I was absolutely speechless the entire day. I literally could not function past the shock I received at the beginning of math class. I can't remember if I even uttered a single word since then. As soon as the bell rang signalling the ending of school, I wasted no time getting out of there. I needed space to process the information that my ex boyfriend was back. I didn't even say goodbye to Paris. Come to think of it, I don't think I said anything to her after math. I barely remember anything the teachers said through out the whole day.
Damari is back.
Despite what Aubree Graham and about ninety five percent of Aeroline High population believe, I did not get detention on my first day of my senior year. At least I can say that I accomplished something today. My dad should be proud, I honestly can't see the rest of my senior year going this great.
As soon as I got home I let out a frustrated scream, going to the kitchen to get a water bottle and making my way upstairs to my room, all the while lost in deep thought. Turning around to face my room I let out another scream of surprise at the figure in front of me. I looked to my open bedroom window then back to the person in front of me.
I really shouldn't be that surprised.
"Get out". I said immediately. Without hesitation.
"Babe-"
"Do not call me that and get the hell out of my room. You wan't to talk to me, next time try the front door". I said as firmly as I could.
"If I did try the front door, would you have honestly let me in"? Blake said. I hated the way those blue eyes were looking at me, like he knew every inch of me both inside and out. I can't stand it. I can't stand it because it was spot on.
"No I wouldn't have, that is the whole point". He let out a deep sigh and looked at me from head to toe. I'm trying desperately to stop myself from shaking.
I absolutely hate how much I still love him.
"I've missed you".
He took a step closer to me and I took a step back, backing me against my room door.
"No". I said and was surprised at how firm my voice sounded.
"You do not get to do this". I continued. You disappeared without an explanation and I have not heard anything from you since then-"
"If you would let me explain-" He tried.
"I don't care about your explanation now, I care about the fact that your in my room and as far as I can tell your not welcome here. Now get the hell out". I said angrily. I could hear the emotions seeping into my voice. All the hurt, anger, frustration and betrayal.
I could also see the guilt and regret in his eyes but at this moment I didn't care.
"Fine I'll go. For now. Just know this is not over". He said. I heard the truth in every word. "I still love you". He gave me one more look filled with guilt and regret and left
As soon as he was out of my room all the emotions that I've been holding back came out. I couldn't stop it if I tried.
I ignored all of my calls and messages and cried all night long.