It is said that after patience there is nothing but relief, but what happens when you cannot endure more, you cannot be patient more, as it is said, you reached the point of exploding then the best thing to do is to explode, but know that after the explosion your perception of life will change and you will become more calm in front of calamities then you become an adult, so it happened with me, life tasted me its main dish but I realized that there is no life dessert you make it yourself at some point I realized that life is a wall watch and we are her hands no matter how we go forward but we will return to the starting point but a new beginning for a new thing but the same scenario will restore grief and then joy, Laughter and then crying, wounds and then ointment, separation and then meeting, everything will happen and it will be reversed except death at the end of the journey,you will lose people you want to stay but who are they? It's hard to say that i lost and it is to say that i won,life is a very complicated game when you think that you won in reality you lost but when you say that you lost then you really did,i am not mocking but that's my point of view after my experience....
I am Kim Se-Gi born in Seoul 1982/03/18 i am an university philosophy professor.
2017/05/03 at 9:30 A.m i was in the class suddenly my phone rang
-excuse me class but it's my mom i should pick up!I said smiling to theme
I stand by the door putting the phone on my ear saying
-mom!i am in a class i will call you back after 15 minutes
-hello??you are her son?
-hello?!yes!?who are you?
-ohh yes!i am sorry we are calling from the Severance hospital your mom is!...
That was like big slap for me it was like someone grabbed my heart in his hand
-what?!?i don't understand where is my mom how is she now tell me!hello hello??
I threw the phone and ran out of the university i get in my car and rush to her it was like a dream a nightmare that doesn't end....i jumped out from the car and ran to the reception
-where is my mom?!
-she is at the
-Se-Gi??
-Mr.park!where is my mom?what happened?!
-Se-Gi! Calm down it's not the first crisis that happened to her!you know,a parallelism is not that easy for a human,your mother is so strong for fighting all this time 7 years is not easy..
-give me the last word!
-Mrs.jung was in a clinical death from two days,we taught that it was a coma but it seemed to be a clinical death!he said.
I sat down on floor putting my hands on my ears not wanting to hear trying not to cry but it seems that life has another plans for me...
-Se-Gi!you want to see her?!
-what a question!of-course i want to see her!but tell me first,that clinical death of yours what does it mean?i mean can someone wakes up from it?
-Se-Gi!in the history of the medicine no one wakes from it,it's a brain death or a blood circulation stop and sometimes the breathing operation stops but as Mrs.jung was paralyzed so her clinical death is a brain death so you should be ready for every new!...!he patted me and get lost!
I walked to her room like a drunk walking there i saw the emergency entrance full of people and i heard a girl screaming like lunatic i saw the blood going out of the room but i couldn't think about it because i just wanted to see my mom when i was in the elevator i heard some nurses saying
"that was terrible it's my first time seeing an accident like that all those corpses were from one family i feel bad for their daughter"
I went to her room i saw her from the glass window then i felt heavily in my chest crying was hard for the first time i couldn't breathe correctly,i get in her room and sat down grabbing her hand in mines kissing her's
-mom,it's been seven years that i didn't hear your voice,how could you be that selfish,here you are going and letting me here in that world alone,mom!please stay with me,mom i have nobody else unless you,mom please talk to me just,just once, mom,please!!!
I put my head on her hand
-Se-Gi don't bother yourself waiting for a word from a dead body!i am sorry for that but your mom is on her way away!
-that was so lame!mom doesn't deserve to die like that she
-no one can decide how he will die but it's better for her dying like that without any pain
-what about me?what would happen to me after she's gone?what should i do with myself?
-Se-Gi you're not the first and you won't be the last who will lose his mother today we had an accident an entire family passed away and just a girl who survived her father mother two brothers and her sister are dead now she is alone
-at least she has memories with them,she heard their voices before they go,seven years without even hearing a hum four years without seing her eyes brightness all what i have from her was her heart beats i laid on her chest for hearing her heart beating
-Se-Gi at least you won't or you didn't saw her fighting for surviving you didn't see her screaming for help but you have nothing to do except looking from a distance you didn't saw her crying or suffering from pain you didn't see your mother estomac and her blood nor your father's leg thrown from a distance nor your brother under the car's wheel,Se-Gi you should be thankful for your case life is more hard than you think that it is for you
-so you are telling me that i should be thankful that my mother is dying!?
