last time.
I stayed outside and waited for him while my thoughts are flying ahead.
"Hon what are you doing outside?!" He asked in surprise.
"Oh, you are here nothing I was just trying to get some air." I replied replied and smiled at him.
As much as possible I want to have memories of him. I want to make it as my treasure so I always watch him.
"Hon enough with that video cam I'm trying to cook here." He pouted.
"Naah I can't help it my husband look so handsome." I replied and gave him a peck.
As days when I finally recovered I decided to talk with Finn.
"I wanted to be with him Finn for the last time its enough for me." I said.
"Are you crazy I'm telling Grey about this!" He exclaimed but I hold his hand.
"Finn please I'm begging you, my decision is final and Grey can't stop me." I said.
"Fuck this! Damn! Damn!" He shouted while punching the wall.
I just lowered my head I understand what he's feeling right now. He wanted me to live longer but I can't without Riekko its more than death.
"Don't you care about us Deion? Are we nothing for you?" He said while trying to hold his tears.
"I care thats why I'm finishing all your pains Finn." I smiled at him making him fall into his knees.
Finn didn't tell Grey about our conversation he acted normal in front of everyone.
"Are you going to continue this Deion? You can't hide it to everyone look at you its getting worst." He said looking worried.
"Thats why you are here Finn I know you'll take care of me." I said while giving him the blush ons.
I've been using make ups and tints to make me look livelier as always. Suppressing my pain just to be with Riekko.
"Hon why are you taking a lot of pictures?" Riekko asked one time.
"I wanted to keep it as my treasures." I just replied while keeping everything in the box.
I saw Anna's message to Riekko but I immediately deleted it.
The day has come when Grey confronted me I expected this already to happen.
"What is this Deion?! Are you fucking kidding me! I heard everything from Bee!" He was holding me in both of my shoulders.
"My decision is final Grey." I said in a serious voice.
"Are you crazy?! Deion for pete's sake we've been looking for damn freaking years on a compatible donor! Yet, you don't want to undergo the surgery now that we have one! What the fuck is that a joke?!" Grey exclaimed like he wanted to hit me to wake up.
"Grey I can't do this I just wanted to stay with him until-" He grabbed me at the collar.
"Does Riekko even know about this? What about us who wanted you to live?! You are more concerned about him what about our feelings Deion!" He cried loosing his grip at me.
"I-I'm sorry please don't tell him I beg you Grey don't tell him." I cried blocking him at the door.
"No Deion he needs to know! If I do need to tie you up just to proceed with the transplant I would! Move away Deion I'm telling him now to stop you." He said pulling me away.
"G-grey." I suddenly grabbed my chest.
"Fuck!" He exclaimed and gently brought me back to bed.
I hold him to stopped and he turned at me.
"G-grey don't I'll be fine." I replied.
He look at me and sighed.
"Okay I won't but you need to come with me." He said.
"I will." I replied and stood up Riekko will be suspecting if I take up too long.
Grey walked first and I followed him after. I saw Riekko looking worried again like something was wrong.
"He seems to be troubled because of me." I thought.
I walk towards him with a smile on my face. I asked him to cook something for me and volunteered to open the door.
"Are you still trying to do your best to be with him? It won't last at all." Anna exclaimed glaring at me.
"I'm not as pathetic like you." I replied which made her angry and was about to slap me but Grey grabbed her.
"You don't have the right to lay a finger at Deion you bitch." And pushed her.
"Let's go Deion." He said and grabbed me away.
We drove at the car he prepared already earlier. I stared at the window as we go farther.
"Grey wait I need to look at him one last time please." I beg at him.
He stared at me for a moment and sighed.
I peep inside and saw him carrying Anna.
Who's pathetic now? I saw how worried he is maybe Anna was right after all.
"Are you satisfied to see it from your own eyes?" Grey said and pulled me away.
I smiled faintly and let him guide me back in the car and drove it away.
Everything is a joke I just let myself believe in my fantasies.
Grey didn't brought me at the apartment he stopped at the airport and drag me into a private plane.
"Where are we going Grey?" I asked.
"Away from everyone that will hurt you." He said and hugged me tightly.
I can no longer fake it I cried so hard in his chest.
