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Chapter 9 - Chapter 9

Chloe's Pov

I woke up with a bad headache. My head was killing me. I don't remember how the hell, I got home. I was at Zoey's house, then I went to a bar, got drunk, then what happened, God knows. It's 6 am and Monday.

Time skip: At School

I managed to make the morning without bumping into anyone I didn't want to. Currently I was hanging out with Ivy by my locker.

"You went to a bar, without me?" She asked.

"Oh, I didn't plan it, I just went there, but we can go for partying next time"

"Promise?" She is cute.

"Yeah, promise" I replied, I was about to drink water, but someone suddenly bumped into me and spilled the whole bottle on me.

"What the hell" I freaked out.

"Sorry, I didn't notice" She apologized.

"It's ok, excuse me" I excused them and walked to the bathroom.

As I was about to leave the bathroom someone blocked my way. I looked up and it was Stella.

"We need to talk" She said.

"What about?" I asked.

"Yesterday's night" She said and looked at me, but I had no idea what she was referring to.

"I have no idea, what you are talking about" I explained.

"You don't remember it?"

"What don't I remember?" I was annoyed and aching.

"What is the last thing you remember?" Stella asked me, clearly irritated by my blackout.

"I was at Zoe-friends house and then I went to a bar but I don't remember what happened afterwards"

"You were at Zoey's house?" Stella asked me surprised.

"No, I said I was at friends house"

"Whatever"

"So, what happened?" I asked cause she still didn't tell me anything.

"I was at the same bar, then I saw you sitting alone. So, I approached you and we kinda argued"

"That's it?"

"You were drunk so I-"

"Please don't tell me something happened between us" I quickly cut her off and looked at her.

"Let me finish"

"So I decided to drove you home and while I was driving, you.."

"I what?!" I was now sweating and impatiently waiting for her to explain, what happened.

"You suddenly started to seducing me"

"Then?"

"Then we fu-"

"No, we didn't" I was not ready for this.

"Actually we did"

"No, you just took advantage of me because I was too drunk and I don't remember shit" I was pissed off not at her but at myself for not remembered anything.

"What? You was the one who-"

"Stop! I don't want to hear a word come out of your mouth, get out of my way" I walked past her.

"Chloe!" She called after me, but I left. I was now scared. Scared to face the reality. Why did I even get drunk in the first place. Like there was not enough problems in my life.

"Hey, what took you so long?" Ivy asked.

"Oh, nothing"

"What happened, you okay?"

"Yeah, let's go"

Time skip: At Home

I heard the doorbell rings. I opened the door and saw someone I didn't want to see at all "What are you doing here?" I asked her.

"I wanted to see you" Stella admitted while keeping an eye contact with me.

"Why?"

"To find out how are you doing and if you need a company" She kept looking me straight into eyes and it was kinda terrifying cause she didn't move a muscle.

"I am fine, you can leave now" I said and was about to close the door but her leg stopped me from doing so.

"Do you think I am dumb?"

"Actually, I do" I said and fake smiled at her, which caused her to clench her jaw and look me dead in the eyes.

"You deserve a slap Chloe. This is not how you talk to people" She growled at me.

"Do it" I challenged her and opened the door, so we would actually stand face to face. Stella just silently eyed me up and down, before stopping at my face, she was observing my behavior, she wanted to know if I was serious.

"Do it" I whispered to her ear but she still didn't do anything.

"I know you want to, do it" I know I was testing her patience. But she didn't move an inch.

"That's what I thought" I said and tried to walk away, suddenly she yanked my arm, making me turn around. She pushed me to the wall, she immediately smashed her lips on mines. I was surprised by it. But almost instantly kissed her back without realizing it. She smirked at me and let go of me.

"That's how you kissed me that night and made me instantly kiss you back, I don't regret it though" She said and crossed her arms on her chest.

"Come in" I said and gestured her to come inside. She was surprised but happy.

"Thanks" She quietly said and went inside. I went after her and closed the door.

"So what were you doing?" She asked.

"Nothing much" I replied.

"Chloe I'm sorry" Stella said and sat beside me.

"For what exactly?"

"For beating you up and whatever happened with Leah"

"You have no idea what happened" I said immediately felt my eyes was getting teary.

"Let me help you, let me get you through whatever happened" Stella said softly.

"You think it's that easy? It's not something I want to talk about. I-it's something I'm trying not to think about. But this stupid mind won't let me forget it," I said angrily.

"I'll try to help you forget it, I promise"

"It's not that easy" I was so close to cry but trying not to.

Stella's Pov

I was trying so hard to know what was bothering her so much. I know, it must be hard for her to explain. But I wanted to help her. I kneeled in front of her and she closed her eyes, she must be thinking about the stuffs, that happened.

"When someone touches me, it's a reminder they are there, a reminder of what happened. My mind fills with memories from that night" Chloe said quietly.

"What do you feel?" I asked carefully.

"I feel the whip hitting my back, again and again, each time it hits harder. It's edges are so sharp that it eventually rips my skin, I can feel the blood on my back, my back is burning but it doesn't end there. I wish it does, she flips me over, I thought she wants to apologize, make sure I am alright but she doesn't care. Hearing me shouting, seeing me in pain only turned her on. I say no, that I don't want it but she takes what she wants, she's selfish. I feel her on me, her lips, her hands, everything. I remember me trying to ignore what is happening, but I can't. Feeling her taking what she wants, hurting me, destroying me," Chloe said slowly, finally opening her eyes. She didn't even realize she started crying while talking. I was shocked and just silently listening to her.

"Feeling her taking part of me and scaring me both physically and mentally is unforgettable, it's unignorable, it's carved into my mind forever" Chloe whispered, hurting, accepting it.

That's when she fully broke down hysterically crying, feeling the pain all over again. I immediately sat next to her, wrapping my hands around Chloe and pulling her closer, soothing her.

"I got you, It's okay" I whispered to Chloe's ear, comforting her, holding her. She let her cry, to get it all out.

Then she took off her sweater and her upper body was revealed, I closely watched her upper body, studying every bruise she had.

"I-she, she owns me," Chloe whispered once she stopped crying so much "She marked me for life"

"Those scars don't define you, you define yourself", I said firmly, but caringly "And you are the strongest person I know. You have been through so much, but you keep going, you are still here. I know you will get through this, Chloe" I finished, giving Chloe a soft smile and wiped her tears away.

"They are horrendous, I hate them" Chloe confessed, keep her head down, looking at her hands.

I lifted her chin up, making her return the eye contact "You are absolutely beautiful Chloe, every single part of you. Promise me you won't let anyone make you feel otherwise" I said lovingly.

Chloe slightly smiled at my words "I promise" She whispered, looking into my eyes.

I leaned in placing a longing kiss on Chloe's forehead, who couldn't help but smile.

"Come on, let's get you in bed, you look tired" I said, getting up and taking Chloe's hand, leading her to the bedroom. I helped her to change into pajamas. I made sure she was comfortable.

"You can stay the night" I was kinda surprised by her words but also happy about how comfortable she was getting with me.

I smiled and got under the covers with her. Chloe lied on her side and I scooter over to cuddle her, being the big spoon. Showing Chloe she had me, wanting to make her feel safe and loved.

"Goodnight" Chloe whispered looking on the wall in front of her.

"Goodnight" I whispered back, placing a goodnight kiss on Chloe's temple.

I was sure Chloe fell asleep due to her slower steady breathing. I needed to say it aloud, fully accept it.

"I love you," I whispered biting my lip, I said it because I knew Chloe wouldn't hear it. "What are you doing to me" I was asking more myself than sleeping Chloe anyway, processing my feelings.