-no!Se-Gi!just forget it!don't bother!
-hey!Se-Gi!what happened students told me that something happened to your mother and
-yeah!she is in a clinical death and what bothers me the most is that Mr.park is telling me that i should be happy that she will die in a few days!
-what?!what do you mean?!
-i don't know!
-hey!brother don't worry everything is going to be alright!okay!by the way this your phone and i drop your bags to your house so don't worry
-thank you taehyung!
-don't,it's a brotherhood duty,, hey go home and take a shower i will stay here with mom!
-no!i am good here,you can go if you're busy!
-i am not!
Suddenly some doctors ran in-front of us saying
-her heart won't handle all of this now we need to keep her heart on the temp..i don't think she will survive after this!
-behind every door a story at the hospital and we have ours!
-yeah you're right bro!
After two days..
-I am sorry for saying that we lost her!
-no!no
-Se-Gi it's okay you said that you expected this to happen
-mooooooooom!my motheeeeeer!!whyyy? Just whyyyyyyyyy?mooooooooo..m
I screamed from my heart when the doctor told me that i should be ready for everything i thought that it will be more easy if they told me that new but it wasn't it was hard like if it wasn't expected death is a stream where everyone will sink in but having someone sinking in it is the hardest thing i saw my mother swimming in that stream for seven years but her sink was harder than ever.....
2017/05/05 the funeral day
I was at the funeral room of the hospital i was setting all who came to her solace was my students,university colleagues and some of her friends and taehyung,at a certain time the room was empty there was only me sitting a side looking at the floor wiping my tears suddenly a girl showed up with a stupid smile she came towards me and bowed
-my condolences!she said smiling
I stood up and bowed
-thank you!
-your mother?she asked
-yes
-ohh! It's hard! Isn't it?
-what you think?
-it is!i know that it is!
-Sooah!We should get going now come on!a woman showed behind her and goes off
-ohh yeah i am coming!anyway i should get going now!see you,if it's destined!or when you want to talk i will be somewhere when you search you will find me!she said smiling and then she disappeared
-who is she?Taehyung asked
-i don't know she showed up and disappeared like that!
-i dont know why but she gives me a déjà vu!
-maybe at the university,she seems young,we should go now it's late i am going home anyway see you tomorrow!
-want me to sleep with you?
-naah!I will call you when I need something okay don't worry!
I get lost to my car...
I couldn't sleep that night at 2 am Taehyung called me
-Se-Gi you remember that girl from today?
-you mean yesterday?!
-yeah anyway,she is the last descendant of the Jung family
-what does that mean?
-you know the Jung family the kings of the business world?
-the only thing i know is that i will destroy your prostate tomorrow,so stop calling me for saying some trashy things like that,you asshole do i seem like carrying about that piece of a half bitch?!
-woow all those curses you said was awesome!
-that fucking pretty punk!Teahyung do you want to donate your dick for a sex toy factory?
-what does that mean?
-get lost and remove my number from your contact for tonight okay when i will need you i will call okay!?so shut the hell up okay?!
-okay!
-good!
I hang up and throw my phone away and i started laughing like a psycho i didn't understand why but it happened like that!
After a little while i started crying like a lunatic screaming from the pain inside of me....it was hard
It was the morning and the door bell was ringing i got up and opened it was Taehyung standing and holding two boxes
-good morning!i bought you breakfast so let's eat together!he said smiling like an idiot
I closed the door but he stopped it before it close
-you're so lame!i bought breakfast for the two of us but you close the door in my face!
-i can close it but that doesn't mean that i don't want you in!
-hahaha!that was so logic!hey are you sure that you are a philosophy professor?
-where is the fun in a logic word?
-nothing just eat?
-what i am fucking now?
-i don't know!maybe my ass?!
-that's disgusting!okay!i am eating right now don't you see?!
-i thought you were fucking!sorry!!..
