It's funny how fast time passes. And everytime a day is over, it feels like the distance between Toma and I grows bigger and bigger. He's slowly drifting away from me… "maybe I shouldn't have told him to avoid me that time."
"Who are you talking about?" Xia interfered with my thoughts.
That made me realize that I was talking out loud unconsciously. "Ah, nothing. Don't mind me."
"Uh-huh, right." She gave me a look of disbelief. "Something's bothering you, you can't even focus on your part of the research right now."
Looking at the screen of my laptop, it was still an empty draft. I really am distracted by these annoying thoughts.
"Ugh, I guess I need to take a rest first."
"Okay, just don't forget we have to pass this next week." She told me.
"Yeah I'll be taking my leave now." When I was about to put my things in my bag, Xia suddenly mentioned something that blew my mind.
"Oh! Have you heard?…"
"Of what?"
"Your friend Toma got a girlfriend, I saw him yesterday with the girl. They looked good together."
He got a… girlfriend?
"W-When!? How come I haven't heard of this?" I asked.
Then Xia had a face of realization and pity on me. "Oh my, then Toma might didn't want to inform you about this…" She spat her conclusion. Although I badly want to deny it, her guess makes sense.
"Y-Yeah." Toma doesn't want me to know this… I pushed him away after all. But why is it like this?
I don't get it…
"Yuji, I'm sorry but maybe it's not like that-"
I just wanted to be without him for a while…
"I'll finish my part tomorrow, see you."
But why does it slowly feels like he's changing…
"Yuji, wait!"
Toma getting a girlfriend… without my help? Wasn't I supposed to be his wingman?
I ran away all the way back to the dorm, barging inside my room to rest myself. "Ha… it's stupid… I'm stupid. I was the one who wanted this but… why do I regret it like this?"
Like I've said, time pass by so fast. I didn't knew the sky were already dark, and I didn't noticed that Toma was already changing his clothes in this room. "Oh, you're already here."
"Mhm, yeah." He awkward greeted.
Then I couldn't help myself but ask. "I heard you got a girlfriend. Is that true?"
He looks at me with a shocked face but it eventually changes, showing me a genuine smile. "Yeah, I do. I started dating Cami a week ago."
"R-Really? That's great, you always liked her. Congrats." It's kind of weird how they started dating though. Did Cami broke up with Duke, and dated Toma soon after?
"Thanks." Either way, I'm kind of happy for Toma he got what he dreamed for.
Still…
"That surprised me, I thought you wouldn't care if I started going out with Cami hahaha!"
'No… don't think that…'
"What are you saying, you're the one who surprised me. To hear you suddenly dating Cami, I thought you'll want my help on that." I said.
'Didn't you said I'm gonna be your wingman?'
"Ahh… about that, I had Noru help me with that-"
'What?'
"-and I didn't want to bother you since you looked busy these days."
And there it felt like Toma is really kicking me out of his life.
'Haa, I really feel stupid.'