Every day now i rush out of camp in the morning to go hunting knowing Blake is going to be waiting for me, for the first week it was bliss, i couldn't get enough of Blake, i would spend most of the day in his arms and we would chat about life being different for us, each day he would also swap t-shirts with me so i could have his scent as fresh as possible, i was no longer embarrassed about wearing them because it had become routine, Blake was even smart enough to wear the same colour t-shirts so nobody would notice the switch for which i was grateful for. But as time went on Blake was more and more on edge whenever he came to see me until one day i couldn't take it anymore "are you going to tell me what's wrong or should i just keep fearing the worst?" i say as im lying in his arms, he looks down at me and frowns "what do you mean?" "well you have been getting more and more distant with me for a start " he hugs me closer ,kisses my forehead before he sighs and says "im sorry i didn't mean to be off with you its Bianca ,something's going on with her and father seems different " he looks at me before saying " i think he's planning something but i dont know what ,im worried i just don't want them to get an idea that you are hiding here" i can see he's scared for me and he wants to say more "Blake ,what ?say what you have to say please" he looks at me and my heart stops i know i don't want to here what hes going to say , he gets up and walks to the tree he used to watch me from i frown as he reaches into the bottom of the trunk and pulls out a small rucksack and steps carefully back to me keeping eye contact with me ,my heart feels heavy as he sits beside me "i wont be coming back" "what ?Blake no why iii..ii please don't leave me" "shshhhhh baby this isn't about leaving you ,in this bag is money ,lots of money take it ,take your friends and go " im horrified at what hes saying to me "what and go where? where could i go without you" "please its safer for you i want you safe lissa baby" "bu bu but but" "no buts Lissa for once you will do as your told " "why should i ?" demand angry "why well because i love you that's why" and that's it my promise to myself is broken,tears are streaming down my face and i can't seem to stem the flow, Blake looks at me in shock before he smiles and the next thing i know is he's kissing me as if his life depends on it then he breaks the kiss and says " and these tears are proof that you love me too baby " he hands me the rucksack looks me in the eyes and says look in the bag before you go back then he kisses me again and is gone , i curl into a ball and cry my heart out for a long time before i can calm myself down enough to look into the bag.
I slowly open the bag ontop is one of Blake's used t-shirts which i hug to myself then there's a small velvet box and a note underneath the note is money, lots of money, its full to the brim with notes but i don't care about the money so i turn to the box and slowly open it and gasp lying on a pillow is a pair of earrings with a dangling heart on each one, they match the bracelet and neckless so i turn over the hearts knowing they will be engraved ONLY MINE my heart was in my throat so i turned to the note,
Hey baby, so i guess its that time, i knew it was going to come so i planned, i want you to take this money to sam, tell him you need to leave head as far away from here as you can, i know you don't want to leave me but you have to i need to know your safe, whatever you do trust your instinct and trust sam he's a good man, so i want you to take the others and go don't look back i will be fine and know that no matter what you will always be in my heart I LOVE YOU BABY with all of my heart but i couldn't live if you weren't here in this world so i want you to go be safe and for me Lissa i want you to be happy. Always and forever yours B xxx
with the rucksack in one hand the letter scrunched in the other hand and tears once again streaming down my face i stumble through the forest to find sam.