-really!? I said and i throw on him a spoon saying
-if you're dying for getting fucked by me then die because i won't,i am not a gay!
-really then who said that he will destroy my prostate?
-you fucking asshole dirty minded!hey
-by the way don't throw spoon on me i am not a
-shut up and give me a spoon
-go take it yourself,can't you see eating?
-what did i do for having you?!
-maybe you fucked a boy and i was his boyfriend and i am taking revenge?!
-you and your imagination,now i understand why you are an art professor
-because i am an artist not a lie fiction professor who looks like a masturbated dog here!
-a masturbated dog?what the fuck!where did you see one?!what the hell!?
-didn't you see the video on Twitter?a man who made a live stream and mastubated his dog he was arrested last week
-disgusting,shit!!what the fuck!
-take it and eat!he said giving me a spoon
-thank you!
-the university director said that he gives you a week off so take a rest and try to come over everything so you can go forward your life!
-that's a relief after all!
-you chanced tall boy!
-short legged pork anyway i am going out now see you latter!
-where?
-i dont have a plan just wanna go out having some air see you!
I let my car w go ahead to where my feet take me suddenly i remember the girl from yesterday"see you,if it's destined!or when you want to talk i will be somewhere when you search you will find me"
I went to the hospital looking for her
-sorry i am looking for a girl named Sooah!can you help me?
-is she a patient or not?
-i dont know she was at the funeral class yesterday
-i can't help but you can go to the funeral class reception maybe the can
-thank you
I went there
-hello!excuse me yesterday was here another funeral with my mom's?
-what was the time?
-7 pm!
-ohh yeah! there were two others
-can you please look for a girl named Sooah?
-Sooah?you mean Jung Sooah?
Then i remembered Taehyung saying something about Jung family
-ohh yeah!
-who doesn't know her!?you can find her adress on internet!
-really!can i?
-yes,but now she is a patient here she will come at 10 am you can find her at the hospital entrance after 15 minutes
-thank you!Thank you
-you're welcome!
I went to the hospital entrance and i saw a dashing car with a class driver opening the car's door for someone it was her and there were that women from yesterday i was wondering why is she a patient here
-excuse me!Jung Sooah!?
-who are you?the women asked me
-No!Mrs.Oh,he is a friend!you get in i will follow you!she said smiling to her
-so how you feel now?i wish better than yesterday?she asked me
-yeah!i just remembered your words yesterday that you will
-yes i remember my words!so you want to talk?!
-if it's possible?!
-there is no impossible in my dictionary let's go!
-but aren't you a patient here?
-who said that?!
-then why are you here?
-i just come here for the donations contracts that my father used to do
-ohh i see,then do your job first and i will be waiting here
-you have a car?!
-ohh yeah!
-then wait me here i won't be late!she smiled and went in
I called Tae
-hey where are you?
-i am on my way out!
-bring me my car i am at the severance hospital
-but..
-now i will give you 10 minutes okay
-okay i am coming
-what's wrong why you came here and what's the
-go you will be late the taxi was waiting for you five minutes ago
-ohh yeah right!but that needs an explication
-you got it!
-so let's go?!
-ohh!you scared me!yeah let's go!
-Sooah?where are you going?!
-taking a rest from you!okay!just joking i will be home after two hours don't worry
-okay did you take your phone!?
-yeah i took everything now i should get going see you later!
-where you want us to go?
-where you want?
-let's drink a cup of coffee together it will be better as a first meet up,right?
-yeah,then i know one let's go there!
-okay
-one latte for me please and for him one..!?she said looking at me
-ohh one americano please!
-yeah,thank you
-so!you wanted to talk?!
-ohh yeah but before i should introduce myself self,i am Kim Se-Gi
-Se-Gi,what a beautiful name!
-thank you!so can we be friends?
-what a question!?what do you think we started now?!
-i dont know?
-what do you do,as a job!?
-ohh i am a philosophy professor
-university?
-yeah!
-ohh!that's catchy
-you seem so young?
-i am 25 1992/05/07
-working or studying?
-none of the two!
-why?is it because of your family?