"Grey it hurts I love him so much." I exclaimed.
"I know." He said and rubbed my back.
"I want to forget everything Grey everything." I cried.
"Don't worry nobody will hurt you again as long as I'm here." He answered.
Grey and I lived with different identities he pushed me to continue my treatment.
But I still declined to undergo the heart transplant.
I've been in the hospital for a month now and I still missed him everyday.
I strung my guitar and started to sing it makes me feel at ease.
(Demons by imagine dragons acoustic)
When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold
When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
At the curtain's call
It's the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl
So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made
Don't wanna let you down
But I am hellbound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth
No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how
When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
A sudden clapped was heard in my door it was Dr. Sean.
"You have a beautiful voice sweetheart." He smiled.
I smiled at him and throw a pillow towards him.
"Whatever playboy." I replied and laugh at him.
"Why do you keep on calling me that? I'm your husband silly." He said and walk towards me.
"In papers." I reminded him and rolled my eyes.
"So what you are my wife now hmm." He said and sniffing me.
"Hey move thats sexual harassment to your patient." I exclaimed.
Sean is always like that and I'm fond of him already. He's been with me ever since we arrived here in Russia.
Grey and him are friends and that guy which is actually my stepbrother was busy at his business.
When did I found out? When this guy was so talkative and love messing at me.
"Sweet you are staring at me again I know I'm handsome." He laughed.
I smiled. "I know you are."
I saw him drop his mouth on what I said.
"Got you!" I said and laughed at him.
"You always surprise me you little devil I almost believe you." He frowned.
Sean was with me and keep me company even if he is busy at work. We actually have a house and we both stayed together so he could watch over me.
"Sweetheart Grey told me that we are going to have a dinner outside." He smiled at me while placing my strawberry cake.
"Thats nice I'll finish this first sweetie." I said and ate it.
Sean is very sensitive he always ask me if I'll agree with it or not unlike Riekko.
Why the hell I'm comparing him to Riekko he must be happy now with Anna.
"You've been thinking again with someone else Deion. I want you to focus on me okay? Just look at my handsome face." He said and kiss me in the forehead.
I nodded right this is my real husband I should think about him.
"Let's go?" He said and hold my hand.
We got in the car and drove he's been telling me about my voice and how much he loves it.
"You keep teasing me again Sean." I exclaimed until another car suddenly rushed into our direction.
"Sean!" I exclaimed and moved the wheel.
Sean's Pov
I woke up with the sting in my brows and roamed my eyes around. I saw Deion and his face was filled with blood.
"Deion?! Sweetheart please wake up!" I exclaimed in panic.
He slowly opened his eyes and reach his hand into my face. I immediately hold it and he smile faintly at me.
"T-th-ank g-go-oodness y-your f-fine." He said weakly.
"What are you talking about I'll get you out of here!" I struggled the seat but I'm stuck.
"Fuck help! Help! Anyone?!" I shouted.
He slowly close his eyes but I hold him tight.
"No don't Deion don't leave me listen to me please sweetheart listen to me." I cried and pulled his seat belt.
I used all my force and manage to pull my foot. I kick the door so hard and manage to open it.
"Just a little bit more Deion." I said and carried him out.
A car suddenly appeared and I block it to stop.
"Please help me my wife!" I exclaimed.
"Get in come on." The foreigner opened the door for us and drove to the hospital.
"Doctor Sean! What happened." Nurse jane asked and help me put him in the bed.
"Please treat him get ready the surgery room I'll conduct the heart transplant now!" I exclaimed as we got in the hospital.
"Are you crazy! You are not allowed to do that and look at your state! Leave it to the others." Dr. Will grabbed me.
"I don't fucking care at all he needs to live please I'll take responsibility about this." I begged him.
He stared at me and sighed.
"I'll go in too call the donor let's get ready." He said.
I thought I almost lost him but the surgery was successful.
He was moved in a private room and I check on him every minute. Grey appeared at the door and look at me.
"What happened?!" He said in a worried voice.
"It was a success Grey but there is one problem." I said I know Deion would be mad knowing about the transplant.
"I thought it was a success!" He said.
"Because of the accident he's head had a great impact there is a possibility he'll lost some of his memories." I said in a sad voice.