The Winds Love
By Logan Webb ローガンウェブ
(2 pm Ike highschool)
"Things thoughts and emotions are the pretense that we humans use to explain things as simple as why animals eat to ideas even as complex as the stars, Even things we can't comprehend but we all feel, like love. These things no matter how simple. We all try to explain by a set standard , but the question im asking students is should we base the unexplainable with the same proof standards as a question as straightforward as why we eat"
Normally it seems I ignore hamasaki sensei lectures and fiddle with my pencil or even sleep when i'm not noticed but something about that made me feel kinda …actually the more i think about i don't know what it made me feel, but It's probably not worth worrying over.
*class dismissal bell* "Hey Akai do you wanna walk home with me?" A strange girl with dark semi-long hair said in a slight giddy voice. It's as if she had known me our entire lives like childhood friends ,but i don't remember ever seeing her before "Sorry, but I think you got the wrong guy," I said with my head still on the desk from where I woke up "Aren't you Akai Fujimari?" she said in a questioning tone with a hint of confidence in her vocal chords like the same tone a child has when they have the answers to a test. "Yes i am ,but we've never met before so i still think you got the wrong guy" then she said without hesitation as if she was sure she couldn't be wrong "No what do you think i'm some kinda idiot i'd know if it wasn't you do you wanna walk home or not". I could feel her glance without even looking at her, though I still had my head on the desk. It's as if her eyes were drilling a whole through my head. I mean what's wrong with this girl "i already said no, again I still have no clue who you are" even though I sounded half way firm on that inside I really just didnt know why she would want to walk with me i mean she was fairly pretty and based on the way the other students stood around to eavesdrop on my answer she's popular or at least i think, but how come I don't remember ever meeting her...no better question is when did she meet me? "Ok sorry i bothered you" she said with a disappointed wisp in her voice as she walked away. I can hear the other students whispers of discontent or is it anger? no disbelief that she knew me maybe? It's hard to tell what they are thinking though maybe it's for the best i don't know probably just piss me off anyway. Maybe I just think too much but, I better start heading home now, mom is probably waiting.
(home same day 4:30 pm)
"So akai dear how was school? '' Mom said as she plated food for the both of us. "It was fine i guess boring like always" at least that was what i said but honestly i just can't stop thinking about that girl, maybe it was a setup like maybe i go with her and her boyfriend jumps out and pumbuls me, but then...why did she seem so sad i didn't go?
"Honey you sure something isn't on your mind a mother can always tell" mom said knowing that i would crack if she asked enough. "Well did you ever know anyone who had a daughter who I used to know maybe a cousin or an old neighbor?" I was hoping mom would have some light on this whole thing. "I'm not that i know of, why did someone say they were related to you?" her curiosity seemed peeked. "No just this random girl i don't remember met before knew my name even asked me to walk home with her though I've never seen her before noir knew who she was, but she talked like we were close" maybe I shouldn't get mom confused with all this i mean she'll take it the wrong way. "Maybe she just had a crush on you akira you know you're a 16 year old boy. It's that time people start dating ,so maybe you should have walked with her" I could see the slight gleam in her eye and I knew immediately where she was going with this. "Sorry ,but it's nothing like that how could she like me if she never even met me nor if I met her I never even saw her at school before." I don't know why I pointed that out or why I care so much but it's oddly bothering me like a itch i can't scratch
(class, time unknown)
Huh?...I must have passed out in class. I don't even remember getting here. But why is no one else here, did they all go home already "Hello, I shout "anyone there" the sound of the ac is all I hear, but no answer my words simply float vacant of a response. Huh, there's a note on my desk. "what the hell? Why can't I read this? It's as if I didn't want to see it like my body and my eyes reject the words written on the paper. I can read everything else. It's not like it's a different language. What's wrong with me?"
