After some time in the realm without one, Avion raised his fist, "I am not just eighteen! I am much much older!" he shouted.
"I know it! I like these girls but not in a romantic way!" he victoriously waved it, "They are just kids in front of me, I am not a pedophile! I am only thinking of them because my big brother senses are tingling!"
After dying countless times, Avion has become matured... sort of. At least, he has more wisdom as more memories came back to him. However, he never thought about killing himself to unlock more memories.
Avion knew that there's a price for these revivals. He could only die if there's nothing he could do about it. By then, he would unlock more memories and abilities, overcoming the reason for his desperate situation.
As long as he could overcome it without dying, Avion wouldn't choose death. What if he didn't revive the next death? What would he do?