"Love conquers all!" That was my mom told me. No certain distance can hinder and contain two hearts longing and thirsty for love. She told me that, as long as the feeling and affection is still there and the fire in both hearts are burning bright, then there is nothing that can hold and restrain two person's love for each other. Back then, I thought she's just telling insensible things, for I have a feeling that whatever she is saying sounds too cryptic and seems very untrue. I personally believe that at some point in time, one of them will cut the thread off and quit in the relationship because their situation is no longer bearable. Yet, what made me think twice of my own arguement was the thing she told me afterwards.
"Son, you'll soon understand the very reason why am I telling you that true love can surpass any challenges and struggles it face in life."
Those lines were keep running into my mind. Although five longer years have passed after we've had this kind of conversation with mom, it feels like it just happened yesterday. It may seem odd but I can literally hear her voice at the deepest part of my mind, which keeps on repeating those lines.
But now, that I already have a girlfriend, I can surely tell that I was wrongāthat my claim back then, when we are having some heart-to-heart talk with my mom, is not valid and right. Mom was definitely correct at that very moment when she said that "love conquers all." Now that I need to take several miles away over Justine, it really pained me. It feels like the world is so unfair to us both. I can still recall that few moments earlier, we are still very much happy. But now, mountains and seas seem barricading our way towards each other.
I keep on blaming myself for what happened. Yet, even if I keep on doing it, no matter how hard I tried to blame myself it is still useless. I can no longer bring back the time and can no longer undo what happened.
What's inside my head is that, I need to keep myself calm and have faith. I need to become courageous and never let my emotions take me for it will surely take the me and consume me. I need to be brave and never ever try to make Justine see that I'm shaken up and that I am losing hope. Even if those tears that keep on running from her eyes makes me weak and keeps on killing me slowly, I need not to show that I am worried. I know that we can make it though this struggle like any other challenge that we've able to overcome. Not now or ever, I won't let her slip away into my fingers.