'𝑫𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒔𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉, 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉, 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓.'
come to think of it, would he really choose me over that childhood sweetheart he- oh so 'loved' so much before?
if i am not around, would he go back to his past lover?
knowing that- that woman still love him and even came back to him..
i have so many doubts.. and yes
i am jealous and uncertain.
Ah..! i suddenly remembered that i need to go back home and.. be a HIM again..
ahhh being a HIM has never been this helpful before..
i really am glad i have an identity i could run into.. specially an identity that is very much really and existing.
I'm sure, he can never find me while being a HIM.
This time, I'll let you think it through.. My love..
and not because.. you found HER in me..
ahhh being a substitute has never been this painful before...
"mmmfff.. fuck its so painful.. hehe.."
...
at that night..
she cried so much, so much.. that her heart hurts and almost made her breathless..
Those words made her feel really loved but at the same time grief.