How come my affection becomes my shame?
Then our unforgettable memories become nightmares just in seconds.
Shui Jing
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"Please, don't say it."
My head cannot process the new information that I get from him. He says that he is not my husband? No! I must be misheard, right? Xue Chen must be joking, right? I am not ready yet to hear his words. Now he is still inside of me and we are doing it now. I really want him. How come he said something inauspicious like this? I kiss his cheek while he is lying beneath me. I close my eyes because I am so tired but my body still wants him. I don't know what kind of red pill she gave me. I couldn't even let him go.
"No…It's wrong. It's a mistake. We must sober…" He said while trying to manage his breath.
"I don't want to be sober because I don't want to lose you again..."
"No…I am not your husband..."
"My husband, did I make you feel uncomfortable?" I asked as tears fell from my eyes.