(morning 2nd day 7 am)
*alarm clock goes off* huh i'm back in my bed was that all a dream but why did it feel so real? I must have been in a really deep sleep but if so how did my alarm wake me up? I guess it's a mystery "no i'm gonna be late" while rushing to put on my school uniform and scrambling down the steps. I see a note and a red bean bun "I guess mom must have had to go to work early today. *opens the door rushing out* huh i wonder if that girl from yesterday will be there i mean if she goes here she must be, but it still bothers me...how did she know my name maybe she's on student council and had rasterd names or maybe someone told her about me but i dont really got any friends or any enemies either so that isnt it *panting out of breath* maybe I shouldn't have ran all the way here "hey akai!" a female's voice yells from the distant. Is it that girl maybe but it sounds more mature than her voice so it can't be *akai brings his head up to see whos yelling at him* "Oh Sakura sensei '' i say while trying not to sound as exhausted as I am. Sakura sensei was my tutor last year. she's a 22 year old university student and i assume she does tutoring for extra money to pay for her apartment "Akai i'm happy I found you i know it's unusual for me to approach you during school hours ecpalily this early but i wanted to ask if your mothers at work today im off school ,so i wanted to see you guys for a while" "she is but she gets off at 4 and i'll be home around the same time if you want to meet us then." i said casually. I know it's unusual for a tutor to come over for dinner but she became almost like family because she was around so much. Mom even offered to let her stay with us why she looked for a cheaper apartment.
"Ok i'll swing by later around 4 its been nice to see you again akai, it really feels like it's been too long,"she said as if she felt a little guilt and a relief at the same time.
(12pm ike highschool)
*akais looking out the window in his desk watching the birds*
"Pretty aren't they?" a woman's voice says next to me. It's ….it's that girl from yesterday and she's just standing right next to my desk like she's a close friend just like when she asked me to walk home with her.
"They fly so delicate like a ballet dancing with the wind like a lover"
She said with her wide eye gaze still fixated on the birds. "Don't you agree?" her eyes are fixed on the birds like its a movie she can't look away from, but she was right that's exactly what it looked like the wind was carrying the birds like a climax in a ballet and it was beautiful "y..yea i do" why did i stutter like i was saying a deep philosophy in front of a crowd."by the way" she gently tilts her head to me waiting for me to continue. It was kinda cute like a confused dog "So I have been meaning to ask how did you know my name" maybe if i get this answer I can relax."a note." She said sternly like it was the only way she could phrase it "a note?" huh? I guess that would explain a lot but...who wrote it?. wait she...no what am i thinking that doesn't explain anything. "Where was….,no better question who gave it to you?" I said in a questioning tone.her face then turned to me with a look of per blank like she knew she was about to say something she knew sounded dumb. "I guess you could call it a dream there was a note sitting on my desk and it said your name in it" her eyes are steady waiting for my response, but my eyes just widen. I'm speechless. It feels as though a fear and shock that was as sharp as a knife priced my chest. A feeling of anxiety covered and asburded me. No this woman must just be crazy, but if she's crazy how did she know my name. Wait maybe she.yeah that's it she must hade heard it and is messing with me. "Is something wrong?" she said with a slight head tilt with a simple confused expression. "no it's nothing just a little confused is all i mean how could you have got it from a dream?" this will get her she wont have an answer and will admit she's lying. "I see what you're getting at aki, but I'm not lying to you, no sense in it. That would be much more boring. Telling the truth most of the time is more fun anyway. Why make up a story when the hardest book to understand is sitting at a desk beside me?" her exspresion now had a hint of cockyness in it. Though to be honest it was kinda calming. "So can I walk home with you to day?" "I mean you did reject me the last time so now that we talked you shouldn't be so afraid of me" ugh she never gives up does she. Well maybe i can use this to figure out how she knew me or if she was telling the truth what she meant by a dream. "Oh come on i wont hurt you for no reason" man she won't even give me time to think "Ok but only this once" i said this so determined but she still had that hint of cockyness, damn let's just get this over with. On the way home we stood kinda quite well at first she kept trying to talk but i kinda ignored her i feel kinda bad maybe i should say something but what would i say at this point i didn't even get the information i wanted out of her damn i gotta try something "so where do you live?'