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Trinity
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The dinner date with Reece was a total surprise. I didn't expect it at all. But I enjoyed myself, probably more than I should have. But it turns out he was only after one thing. Why can't we get closer, get to know each other, without him wanting to move in that direction? I don't want to be a distraction to him, just a plaything for him to use when he sees fit.
The bad thing is, it was really hard for me to turn him down. My body wants him. My heart tells me I love him. Nevertheless, I know that I don't know him well enough for that. I need a better connection with him, something more than just fate telling me he's the one. I need him to tell me I'm the one for him. I need to know that he accepts me and that he won't find solace in anyone else. But will I ever get that?
I sincerely hope so. I hope that we can have more nights like Saturday. More nights where we talk and get closer. More time when we could enjoy each other's time.
