After speaking those words I saw a light and then all of a sudden darkness...
After a few minutes of nothing happening I began to think about what exactly had happened and what I had to do now.
This whole time I had just trusted my instincts without even thinking about my actions.
I guess it was just too incredible of a situation to think anything.
I might have an explanation for what had happened but I of course can't say anything for sure.
I believe that everything began with experiencing that ominous feeling for the first time. It could be that after achieving a state of mind where you don't really care about what happens to you, when you don't really care about yourself and wouldn't really mind dying, just simply when you don't feel like having anything in life that really matters anymore.
Then this world will probably try to reject you or turn your mind back to a normal state like a normal human would have. If you reach that state of mind you will probably just naturally start to feel an ominous feeling like in my case and then when you notice the feeling getting stronger, the increasing strength of the feeling probably symbolizes the end, or in my case an unexplainable situation.
Though that didn't work in my case, I wasn't just depressed and was almost ready to end my life or something. I was just clinging to the chance of fleeing this world, which I feel like I don't belong to anymore, like a singularity or an error in the system.
So in my case it backfired really badly, because I had actually been hoping for a development like this.
I was still nervous, but not really because I feared my upcoming death, but rather because I didn't want to mess this chance given to me up.
While waiting and just thinking, not really doing anything special it was slowly getting brighter around me.
When I was finally confronted with the situation that was supposed to change my mind I was supposed to change, but I didn't not even at the sight of my "friends" getting killed. Not even at the sound of their endless screams of pain.
But I didn't really care it was not because I am a psychopath or someone who somehow enjoys seeing their friends die, no it was because I was just not thinking about it, it wasn't possible compared to the possibility of the situation in front of me developing into a chance for me.
My goal of finally somehow leaving this world.
This was probably not supposed to happen and if I thought about everything rationally I wouldn't be here, it would probably have developed exactly like it was supposed to and not like this.
But now I can't help but smile and be happy about the chance that I could be given.
"Who would've ever believed that something like this could really happen."
Its getting brighter and brighter and now I can actually see where I am. But there's not a lot to see anyways just a bright room, if I didn't think about what had happened and not understood what had happened. Then I would've probably still be in a completely dark room.
Or not I really can't know anything, I could very well just be in the palm of some person's hand being played with, but I don't care I mean why would I it wouldn't change anything anyways.
"But what am I supposed to do now?"
I thought back to what the message at the very end, before I entered this weird place said.
"[Protagonist Luca... you seem to have no use for this world anymore...you don't belong to this world, so I am now going to sent you to another world... a world you are actually going to have a place in] [Good Luck], that's what it said, wasn't it? hmm... I guess I haven't been sent to another world yet have I? What the heck am I supposed to do now?!"
"Well maybe I should just say out loud, which kind of world I would like to be in I guess?"
[Initializing Memory transfer]
I tried to think about exactly what world I would like to be in. But I didn't exactly want to mess up by making me completely overpowered, although I don't know what's possible and what not. Also it really wouldn't be fun to just be really strong from the beginning.
But I noticed fairly quickly that it was actually easier than I had initially thought.
But it makes sense, after all I had always thought about this world. Exactly what I wanted it to look like, I dreamed about wandering through lands with mountains piercing through the clouds.
Different races, which are different, more powerful or worse than humans. Definitely no highly technologically advanced world, because that wouldn't really make sense if I wanted to flee from a world like that just to get into exactly such a world.
Magic, definitely some kind of magic but not something everyone should be able to just have from the moment they are born.
I thought about a lot of details in that world, what kinds of races I would like to see, magical or logic defying weapons, unthinkable kingdoms, magic, good and evil.
This was not supposed to be a purely beautiful world, but I wanted it to honestly just be much more fun than my previous one.
More nature, physical structures that don't make any sense, which are only possible because of the existence of magic.
And then after a long time of thinking, not even noticing how much time had already passed I heard something and looked in front of me.
[A suitable world has been found]
[If you're ready to proceed enter the gate]
[Good luck in your new world]
Am I now finally at the turning point? I can't get too happy yet, but this is already way more than I had previously wanted to achieve.
"Well I can't just go there without having a plan."
Why? Because I was still a bit suspicious, the first message that appeared, I had to sit here for so long that I completely lost my sense of time, just thinking about something not given any clues at all. Just a "good luck", so it wouldn't be too much to call this a challenge, would it?
"If it wished me good luck I guess it wouldn't hurt to be cautious."
I checked if I still had the knife, I wanted to use in order to defend myself and found it lying next to me. I picked it up and put it back into my pocket, ready to use it whenever I needed to.
I went on ahead to the portal and looked around me once more, maybe something was still lying around here, but I didn't see anything that would help me. Now I was ready and went on ahead through the portal.
In these last moments before my journey would finally start I thought back and remembered my old life, I would abandon from this moment on.
"It wasn't a bad life, I wasn't born into a difficult situation, wasn't in conflict with my friends of parents, but-"
"It was just too damn boring."
But now I am looking ahead, hoping for a new chance, a new life.
Now it will finally begin.