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Chapter 62 - Jean's true feelings

"wait what's this small island right here?" Jean (White) asked

"this is the godforsaken island and there's a huge tunnel inside of a cave which was discovered to have the gates to hell" General Orval said

"who discovered it" Jean (White) thought

"about 3,000 years ago a researcher called Thosa Reilo and a couple of soldiers from our kingdom was curious about the island so with much begging the king granted their wish and allowed them to travel to the island and as you can guess after a month of so they learned the island had the gates to hell in one of the caves" General Orval said as he labeled the island "godforsaken"

I guess it will makes sense in this world" Jean thought

"some believe that the Aemoura citizens are quite religious and call us Devils or Demons because they think we flew out of hells gate and made a civilization in the human world" General Orval said

"the nonsense we spout doesn't end in another world, huh" Jean thought

"the king said some Aemoura see some Royals as Devils because he hope it's like that but in reality they see everyone on this continent as Devils or Demons" General Orval said

[1 hour later]

"Tiall Oal, I was the the only Light Magic user on the continent" Tiall said as he bowed at the foot of the table

"Selo Uro, I'm the strongest Dark Magic user in the Kingdom" Selo said as ur bowed after Tiall

"but isn't a bit early for you too be here and it doesn't seem like Jean and Azure are here yet" Queen Drausa said as she sat down

"t-t-t...the King wanted us to come at this hour" Tiall said as he was blushing

"the King told us meet him here specifically" Selo said before someone opened the door

"good morning" Jean said as he walked into the room with General Orval

General Orval walked over to one of the corners in the room and stood with the other Generals as they waited for King Drausa and Azure to enter the room but they didn't need to wait long for Azure as she entered the room three minutes later and General Klass walked to another corner now they were waiting for King Drausa

"Hey Tes, do you know why they're avoiding eye contact with eachother?" Queen Drausa whispered to one of the Generals in the room

"I'm not sure but Kassy and Orvy said that they got into a argument with each other earlier" General Tes whispered back

"ohh" Queen Drausa thought with smile

"...why is there so many Generals here, are they the Royals personal bodyguard or something" Tiall whispered as his body was slightly trembling

"calm down, everything is gonna be fine, it's not like we're going to attack them or something, the only thing we're here to do is train the brand new Royals" Selo whispered as he patted Tiall on the back

"... now that I think about it I can barely sense their m.e" Tiall whispered

"yeah but it's the same as controlling your feelings but it is odd that they can hide it so well already. it's kinda like they've done something similar before" Selo whispered back

"King is probably gonna take a while so you can go ahead and sit down while we wait for him" Queen Drausa said

"alright" Selo said as he and Tiall sat down

"so is there any question you'd like to ask? if you do go on" Queen Drausa asked

"do we need to teach you how to fight without magic as well as with magic" Tiall asked as he looked over at Jean and Azure

"no we only need to learn how to use magic" Azure said before the door opened

King Drausa walked into the room and he walked to the head of the table while the General with him stood in the corner and his attendant stood to the right of him

"I apologize for taking so long but now that I'm here we can start" King Drausa said as he sat down

Selo created a black swirl above the ground to the right of him and he reached his hand into it and grabbed a small paper, Tiall did the same thing but it was a bright yellow mist Tiall took the paper from, the Attendant took both of the papers and gave it to Azure and Jean

"focus all of your m.e into the outer layers of your thumb" King Drauasa said

when Azure started focusing her m.e her thumb began to glow, the color was the same as Tiall's but is was little brighter than his. the glow started filling paper from the bottom, the originally pale white paper was now a bright yellow and as for Jean, his wasn't glowing but it was completely dark and the originally pale white paper was pitch black

"you can stop now the paper is full" Tiall said as he raised his hand

"...did you bring the machines as well?" King Drausa asked

"yes we did" Selo said as two of the small machines stated raising out of the swirl on the table in front of Jean and Azure

"place the papers on the machine" King Drausa said

once they put the paper on top of the machine a hologram appeared above it and for Jean it read "All Dark traits" and the same thing was read for Azure "All Light traits"

"do you know how much time it'll take" King Drausa asked

"it depends but since I'm not limited to certain trait and you also want me to teach them common knowledge etc. as well, so probably is 5 to 7 years at most" Tiall said

"I agree with him, it'll most likely take 5 to 7 years teaching this kid magic and all the other crap, he'll need a familiar for most of his magic but that shouldn't be hard for him since he can use any dark trait" Selo said

"I see well you can start whenever you want but if it's gonna take that long than it's best if they stay with you instead of inside of the castle also you may need to teach them how to kill as well but that might not be too difficult for you" King Drausa said

"before they do that please let them also get over what ever they were arguing about" Queen Drausa said as she tapped her heel on the floor six times

each time she tapped her heel on the floor one hole appeared under the Queen, Jean, Azure, and their personal guards once they noticed the hole, pink chains flew out of it and wrapped around all of them except for the Queen

