"Hmmm…" I tried to focus my attention on the discussion. But no matter what I do, my mind keeps wandering off. This won't do, I wanted to impress Yuji with the notes I'll take down for him. I sighed and gone with plan B. I carefully opened my phone and just let it record the discussion.
I'll just let Yuji listen to this.
Then as I expected of myself, I got easily distracted and had myself staring out the classroom's window. The sky is really blue today, this reminds me of that time when I was a kid. Yuji and I really played a lot during our childhood.
It was really awesome to remember that I already spent my time by his side before. I got to see and remember how cute he was back then too! Ahh, such good memories.
Though I never knew things will turn out like this for the two of us. Yuji used to be the person I run to so I can forget my own problems. He was quite a mean kid back then but he change and often looks out for me. Damn, who wouldn't fall for such person? I was really touched when I realized how special he treats me.
I guess I fell inlove with him when we were in our first year in high school. He was the most coolest person when he joined the drama club and acted on stage.
"…you did great! I took a lot of pictures, make sure to show it to your parents too." I told Yuji as I handed him the camera.
He smiles while he looks at the pictures I took. "Thanks, these photos looks good."
"Of course, I'm a natural pro photographer." I joked. It was corny, I know.
"Yeah, right." He laughed along anyway. "Hey, can we go somewhere that isn't crowded? I kind of feel bad."
"Why? Are you sick? We should go to the—"
"No, I just… let's just get out of this place." As we left the gymnasium, Yuji brought me all the way to an empty classroom. That's when I noticed that he looked very sad. I stayed silent as I waited for him to talk about what's bothering him.
Staring at his face while he looks outside the window, I badly wanted to ask what's going on inside his head. I wish I can help him get over on what he's thinking. I get really worried to see him acting like this.
"You know, it's been a while since I joined the drama club…"
"Yes?"
"I joined that club to make other friends but, I think I'm not really suited for that kind of thing. So, thanks for staying as my friend Tomakawa." He gave me the kindest smile he ever had.
On that moment, I was suddenly confused and flustered inside. Though I'm not that dense to not realize that I started having feeling for Yuji. I always wanted to stay friends so I couldn't get hurt, but the more time I spent by his side, the more deeper this feeling get. It was really inevitable, I was already gay after all.