I could hear a slight ringing in my ear. My body felt cold, like all life had left me. I could her the never ending disappointment in her voice. I always tried my best, but it is never enough. I can never make my mom proud of me no matter how hard I try. I get honor roll every year and I am class president, but it never seems to be enough. Maybe the problem is me. I shouldn't exist. I am just a burden. That's why she hates me. I am not good enough for her. Honor roll in a public school means nothing. I guess I really am worthless. I want to just leave. Escape the pressure and end all the pain. My heart hurts. I can feel every thump it makes. Each beat hurts. I need to make it stop. Make it stop. NO! I can't. I shouldn't. Mom worked so hard to support me. I owe it to her to keep trying. I won't give up till you love me. I will do any thing you ask me to do to make you proud. Please love me, that is all I ask. That's all I need.