"bye bye" Queen Drausa said as she sink into the hole

when Jean looked at the hole his body started trembling and he tried getting out of the chains but his body couldn't move almost as if he was paralyzed from the neck down, Azure was just staring at the hole while sweat trickled down her cheeks and it's not as if her body could've move if she wanted it to but even if she could've move her body wouldn't let her as the memories of all of her friends and her kid getting killed kept replaying in her head and as she was getting pushed out of the hole by the pink chains one more memory that was buried deep in her head started playing in her head and her expression changed as her eyes got watery. Once Azure and Jean were fully released from the hole they started hyperventilating. As they tried to regain their composure, General Orval and General Klas rushed to their side, immediately taking notice of their m.e and how unbalanced it was, aswell as noticing their reactions to the holes. Queen Drausa felt terrible as she took her crown off

they were now in a large dark hallway with unlit torches on the wall and no room to be seen, the look of the whole thing seemed like it had been abandoned with no sunlight reaching it for centuries but with a snap, the Queen had lit up all of the torches and the hallway seemed fairly cleaned

"Ms. Arla... you should've used a different portal. They reacted as if they were terrified of going through it" General Tess said

"I really am sorry about that but this place is my private place and that was the only entrance" Arla apologized to both Jean and Azure as she touched wall

once she touched the wall, the interior of the hallway transformed and the color of the walls changed to pink and red. The wall Arla touched turned into a window, and on the other side of the window was a small room with only two chairs and a desk in between them. Half of the room was white, the other half black. The chair on the white side was black and the other side was the opposite color

"where did you bring us?" General Orval asked as he helped Jean up

"we're in a sealed place somewhere but before we proceed I need all of you to promise me one thing" Arla Drausa said as a small circle started appearing infront of her mouth

all of them except for General Tess replied causing the same circle started to appear around their mouth

"Promise you'll keep this place a secret from the others" Arla Drausa said as the circle became more apparent

"even if we don't promise, it won't matter will it?" General Klas asked as she tried touching the circle

"No, it won't. The spell started working the moment you replied to my words and the incantation is to show for but unless you choose to make the promise it's almost like a curse" Arla Drausa said as she touched the wall next the window

"how's that?" Azure asked as she started at the incantation circle

"If you try to tell anyone when you already declined the promise, even if you're talking to the person who also made the promise, If there's one person who didn't make the promise your throat will be crushed and you'll die unless treated properly. If you do manage to survive, the incantation will not deactivate unless I deactivate it." Arla Drausa explained as the wall became a door

"what happens if we do promise and we talk to the other people who promise and someone else is listening?" Azure asked

"well if you did agree to it than your conversation would sound completely different to other people and your throat will be protected" Arla Drausa explained

"in short, the spell would only harm those who didn't make the promise and it will think it's trying to tell other people the secret but it wouldn't harm those who made the promise"  General Tess said

"I'm guessing the only one who can use magic in here is you?" General Orval asked

"that's right, I am the only one who can change the interior and I'm also the only one who can pull is out of this place" Arla Drausa said

after General Tess and Arla Drausa explained the spell's power all of them quickly decided to promise her they won't tell anyone but the pink chains pulled them into the room

"We'll keep them in there until they're ready to come out" Arla Drausa said as she made the window and the door disappear

"you can see them without the window?" General Orval asked

no I can't see them or hear them but I can sense their feeling towards each other in this space so I'll know when to let them out of that room but in the meantime come with me" Arla Drausa said as she walked to the left of the door

as Arla Drausa was taking them somewhere Jean and Azure sat on one of the chairs and tried looking around the room

"do you actually think I don't care for them?" Jean asked as he continued to look around the room

"do you think I only said that because I was pissed off?" Azure asked as she directed her eyes on him

"just answer the question" Jean said

"yes I do think that. I mean ever since we met them and not only them but our group before them you seem as if you didn't care like you was just waiting for them to die just like the others it's even harder to think otherwise because you won't even shed a tear for them, you'll have that blank expressionon your face as if you was expecting them to die at that time" Azure explained

"you want me to shed a tear for as if they'll come back if I do" Jean said

"I'M NOT SAYING YOU HAVE TO CRY FOR THEM  I'M SAYING THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS SHOW THAT YOU CARED AT LEAST ONCE, SHOW THEM THAT YOU DON'T LET THEM DIE THINKING YOU DIDN'T CARE FOR THEM, AT LEAST LET THEM REST KNOWING THAT THE LAST TIME THEY SEE YOU, YOU SHOWED THAT YOU WERE SAD, SHOW THE EMOTION THAT YOU FUCKING CARED WHEN THEY DIED AT LEAST SHOW THEM THAT.... SHOW THEM YOU CARED JUST A LITTLE BIT, STOP ACTING  LIKE YOU HAVE NO FUCKING EMOTIONS" Azure yelled

"I DON'T ACT LIKE THAT, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, I CARED FOR THEM AND I SHOWED THEM ALL OF THE EMOTIONS I HAD" Jean yelled

