...Kati POV...
"It is time to forgive myself. There is nothing that I could have done differently."
That is what Sebastian says.
It is the second last day of chemo, and I am in no way doing any better. The pregnancy is touch and go, and those six months seem to be getting closer every day.
Things have become quiet; there are long uncomfortable silences between Sebastian and me. Some days I fear that our marriage is not going to survive, but I think, in fact I know, that there are more days that I believe that I am not going to survive.
I have been trying to speak to Sebastian about making peace with the possibility that I might not be around for much longer. But he wants to hear nothing of it.
Today, before chemo, I have a check-up to see how the baby is doing. He has been quiet the past few days, not really kicking as he used to. Sebastian is concerned, but I am telling him that we are just under so much stress.
