I and Rose entered our office building and everyone was staring at me because of the sudden change of clothes. I freaking hate Nate. What does he think of himself? He is a dumbass. I hate him.
"Thinking about him, huh? He is hot, isn't he? I like him. You should often go with him and talk.",She giggled.
Yes, he is hot and nice.
"Hell no. Me and talking to a boy? Ah ha, not happening. He may be nice but I am not talking to him.", I cleared.
"Oh my F-ing God, you just said that he is nice. I can't believe that.", she said. She dramatically acted of dying. Omg, she is so dramatic.
"Rose, if u are done babbling about that idiot Nate can we please start our work or boss will kill both of us if we don't give him some information about that secret agent.",I cleared.
We entered my cabin and Rose took out some file of hers.
"Ok ok Miss Stella.", she said emphasizing on the word miss. Now she will continue calling me miss. I freaking hate Nate. Omg why even I am thinking about him.
"Okay, so I have some information on him. We don't know his name yet but we are sure that he may be following you, me or boss because it's reasonable that we will have the most information than anyone else in the office. But for our sake, we will not make it seem noticeable that we have got any information about him or we are searching for him. For our sources, we know that he is muscular and tall. All other information will come in a few hours.", she explained.
"Agreed but who is giving you all this information? Like is it only you me and boss working on this or there is someone else?",I questioned.
"Hey, you guys.", Jake said.
Jake! Now it makes sense who is giving all the information. All the info is from Jake. He works in the office for many years. I do not talk to anyone but he is kinda nice and I talk to him sometimes moreover for agent work. I only talk to Jake because I know he will not make any move on me because he already is in a relationship with Julie. Though I haven't talked with her much she is nice and friendly. And she really loves Jake which is a good element. They both make a perfect pair both of them looks nerdy and both of them are nerdy.
He shakes hand with Rose and then comes to me to do the same. We shake hands and I ask him about Julie. I love the way he always talks about Julie with a slight smile on his face, it's adorable.
" So Jake what do you think is he really dangerous for our agency or boss is exaggerating?",I asked.
"I think it's not an exaggeration. Of we lose this info anyhow we could be in great loss and their agency will use it in a different manner which could even harm our country. Their agency does not think about the civilization they just want their own fame."
I agreed.
"Okay, so what will be our next step?", Rose asked Jake.
"I think we should wait for sometime like a day or two till he lives more evidence. Till then we should just be careful and aware of our surroundings.", have said calmy.
" Hmm, you are correct we should do that for a few days and make it seem oblivious that we know.",I said.
"Okay, then I leave you two here and ask me for some information. We will meet tomorrow at my cabin at 3 pm if that is comfortable with you two?", Jake said.
We accepted and he leaves my cabin.
After discussing the mysterious agent we decided to give him a name so it's less suspicious and we don't have to call him a secret agent every time. We named him Sap. Weird name but it's fine. Rose's ideas are always weird but work. I was sitting on my couch and Rose was busy arranging my cabin. My cabin was a mess but I usually like it that way. It perceives that I work and that is why it's messy.
" Hey, how are you?" I said.
"I am fine babes how are you? We haven't seen each other from so long. Can we meet?" He asked.
"Of course. You come here. I am waiting." I was happy. At least we will meet. It's only been a few hours but I miss him. I miss him a lot.
Soon after a few minutes, he arrived.
"Hi babes. How are you?" He kisses me.
"I am fine," I said between our kiss.
His lips feel so warm. I missed that feeling. I love him. I really do. And today I will tell him. I know he might not be ready for this because it's too early but I will say cause I want to.
For the first time, his kiss was desperate and harsh but it feels good. If I can I will stay like this forever with his one hand in my hair and the other on my waist. He is my everything.
"I want you, Stella. I want you right now, right here." He said with a moan as his lips reached my collarbone.
I was slowly pushed on the couch and he desperately removed my top. I helped him with my buttons. He started kissing my neck and went slowly downwards.
I moaned.