"BULLSHIT, TELL ME WHEN THE FUCK THAT HAPPENED, WHEN YOU LAST SEEMED ATLEAST A BIT INTERESTED IN THEM" Azure yelled as she ripped the desk from the floor

"..." Jean stood quiet as he was shocked and tried to recall a time like that in his head

"EXACTLY WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT FRUSTRATED FOR THEM BUT YOU DIDN'T FUCKING SHOW KEEP TRYING TO ACT COOL BUT YOU JUST MAKE IT SEEM LIKE YOU DON'T CARE, IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOUR USED TO IT" Azure yelled

as Jean kept replaying all of his memories with Team Twelve, he remembered one that got him extremely frustrated

"I TRIED SPEEDING MY LEGS HEALING BUT I COULDN'T NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED, THEY...JUST...WOULDN'T...HEAL, ALL I COULD DO WAS WATCHED THAT SON OF A BITCH KILL THEM IT FUSTRATED ME SO MUCH BUT THEN EVELYN WOKE UP AND I FELT LIKE I COULD AT LEAST SAVE HER BUT... he shot her and my fucking heart just... I couldn't do it, I know I stood quiet through it all but although it happened plenty of time I couldn't help but watch as both of my FUCKING KIDS WERE SHOT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME... my mind went blank and I lost. I almost forgot we couldn't die so I tried to stop you before you activated the trap but was too late and we we're back in this world, I can never get use to that because it hurt so fucking much but I won't cry...I can't cry because... " Jean said as his eyes were getting watery

"for what, is it because you think it's a sign of weakness, how long have you believed in that... how long and why do you still believe in your Father's words how does help you, Jean the more you hold it in, the more pain you feel just let it all out at least just this once allow yourself to mourn the death of your Mother, Father, Sister, Brother, Friends, and children. I know first hand how much it hurts and it's too much but you still decide not to show any emotion for it, WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THAT" Azure said as she grabbed Jean

"...I...I don't know anymore but I can't allow myself to cry... I just can't" Jean said as he was still looking away from

"LOOK ME IN MY EYES AND TELL ME WHY YOU CAN'T" Azure yelled as she headbutted him

Jean started stumbling backwards as blood leaked from his forehead

"I JUST FUCKING TOLD YOU THAT I DON'T KNOW WHY" Jean yelled as he walked up to Azure and headbutted her

as Azure also stumbled back both of their sadness quickly turned into anger

"THAN THERE'S NO REASON FOR YOU TO NOT CRY DUMB ASS" Azure yelled as she flipped him on his back

as Jean was laying on the floor Azure sat on his body and started punching him until he did cry but after three hits he grabbed of her fists

"WHY THE FUCK DOES IT MATTER TO YOU WHETHER OR NOT I CRY, IF I'M IN PAIN WHY THE FUCK DOES CONCERN YOU?, DIPSHIT" Jean asked

"wha--... YOU CAN'T BE THIS FUCKING STUPID, IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU JACKASS I'VE LOVED YOU FOR OVER TWO THOUSAND YEAR'S, WHAT TYPE QUESTION IS THAT?, DID YOU HONESTLY THINK I STOPPED LOVING YOU AND IF YOU DID THAN YOU ARE ACTUALLY FUCKING DUMB" Azure Yelled

Azure's words pulled Jean's heart strings and he let go of her arms and let them dropped but he lifted one of them on top of his eyes to the ground allowing his body to relax, Jean was no longer mad but he wasn't happy either, his mouth began to curve upwards, the tears started flooding out of his eyes

"...I'm...so sorry... Azure I did. I know the way I've acted after you told me was stupid and I'm sorry   but I'll only let you see my tears. I can't hold them in no more" Jean said as he covered his eyes with his hands

Azure pulled him in close and held him tight as the tears wouldn't stop flooding out of his eyes as his heart was in pain he wanted to go crazy but Azure helped him and calmed his heart down although the tears wouldn't stop flooding out his heart was calming down

"I wanna kill Ryoa and that Lieutenant but I don't know if I'm ready to go back to that place" Jean said

"I agree, we can just wait until our training is done but I don't know if I can ever step in that place again" Azure said as she tightened her grip on Jean's shirt

"those were the best 16 days of my life, I truly enjoyed hanging out with them" Jean said as more tears flooded from his eyes

around 30 minutes passed, the Window and door appeared again and Arla Drausa was on the otherside of it and waited for them to come out

"their feelings were mixed up and changing a lot but hopefully they made up though" Arla Drausa said as she put her crown on

"thank you Ms. Arla but we're good now" Azure said as she walked out of the room

"so are you both ready to head back now?" Queen Drausa asked

"Yeah. We're ready" Jean said as he walked out of the room rubbing his face

Queen Drausa tapped her heel on the floor six times and the portals appeared below all of them, again pulling them back into the dining room

"are you finally done?" King Drausa asked

"Yes, they're ready to go whenever now" Queen Drausa said

"alright than we'll be leaving now" Selo said as he stood up