"feeling nervous "
Amren pov
He held my hand as we stood there in the clearing. The sun was setting. I leaned against him and breathed in his scent. He smelled of fresh rain and cedarwood. Not his usual scent, but i still found it attractive.
I felt bubbly and fuzzy with happiness. He likes me, and i like him. Moments of our kiss replayed in my mind. His lips were softer and smoother than i had imagined. Time didn't stop for a moment as you would see in movies. This was reality and it was so much better than a fantasy I've grown and nurtured in my mind.
"Amren, now it's your turn to listen. I have something i need to tell you, but not here and not now. Meet me at my house tomorrow evening. My dad will also be home by then."
His expression was dead serious. Perhaps he wants to tell his dad that we are together. Or it is about what his uncle requested before he went all psycho on them.
"Okay, but why if i may know? "
"Like i said, not here and not now. I don't want to ruin this moment. If you don't mind? "
A strange emotion crossed his eyes for a split second.
My gut feeling told me that something was amiss. I hesitated a bit but nodded yes at him.
.....
Things went on as usual at school. Josh wasn't there, again. He probably wanted to avoid questions about what happened to his face. I didn't really have friends, apart from Josh. Sometimes i sit with the popular clique and other days i enjoy my own company on a classical green bench under an old oak tree just outside the cafeteria. I use those days to recharge my mental energy. Being an empath is tiresome from time to time,especially when there is an energy vampire in the same room as me. The atmosphere around them is toxic, or sad or overly excited. I rarely sit with the popular clique because their energy is so negative. I can feel the judgement radiating off them, especially when they say:
"your hair would look cuter if it were styled. "
"don't you ever show some skin? What are you? A nun? "
"you are so pretty. Not as pretty as me, but still."
"is Josh single? He is so handsome, i want his number."
Poor Josh, i would never punish him like that. Not even if i were really pissed at him. I always thought i reacted that way because i didn't want him to get hurt but now i realize it was because i felt jealous when another girl would look at him and comment about how handsome he looked and how intelligent he is.
I was ready to go home, dress up and see Josh. In fact, i was so eager to race the clock that i skipped my last period for the day, English and went straight home.
Finding an outfit was a mission, nothing matched! Also the weather was acting up so my hair went all frizzy on me. At least i smelled nice. Like my favorite scent, rosewater and witchhazel. I wasn't a fan of makeup so i decided to wing my eyes with an eyeliner, some mascara and burgundy lipstick to compliment my jet-black hair and outfit.
I finished just in time to hear Josh's mustang pull up in our driveway.
"you look beautiful, hon" my mother commented while i dashed down the stairs.
"Thanks mom! I'm going out with Josh tonight. Don't wait up for me please and love you! "
"Okay, just remember you keys and you pepperspray before you go. And give me a hug."
I scrambled for all of my things and gave my mom a hug before i left. My mom has aged with grace, she still looks young even though her age sais otherwise. My mom is a petite, sweet looking, kind woman. But don't let the tiny posture fool you, the most potent poison comes in the tiniest bottles.
Why do feel so nervous all of a sudden? It's just Josh.