I quickly unbutton his jeans and grab his length. I want to do this today and I am confident about it. He soon got up and closed the door. He searched in his jeans for a condom and quickly put on.
Soon he was above me trusting in and out me. I love him. He makes me feel happy and content. I don't want to lose him ever. I don't imagine myself alone without him. After a few times, he threw his condom and was lying on top of me.
"Josh?" I found my voice.
"Yes, babe." He answered
"I love you. I know it's not the right time but I really do. I can't imagine living away from you. It's fine if you don't want to say it right now but I live you and always will no matter what." I confessed.
I woke up from my nightmare. My face covered with sweat. I didn't realise but tears started falling down my cheeks. Why, why do I always get this nightmare. I hate Josh. He is not a part of my life. He was never a part of my life then why. I cried.
Soon Rose heard my cry and came running towards me. She sat on the sofa and opened her arms so I can slide in. I sat on her laps cuddled and her arms wrapped around me.
After letting me cry for some time she softly asked me, "Again that nightmare, sweetie?."
I couldn't find my voice to answer and she took my silence as yes. She started caressing my hair. I love Rose. She is always there for me.
"Please forget about it. Josh is nothing to you. You are happy without him." She said.
I hate to hear the word, Josh.
"Why Rose? Why I always get that nightmare? Whenever I try to sleep that nightmare always bugs me. I hate thinking about Josh. I don't know who he is or why I always get a dream of making love with him. I really don't want to feel that kind of thing again. I even went to a counsellor for this so she can help me overcome my emotions and nightmares but it never works. It never fucking works." I half lied but not about the counsellor.
"It's okay. Calm down, sweetheart. You are a very pretty soul and you deserve way better than this. Stop crying." She wiped my tears and I noticed that even she has tears in her eyes.
I wiped my tears. I really feel bad for bothering her but what can I do I never got the love of the mother or a father. I don't even know who is my father or who is my mother. I was brought up in an orphanage and only got the love of our caretakers.
"I am so sorry, Rose. I always bother you directly or indirectly. I know you have work with Michael and your own life. And I am so thankful that you are always there for me but if you ever feel that you are irritated by my drama and nonsense then you can, of course, leave and I won't even stop you." I mumbled.
It would be the worst day of my life when Rose would leave me. I can't imagine leaving without her guidance and care.
"Hey, don't say that. I love you, sweetie. I really do. And I am here for you no matter what. I know you are irritating but it's fine as I have been with Michael for more than 15 years and he is way more irritating than you." She really knows how to make me laugh.
" You know Stella I really wanted a child. But due to medical issues, I can't have it. I thought I would leave without a child my whole life but when I met you I liked you so much that I made my mind that if I have a daughter one day it would be like you. Bold stunning and a bit annoying. But unfortunately, I never had or I will never have a child." I know how desperate she is about having a baby. I even knew that she and Michael tried a lot to have one but weren't able to.
" So I and Michael decided to adopt you as my own, very own child. I know I am telling you this very sudden but I thought this is the right time and I don't want to do any delay. Stella, I love you and I really want the world to call you my and Michael's daughter. Keep your surname I don't mind but please be my daughter and give me the privilege to call you my daughter. It's fine if you don't agree with this because you are old enough and take your own decisions. It's fine if you want to stay alone in your apartment I can understand.." She started rambling and shivering. I know this means a lot to her. I was speechless, I always wanted a mother and a father. And I always looked up to Rose as my mother. She was even the age of being my mother and she was and is always there for me.
Without thinking a lot I ran and squeeze her tightly.
"Rose, I love you too and it would be my pleasure to call you my mom. I always dreamed of having parents and you today fulfilled one oft dreams. I promise to always respect you and never bother you. I know only one is possible out of them. But I agree to be your lawfully called daughter." I kissed her cheeks. She started crying again and I joined her.
Today was full of tragedies and I will never forget it. Soon I will have parents.
After our emotional breakdown in my cabin, I went with her to her house to discuss the procedures and she begged me to stay at her house but I went to mine because I can't leave Oreo alone. And anyways I soon will be shifting with her.
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