I'm exhausted, my mind has been replaying every detail of the last twenty-four hours on a loop, It's amazing to me how one day could provoke so many emotions, I shifted in my seat feeling a sharp pang between my legs, I winch, I'm still very tender in my lower regens.
I decide to pull into the next highway motel.
Once I'm safely closed into the room, I make the decision to turn back on my phone, I have over thirty missed calls from Callie, more so from Hunter, and countless texts from the both of them, the underlining message that I can gather is that they will find me.
I'm not worried I know Callie wouldn't expect me to flat out go to my father, without a plan of action at least.
I desperately wanted to reply to them, but honestly, I haven't the slightest idea of what I would say.
I'm scared of so many things; I'm scared of what happened, the fire and the night I spend with Hunter, I'm scared because I know I will never again be the same I crave him in the most innocent form, I want to be safe and warm within his arms, I want to hold his hand walking down the street, I'm scared that I once again had to leave him mostly I'm scared to be alone.
I fear my father and what he is capable of, and who am I to bring the people I love into this situation? I was born into it, but I selfishly brought them into it.
I close my eyes and wait for the sweet release of sleep to overtake me, after all, Nevada's calling.
Bang! Bang! Bang! Loud banging ripped me from my sweaty dreamless sleep. I was instantly alert, my eyes snapped open, and my body folded rigidly, there's no way he's found me, my heart was just about bursting out of my chest.
"Siran, I know your in there, open this immediately!"
Callie? That was impossible she couldn't be here I rush to the door throwing it open and fall straight into her arms and just let everything go every emotion I have been overwhelmed with flowed out of me and onto her.
Tears streaming like a magnificent tsunami washing us both out to sea, I could feel her sharing my pain, comforting me without words.
A small clearing of the throat alerted me of the presence of Andy and Hunter, my heart exploded with joy, sadly short-lived, suddenly I was angry, I pushed Callie away from me, "what are you doing here!" I growl.
"Me? Why did you run off like that, why do you insist on doing everything alone?! OF COURSE, I WOULD COME AFTER YOU, YOU'RE MY FAMILY, YOU STUPID ASS!"
I deflated, "I can't lose you, any of you" I sniffle.