I got the snacks and began to watch our favorite movie. It's not the same without him. I heard my mother come down the stairs. I didn't even bother hiding the snacks from her. She said " Hey. Mind if I sit with you?" I have never once heard her say that so I said sure.
She said" I miss him too. To be honest with you, I always didn't want you both to eat the junk food because I was saving them for myself. You know that I always had a sweet tooth and that I need sweets before bed." Right....I completely forgot.
I said" Mom...why didn't I go with Lily Lu to the party? It's jus not the same without Dad. This day was dedicated to him. He loved me more than anything." She said" I know. He would always check on you before he goes to bed. You know, you could have went with Lily Lu. It was your first party."
I knew that. But....should I just forget about this whole thing? I said" Should I just forget about this whole thing?" She said" No. Because if you do that you would never forgive yourself and......me." I said" What do you mean?"
She said" Well.....I'm engaged with another man." I left her and ran up to my room with tears in my eyes. I then locked the door. I kept hearing her say "Please open the door sweetie". But I wouldn't listen.
Why would she do this? She said she loved him a lot. He felt the same about her. I would never forgive her about this. How could she just forget about him when she told me not to? Am I the only one who cares and remembers about him?
I heard her pick the lock. I got up to block her from coming in but I was to late. She said" Listen....you have to move on. Just like I did. It was hard for me too but I managed." I said" No! Yo found someone better than him! That's how you managed!" I then ran out of the house and kept running. I don't even know where I'm running to.
Great. Now I'm lost. I was in an ally that looked abandoned. It was dark with dust everywhere. And a lot of bugs. Maybe I shouldn't have run off like that. She still cares about me. Most of all.....I should have asked her when was her wedding so I wouldn't show up. The only thing I care about is having a roof over my head right now. Come get me quick.........mom.