It's cold. The wind is blowing me. I shivered lightly and slowly opened my eyes. " Whe-ere am I-I...? "
There is nothing in here. All I can see is white. No colors other than white. Nothing I can do. Nowhere I can go. I still remember those both cunning evil people. They were the fault of my misery, my sufferings, my dead , my lost , my everything. How I wish to have revenge on them. How I wish to make them pay it all. How I wish to watch them being tortured all in their entire life. How I wish to destroy their baby. There is half part of my soul wanting to kill their offspring. And the other half of my soul not wanting to kill their offspring because the baby did nothing wrong. Everyone should experience their own life. But anyway I can't do nothing. I'm already dead.
I let out soft sobs. And the more I think, sobs turns into cries and questions. Why would God give me a life full of lies surrounding me. What did I do to deserve all of this. Why do I deserve to die..? Should I blame myself or God...?
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Seconds, minutes , hours , days , weeks , months , years. How long was I here..? I don't know. Not knowing how long was I stuck here. I wasn't hungry. I wasn't feeling cold or hot. I was bored. Why am I here..? Shouldn't dead people be in heaven..?
Sometimes I sing, but I stopped because I didn't have inspiration. I keep chanting I'm bored again and again until I fall sleeping.
Today was the same. I just keep looking at the white wall all annoyed. My eyebrows were furrowed. And for the million times I asked the wall " What am I doing here..? " " Stupid wall. Just answer me. I'm all bored. " And just like always no one answered and nothing happened. I sighed feeling the need to do something. Being here is killing me.
" Rosabel...." A deep male voice said. I flinched and got scared. I moved my head looking all around me and still I saw no one. Was I imagining things..? Oh my ... am I becoming delusional..? I wanted to cry.
Before I could cry the same voice said again " Rosabel, honey , you are not becoming delusional. Look up here, above you. " I looked up and thank god. I saw a human upper's body part above me. So I relaxed a little bit. He was handsome looking.
" Who are you..? " I hesitated a little bit and asked the stranger. Why was someone talking to me at this moment. And who was he?
" I'm God. All this while I watched you. You were getting bored and I decided to come here to talk with you. " He said. He was not rude but gentle.
God..? I can't believe it. This handsome young looking man was God himself. He is the one watching all over us mortals. He is our superior.
" God, why am I here..? " I asked him.
" This is the place where everyone dies and stays here until I decide to move them to another place. " He answered back giving me soft smile. My heart melted. He smiled at me . How I miss the smiles people haves. This was the first time I was talking with someone since I was stuck in here.
" Oh.." " God, why was my life so sorrowful..? Why did it turned out like that..? I don't remember doing some wrong doings that needs to be punished. " I cried out at him. I really feel like I needed answers.
" Dear , I know , it was horrendous. A nightmare for such a young girl like you. I'm sorry but that was your future. I can't change it. " He said with an apologetic look on his face.
" But I can't let things just like that. Was it necessary for me to die..? Couldn't I at least survived from that burning place..? I want to pay them back. They don't deserve to live. They are evil. Evil people should die. " I said to him feeling slightly angry but calmed it down not wanting to yell or snap at him. I have my morals and principles. My parents taught me that yelling or getting angry won't solve things. Talking in peace is the only way.
" Sorry dear. I know that you want revenge. I will give you a chance to live again. You will be reborn. You deserve it. You are a young lady with a pure heart. A pure angel. " God said with a smile. I had big smile in my face. He gave me a chance to live again. All I want to do is my revenge.
Continuing he said .."A little advice for you. Never change the way you are. Don't be cold to anyone. Don't ignore the one's who cares for you. Not everyone approaching you has an evil motive. You just need to be more careful. Not everyone is the same. Also don't be so blinded by revenge because you may harmed others or people you care and you will regret it in the end. Your new life is not only going to be of revenge. You are also going to experience the love that belongs to you, new feelings you never had felt but it all depends on you. Don't be ignorant. "
" Thank you God. I'm so happy. I will make sure to remember your advice. I know that everyone is not evil. But right now I just can't trust people that easily. I don't know if I'm still going to be loved. This chance is my new life. " I said feeling happy and sad at the same time.
" Don't worry much. Remember I will always stay by your side and seeing you from here, in the sky. Now come here." He said while gesturing me to come closer to him with his right hand wiggling a little bit.
I came closer to him standing in front of him. He gave me a small circular black token. It said my name and the words 𝒓̲̅𝒆̲̅𝒃̲̅𝒊̲̅𝒓̲̅𝒕̲̅𝒉̲̅ . And a small glass bottle with a brown corp. There was liquid inside of it. The liquid was light blue with a little bit of white color.
" Take this. Now go inside there. You will cross a bridge. Keep walking till you find an old woman. She will tell you what to do. " He said while pointing to an open narrow way.
" Thank you God. Just watch me from where you are. " I said and giving him a hug telling him how grateful I am. He hugged me back patting my head. " Now go angel, it's soon for me to go." He said and just like that I walked away to the open narrow way and looking back at him once and giving him a big smile with some tears on my eyes. I waved at him and he gave me a nod.
I walked in. The walls were still the same. White. I walked and that's when a beautiful and majestic decorated door was popped in front of me. I went for the doorknob slowly turning it around. The door opened and in front of me was a bridge. The bridge was fully made of gold. There were dark green thick and long roots falling down above the bridge. Flowers of different type and colors. 𝐵𝑒𝓁𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓈𝒾𝓂𝒶 𝑒 𝒸𝑜𝓁𝑜𝓇𝒶𝓉𝒶. ( 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕 )
Such a beautiful path. I keep walking until there is a big sign saying THE END. I walked to the sign and beside it there was red small square shape button. I pressed the button and an appealing old woman came out. She was dressed in a simple long sleeve red dress. She looked kind and friendly.
I came to her. She started saying " Dear, look at you. You must have suffered a lot. " Indeed, it was true. " Hi ....hmm.... yeah. " I said to her. " Oh , let's get you out of here. I'm pretty sure you are nervous and excited. " She chirped out happily. And I just giggle back.
" Now, put the token in the small hole from this tree. Drink the liquid and give me the bottle. " She said while directing her hands towards the tree near me. I did what she said. " Good. Now the only thing left is just going inside that door. Sweetie, are you sure you want to do this..? There is no going back. " She said while having a concerned face.
" I'm going. I will not regret it. " I sighed and was determined. I won't change my mind. Even though it's already late to change my mind.
She gave me a smile and softly told me a " Good now go. "
I gave her a hug like I gave one to God. I walked inside the door and then everything went black. I wanted to speak but couldn't . I felt like I was drowning. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. And just like that I was blackout.