.....great now i sound like a stalker. "Uh i don't really know." "huh!? How can you not know where you live" what's wrong with this girl is she just an idiot? "Well ik i must live somewhere but i just don't remember.'' She said this with such an interesting look i wanna think she's just teasing me but i know she's not lying her eyes are so determined like she really is trying hard to figure it out. "Oh we're here. Well i guess this is where you part ways. So see ya." i really hope i was wrong and she was joking. Ok all im gonna do is open my gate and she will leave go home cause she knows she has a home *starting to slowly creek open the front gate* and if i turn around she will be walking awa- WHAT SHES STILL THERE!!! No, I gotta be strong there's no way she doesnt have a home. By the time I close the gate she will leave. ....And now she's sitting down at my front gate...great. "So do you really got no place to go?" please say you do please say you do "i told you i don't like to lie i said what i said take it as you wish." dammit i can't leave her out here "wanna come in?" "i mean i was gonna just sneak in if you didn't let me." "What that's a crime! And creepy!"
"Mom, I'm home and i brought a friend" i yelled this though knowing she'll bug me about it "oh hey akai ,hun where's your friend?" she said looking confused like i was playing with an invisible magic "she's right ther-'' before i could speak my mother's eyes light up "wait it's a she! ,oh my akai has finally found a girl….wait but where is she you said you brought her home right?" she said with a dumb founded look on her face. "What do you mean she's right here" she's literally right beside me has my mom gone mad or something i mean i only went to school. "Um akai honey be honest with me are you on drugs?" "what! No look she's right here" what the hell's going on *i felt a tap on my shoulder* "hey aki there's no point" the girl whose name I'm not even sure of yet says with an almost sure look on her face. What does she mean no luck is there something i'm not seeing does my mom know her and have a grudge or something "we're going to my room if you start feeling better come talk to me"
"What an average room." she said in a monotone voice. What does she mean by that i can't tell if i should be offended or not "anyway" *she sits on my window cial* your moms nice" so we're just ignoring the fact she pretended you don't exist. No this is my chance to figure out what's been going on and more importantly who this girl is. "So what's your name" at least this way i don't have to refer to her as 'girl' anymore "uh well i guess i don't really have one, well i mean i did but i don't think i can apply it anymore." what does she mean by that? How can she answer such a straightforward question and leave me with 50 more than I started with. But I'll need to come back to that idiocracy. "So why did my mom act like you weren't there and what did you mean by there's no point" i really need her to answer *she looks out the window intensely as the wind blew the dead leaves off the trees "if i died would you mourn me?'' What kinda question is that? "I mean yeah for awhile but how does tha-" "i guess you answered your own question." what? I knew it she's insane. "what do you mean, i'm confused" ''see these leaves getting blown off the branches. The wind seems to carry them like a mother carrying her child, but the wind can't carry the leaf forever. It has to drop the leaf as it blows, and the leaf is left on a sea of its own kind suffering the same fate. Most would hear that and be sad, but I think of it differently. The leaf was dead on the tree. The wind carries it off to drown in its own kind and helps the leaf down before the wind's cool embrace leaves the leaf. It's simply the way the wind loves and gives a tribute to a dead leaf no one else would care about. I find it beautiful" *she turns back to akai with a small tear in her glistening eyes like she had just listened the most beautiful symphony conducted of her own narcissistic music* I'm kinda amazed I never seen such a beautiful expression of pure emotion on someone's face before. "But i don't see the comparison" right as i said that her tone lost most expression as she slowly looked up her eyes looked serious empty almost like she had killed someone but there was still a tear on her cheek form when she told her leaf philosophy though new tears were still flowing through her hallow pained expression "your right it wouldn't make sense unless i was already"
"dead"