"Say your life broke down,say it did,what would you do to hold it back up"? I had asked
"I would hold you till the end of time" Was his response
That was the response given to me by my boyfriend about a year ago when I asked him that question. It still has the same effect now that it did on that night. He was the only thing keeping me from running away at that time because when we met I was on the edge. There was nothing holding me back from falling over. At that time I loved the edge because when I'm ready to fall over there would be no one there to stop me from just letting go, I didn't have anybody to keep me from letting go but then he showed up.
We met at this 18 and over night club that my best friend dragged me to and in all honesty we were all only 16 at the time and we met there. He was the typical bad boy and I was in no way a good girl but I wasn't nearly as bad as him. He made me feel safe like the world could be ending and I wouldn't mind as long as I was in his arms. He made it possible to go through my messed up life as if it was nothing. It was as if I could face it all with him by my side. I could feel this way because he would always be there and with him around everything became easier somehow.
My life was broken but he was the only glue and that's why I asked him that question,but he asked me back as well:
"Say your life broke down,say it did,what would you do to hold it up back"? He had asked.
"I would look for you because your the glue." I had responded.
He was my bad boy holding me together because he was that never ending glue but around a month after, he had left. I woke up to his leather jacket that he loved, around me and a note on top. His masculine cologne was all I smelled. The window to my room was open. In all fairness I started leaving it open around two months after meeting him because he would sneak into my room sometimes and if I were sleeping he would simply hold me and it would be one of the best sleeps I've had. Sometimes I would get nightmares and he knows when he holds me it don't come as often. I had smiled at the note, thinking it was a romantic note, but as I began to read I became confused.
"Say your life broke down,lets say it did,Just hold on to forever because we will be forever"
DP
Forever was what was on the heart locket necklace he gave me. It came with a key but he had the key, he kept it on a chain around his neck. In the heart locket was a picture of me and him,I was looking at the camera and he was looking right at me. That was the last I heard of him since then and now it has been a year. It has been hell without him and then I find myself clinging to the edge again but then he shows up back into my life and I would remember those words from a year ago.
But say your life broke down, lets just say it did, find what is worth the pain because it is one hell of a ride.