-nonono!,it's just that i can't but i started taking over everything now
-i don't understand!
-why do you think I was at the funeral class?
-i don't know!
-my father,my mother,my two brothers and my sister passed away in a car accident three days ago but the funeral was yesterday because of some problems
-i am sorry,i dont know what to say now,i am sorry
She laughed
-don't be sorry,you didn't kill them
-my condolences
-why you have tears in your eyes?
-it just...i don't know it just came by
-look if crying will bring theme back they will because i cried an entire day but nothing changed,it said that life is like a balance if you fall someone win but there is time when no one fall or win but life no one can explain it it's just life everything happens without an alert it just happens all of a sudden it shocks you at first but it will never stay for along it will disappear so you should be calm and absorb all the shock so that you can survive
-you know what when i saw you yesterday i thought that you are a lunatic but it seemed to be me the lunatic here
-you know the boy band group BTS?
-i heard about theme a little,but why?
-they have a song named "spring day" it says " no darkness,no season can last forever" you know what does that mean?
It means that everything come will go nothing last forever so
-you're right
-not me!BTS who teach me,i will tell you something that no one knows about me
At 2015 i committed suicide i wanted to kill myself because of some kind of health problems,i was sick of it but then my parents took me to an psychiatrist hospital there i heard their song named "run" there is a part where they say
"Let's run run run again,it's okay to fall down,let's run run run again,it's okay to be injured"then i said to myself that just keep running until your heart stops beating
-but what was your illness?
-i have an enlarged heart,my mom used to say that i have it cause i love everyone around me!she said smiling
-sorry for hearing that!
-don't be!i was born with it,the accident day was a hard one for me but it went well at the end
-you were the girl..!i think that we are doing well together
-it seemed to be like that!ohh sorry i should pick that one!Ohh yes okay don't worry,no need too,he will drop me off,okay okay!,it's Mrs.Oh she was worried about me
-is she a cousin of yours?
-no she is my you can say like my babysitter,when i committed suicide my father hired her for taking care of me
-is she a nurse?
-nop!she is just a babysitter!
-i see!
-you want to go home?
-not really,talking with you is so relaxing
-i will keep that compliment!me too so glade to have a great friend like you
-happy for hearing that
-soo let's go!?
-Sooah!i don't know how to say but,i have something to tell you
-yeah,go ahead!she said smiling looking at me with her pure brighting eyes i was lost in there i forgot what i was supposed to say
-Se-Gi what's wrong?
-uhmm,nothing let's take you home you were sitting for a while you should take rest!
-what's wrong with you?
-come on!
-okay!coming
-so you said that you don't have brothers nor sisters!?
-yeah but i have a lunatic friend who is for me a brother,he has a magical technique for comforting me he has a special way yes is he is stupid but his heart is so pure like yours
-i swear a lot
-you mean cursing??
-yeah
-you don't know me yet!ahh
-to the left!
-ohh
-stop here!
-so you live in here?!
-yep,if you want you can come in
-nah there is somethings i have to do see you next time!
-okay!bye!
-ohh your phone number?
-ohh yeah,give me your phone
-okay
-that's it!she said giving me the phone
I called her
-so that's my number see you next time,and take care of yourself!
-you too!
-so what happened?
-nothing we just drunk some coffee together and talked about ourselves!the first meeting !!
-just drunk?what did you expect?!
-nothing!hey by the way you called me last night saying something about her family what was is about
-jung family?
-no park family!
-you're so rude!anyway,the media is saying that they were going to a family campaign and what happened with them wasn't an accident it was a crime they hit the car were her brothers and sister were in with a truck but by hitting the car the truck wheels were on her father's foot and he died cause to a bullet in his head,when her mother ran to the car the assassin killed her with a knife taking out her estomac i don't know if she was chanced or not but the assassins didn't know that Jung has another daughter and unfortunately she was watching her family being killed like that i am feeling bad for her i heard that she have an enlarged heart and she got an crise that day after a lot of screaming her videos are on internet now!wanna see!?
-yeah
He showed me a video of her at the emergency room of the hospital she was screaming and crying and after a little while she passed out
-so she is the girl that i heard that day!
