"I never had a daughter so hearing that Amari will live here I got too excited and decorated her room" Auntie Wendy said as she smiled. She looked really happy and I'm relieved to know that.
We are currently eating our dinner since it was already night and for all of us to rest early. Auntie Wendy keeps on talking about how she always wanted to have a daughter but can't because she's busy with work and papa is too.
"Oh by the way" we all looked at papa as he started to talked and looked at me. "Have you bought your things for school?"
I shook my head in response. I almost forgot that school is already the day after tomorrow. The thought of going to school makes me nervous but going to my previous school makes me want to have a panic attack. Mama and me used to live here but since I was having a hard time being here in this place since papa had left us we had to move to another.
"Why don't you go and buy tomorrow with your brothers here" papa said while pointing the twins. I shook my head immediately. I don't want to be near them. I want to avoid them as much as I can.
"I can go by myself" I said as I smiled nervously. I looked at the twins as they were just eating silently and not caring about the conversation. I looked back at papa.
"You sure?" He asked. He must be worried.
"Yup, I've been here before so it's easy for me to buy my things" I said as I continued eating and after a few more bites and got up.
"Ashton! You've eaten less than usual" Amari said with a worried voice as I looked at her. I didn't realize that. Well, it's the first time I've ate something that isn't made by mama or maybe I was just tired.
"I'm already full Amari. Don't worry" I said as I walked to the sink with my plate and washed it.
"If you're tired you can go to your room and have some rest" I heard papa said.
"Okay" I said and finished washing my plate and got out of the kitchen.
I slowly walked towards the front door and opened it slowly. I still don't want to go to my room, I just need fresh air and some alone time. A cold breeze hit me causing me to shiver for a bit. I closed the door as I walked towards the table and chairs next to the tree on the side of the house. I've noticed it when I walked out from the car earlier.
Instead of sitting down on one of the chair I decided to climb the tree and sat on a branch. It wasn't really high so I easily climbed it. I breath the air as I sat comfortably and stared at the sky.
"It's beautiful" I mumbled to myself while admiring the sky that's full of stars. I stared for a while and didn't notice that there's someone who'd follow me until he spoke.
"Are you going back inside of just gonna wait until you get sick?" He said but I didn't look at him. It must be Evan. How'd I know? Well, I just guessed.
I remained silent for a while and ignored what he was saying and until I had enough I climb down the tree and walked towards the door, not bothering on looking at Evan.
"You're rude! Why did you just ignored me?" Evan said as he suddenly pulled my wrist making me face him. He was with his glare again. He must have really hate me.
"I'm doing you a favor. I'll ignore you and act like I'm invisible" I said as I stared at him blankly but his grip on my wrist tighten making me flinch.
"You can't just ignore me" his voice was scary making me tremble and I looked down, not wanting to have eye contact.
"I-I'm sorry" I stuttered as I tried really hard not to cry but it's failing. There are already tears forming from the side of my eye. Why do I need to be this weak?
"Evan! Stop that" I heard Ethan's voice from behind. I felt Evan's grip loosen as I took that chance to pull my hand and luckily he let got. I then ran towards my room while bumping slightly at Ethan making me stumble but I didn't fell and continued running until I was in my room. There were no sign of Amari, papa and auntie Wendy on the living room so I'm assuming they're sleeping already.
I locked my room and jump to my bed and allowing my tears to fall until I feel my eyes sting and feel heavy. Few moments after I find myself slowly drifting to sleep.
"I-I like you" a little boy said to another boy as the smaller boy just looked down. I just looked at them with a hurt feeling.
"I like you too my soulmate" the boy replied as he lifted the face of the smaller boy and placing both of his hand on both sides of the boys face. The face of the smaller boy lit up as he smiled sweetly at the boy in front of him.
I slowly walked towards them as I tried to calm myself but it isn't working. I feel that I'm not in the one who's controlling myself. I let myself be swallowed by my own feelings. I felt a sudden heat on my palm yet I just ignored it. I just continued walking until both of the boys looked at my way.
"Ashton-" I didn't let him finish instead I stopped in front of them and said.
"You guys are gay? Ew" I said trying to looked disgusted. My eyes suddenly widen together with them. I didn't realize I said that. My tears suddenly fell as I ran away from both of them.
I just run and run, not caring of anything. I just want to get out of there. I don't want to see the both of them. I run until I tripped as I fell on the ground.
"Why did I just say that? I didn't mean to say that. I really don't" I mumble to myself as I just sat down on the darkness by myself.
"Ash? Please wake up" I heard a soft but worried voice. I slowly opened my eyes to see my lil sister with a worried face. I smiled slightly.
"Did you have a nightmare again?" Amari said as she wiped my face. I cried while having that dream.
"I'm fine princess. Don't worry" I said as I lift up my body for me to be able to sit down.
"Please don't be like before" she said as she hugged me. My smile have faded with those words of her.
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