Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice.
"Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time.
"I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at."
"Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school."
"None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me.
After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how I exactly left it. A mess. I shrug it off and started cleaning. I won't bother going outside of my room just to recall all those horrible past I had. I wonder if mom still lets him stay here… though knowing mom, she must've replace him with another man.
When I finally got on my bed, I tried my hardest to get a wink of sleep but I just can't. My mind just kept reminding me that I lost Yuji, that there's no way I can ever see him again. In the midst of dwelling in my thoughts, some knocks disturbed me.
"What is it?"
"Are you going to starve yourself? I made dinner and even waited too long for you." How annoying.
"You didn't need to make food for me." I told her.
Mom rolled her eyes and left a tray of food on the floor. "Oh well. I'll be leaving this here."
"Oi! I don't—" she didn't listen and left just like that. As I glanced at the tray, my stomach grumbled. I shook my head and buried my face on the pillow. There's no way I'm going to eat food from that woman.
But it was hard to resist since the smell of the food kept increasing my hunger, so in the end, I ended up eating. "Tch. It doesn't even taste good."
As I finished, I went straight to the sink to clean the dishes. And while washing the dishes, it really annoyed me how some of her framed photos are hanging on the wall. There was also that picture of her clinging on 'that' messed up guy.
She really liked that guy… she really liked him to the point she can't even bother to care about her own kid. Putting back the dishes to its place, I went toward the picture and removed it from the wall.
My hands just started shaking as I stared onto his eyes. Even if it's just a picture, the sight of him doesn't fail to make me tremble. "Does she still love this asshole?"
"…I guess I still do." I got startled when she answered from behind. Turning to face her, I glared at her before smashing the picture on the floor.
"You're the worst! After what he did… I!…" suddenly, something got caught in my throat, not letting me talk about what I want to. My eyes started to feel hot as well, so I turn around again so she won't see how pathetic I was.
Before I could let myself stumble down, I also heard faint sniffing behind me. Taking a glance behind, it stunned me how she began crying as well. "Y-You!…"
"I know… I… I'm so…" she sobbed, not even completing her apology.
And again, it all came back to me… how things got to this.