-hunh!
-you remember the doctors saying That day
-it was her?waw life plans
-yeah she told me about that thing
-really!you get really close in only one hour!
-fuck up!i wish i can help her
-you can!
-really!it's not the ideal time for joking Tae
-i am not!
-go ahead then
-her father let a commandment before he died it said that he is searching for a husband to his daughter because he doesn't want her to stay alone and that he doesn't what her to feel that her illness is the cause behind her loneliness
-you are telling me that i should marry her?
-yeah!
-you fucking lunatic asshole!i said hitting his head
-that hurt so bad i was just trying to help
-fuck up!
-i was joking anyway !
-ahhh!what should I do for you!?
-dinner is ready!
-what did you...ahhh!i thought you cooked!
-cooking?no way i am not your wife
-are you free tomorrow?
-ummm!yeah!why?
-i have some shopping list i have something to prepare
-what is it?
-none of your business
-so rude!
-umm!yammy
-some of my grandma home made Kimchi
-it still fresh
-yeah,i miss her
-let's go to see her this weekend!?
-can we?
-yeah
-okay
-hey!wake up!Ramen thief!wake up!
-okay!
-we should go shopping let's go
-why should it be today
-get up
He went to the toilets and suddenly
My phone rang and it was Sooah i was happy that it was her
-Good morning!!
-good morning!
-Mrs.Oh?!
-yes!Sooah told me to call you before the operation start for telling you
-what?
-yesterday her doctor called us and said that her sister can donate her heart for her so don't have time and the operation should be today
-what are you talking about?
-Mr.kim Sooah is in the operation room now she is having a heart transplantation
-okay okay!i am coming!
-what's wrong?
-i should go now you can sleep
-wait!Se-Gi what happened ?
-It's Sooah she having a heart transplantation
-now?
-yeah!i should go
-wait i am coming with you!
-where is Sooah?
-who?
-Kim Se-Gi!
-Mrs.Oh!
-Come with me
-where is Sooah?
-as i told you!
-Se-Gi!what's wrong with you?you are acting weird?
I just hugged him tight crying on his shoulder i was afraid to lose her I wanted to her stay alive i felt at that moment that i am a bad breath i was scared so scared
-Se-Gi?what's wrong with you?!
-i understand you but crying won't help her
-you're right!i am sorry!I said wiping my tears
-sit down!
-
After 8 hours
A doctor went to us with soft smile
-Mrs.Oh!the operation went well now it will be on her after two hours she will decide to wake up or never!
-should that be a relief?
-i think so!look the transplantations operation are so complicated after the transplantation the body itself will defend itself and it will decide to accept the organ or not we wish that she accepts it because after it there is no way she can survive!pray for her
-okay!thank you doctor!
He get lost letting us suffering in pain...
After one hour and thirteen minutes the doctor told us that it went well and she accepted the heart,i just breathed my lungs out and laughed and cried at the same time,Mrs.Oh was smiling with tearful eyes and Taehyung was happy
-you can get going now the visitation time is over!
-no,you go home i will stay here with her!
-But.
-no Mrs.Oh i will stay here with her please trust me!
-Se-Gi!thank you
-for?
-yesterday!because she talked with you and spend the day with you she was happy,she was against the transplantation but yesterday when i told her about it she accepted it without thinking,you gave her a reason to live,i know everything about you,but please i am begging you to stay with her forever and love her more than everything,if everything will goes well she will stay here for one year and she comes back to home but she needs time and i want until then to stay with her!please!..
It was hard not to accept what she said because i like Sooah and helping her was my goal so i just
-okay!i will!!
-thank you!oppa
She said smiling i smiled back
-Taehyung,drive her home!
-yeah okay come on
-no,no need to thank you!i have a car
-also!how can let a beautiful girl drive at that time alone!?
-seriously!no need to!
-come on!
She smiled and get going with Taehyung after a half hour they transferred Sooah to her room,Iget in
-Mr....!?
-Kim!Kim Se-Gi!
