...Sebastian POV...
It has been a week since Kati's last chemo; she seems to have settled down, feeling a lot better. But even though her face carries a smile, it does not seem to reach her eyes.
I am afraid that our relationship is going to fall apart in a spectacular way. I have, on many occasions, come close to asking her where our marriage stands, but then I remember that she is under a lot of pressure and that I should not dump anymore than what she is carrying.
After all, she is still dealing with the loss of our child, which I, can honestly say, have not been dealing with in a good way. I cannot say that I have come to deal with it because I have not, and I do not think that I ever will.
So I find myself here, early morning, sitting on the porch as I do with so many mornings alone now and think of how much different things should have been. This is not the way that I have planned my life, and most of all, my marriage to be.
