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Chapter 6 - Conversationalist

"She's not really your friend."

"He doesn't care about you.."

"Your brother can't stand you anymore..."

"You're going to get fired...."

"Your manager finds you annoying....."

"Do you hear yourself?? Your voice is high pitched and annoying..."

Why isn't she really my friend? What did I do?

"Nothing.. just pay attention to how she acts..."

It's normal? There's nothing there, you're making yourself overthink. See she wants to make plans and says she misses you..

Why doesn't he care about me?

"I don't know. I mean how could he, why would he?"

I mean I guess.. but he tries his best.. he says he cares.

"Yeah, it's not him.. it's you. I don't know why though."

Uh okay.. that's great thanks. I haven't even done anything. Everything's fine.

Pshhhh what are you crazy? My brother loves me. He spends time with me. And he gets jealous if I don't spend enough time with him or my sister in law.

"Yeah, but he gets annoyed easily with everything you do."

Not everything.

"No not everything, but trust me."

Uh okay.. he loves me though.

What?! Why am I going to get fired?!

"Because they don't actually like you, they put up with you. You mess up a lot. You're not a car person, you don't know anything about them still, you've been there over a year."

I don't know a lot about them no, but I have learned a lot.. and I'm still learning! At least I do more than some of my co workers.

"Yeah but you're going to fuck it up trust me."

But it's been over a year and they didn't have to hire me on, remember I was a temp.., plus if they didn't want me  they would make me leave.

"Possibly. But I don't know it's just not right..."

Uh okay?

Wait why is he annoyed by me?

"Seriously?! You mess up orders in the computer. You're customer service skills are alright. You don't know when to shut up. You're annoying."

But I'm still doing more than some. And if he didn't like me he wouldn't talk to me so much and let me in on his life and joke with me and tease me. He didn't do it with one of the guys out back because he doesn't like him...

"I said he finds you annoying, not that he doesn't like you. Different things dumb dumb."

Oh my bad. I think you're overthinking...

Yes I get it, I'm annoying.

"Yes, but have you heard yourself?! It sucks that I'm you and have the same voice. It's annoying, almost like an obnoxiously high pitched bird. I wish I could make you stop talking forever "

What?! Why? It's not that bad. Plus I smoke so it got better.

"Yeah sure. Just shut up okay?"

Okay...