-yes!Mr.Se-Gi i am glad for telling you that there is no need to worry about her she is strong,now i should get going if anything happens press that button and the nurse will be here,you can sleep here,now good night!
-thank you!
I looked at her,she was sleeping in the deepest,she was like an angel she was pretty,her cheeks were pink,i approached forward her,i wanted to touch her hand but i was hesitating between doing it or not.
I was sitting on the chair next to her suddenly she took a deep breath and moved her hand i get panicked and then she started opening her eyes little by little I stood up after about two minutes she looked at me saying with a weak voice
-Se-Gi!she said with with little smile
-yeah it's me!wait i will call the doctor
-no need to!i am okay!
-really?you are okay?!
-yeah!i am,where is Ha-ram?
-who?
-Mrs.Oh!
-ohh!she is home,i told her to go there
-what time is it?
-now it's 7:37 pm
-it still only five hours from my birthday end
-no it's not!i prepared your birthday party for tomorrow
-but it will be tomorrow
-so what?everyday is a new birthday
-thank you
-i will call the doctor,okay
I said and then i kissed her forehead
-she has no problem but she should be so far from panicking,fear,stress....etc
She needs to be calm
-okay!thank you
-stay strong!!
-the doctor said that you will be fine
-i know!
-how could you be so sure?
-because i have you with me!
-Sooah!
-yeah!
-i like you
-i know
-how?
-because you are with me,now!
I put my hand on her cheek and look in her eyes
-don't leave me!
-then save me!
-you will be fine!
-if you're with me i am fine
-no if we are together we are fine
-Se-Gi would you be able to save me and stay with me forever?
-Sooah!if i won't be able to save you i won't leave you,but i promise you that whatever it takes i will save you and heal you and also stay with you.!
-Se-Gi,don't promise me!
-I promise you!
She smiled with tearful eyes
-don't cry the more time flows the more it deepens i am between your past and future right now no matter what rain falls no matter what darkness erases i will definitely save you are not alone anymore!now you should sleep okay!
I kissed her forehead
The night passed while i was staring at her sleeping...it was the morning when Mrs.Oh and Taehyung came in to the room
-is she okay!
-yeah,she is just sleeping!
-did she talk last night!?
-yeah we talked and then she slept,don't worry the doctor analyzed her and there is nothing to worry about she will be okay
-that's a relief!
-did you came together?
-no a coincidence!
-ohh!
-thank you!Oppa..
-saying thank you and oppa in the same sentence is so weird no?!
-thanks then!
-yeah!Ohh,Tae did you bring what i told you to?
-yeah i will bring it's in the car!
-what is it!?
-her birthday party organisation stuff!
-you're...she be happy!
-i know!
We prepared everything we designed the room and prepared the cake for her we did everything in silence so that she doesn't wake up but that idiot Taehyung dropped a bottle we all looked at her glancing she moved her head but she didn't wake up i hit him on the head
-can't you do something silently?
-sorry!
-yeah you should be
-rude kimchi!
-short ramen thief
After some minutes she started waking up then i turned the light off and fired the candlesticks on the cake she opened her eyes on me holding the cake and smiling like an idiot and we started singing her birthday song
«happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,our pretty princess,happy birthday to you»
She she closed her eyes and turned off all the candles
-thank you guys!
-no you should thank Se-Gi it was his idea and money!
I hit him on the head
-no need to thank us!come on cut the cake!
After two weeks...
Me and Ha-ram were talking with the doctor
-but please try to understand,she sick of sitting here and you know how stubborn she is she said that she doesn't want to stay her more!
-Look Mrs.Oh i understand but i can't risk by letting her go home
-look i will settle all the clinical machines and a medical team at home only for her don't worry but please give her the permission!
-when you finish the settlement then i will give you the permission but before she goes out i will test every machine in that house and for helping you i will give you a medical team that i trust!
-thank you doctor!she said and get lost
-Doctor!is what they want to do,assured?
-i don't think so there is a lot of emergency cases that only a hospital that can solve nor a medical team nor a machine!
-but why are you giving her permission?
-i wanted her to go and then i can talk to you,i know that Sooah only listens to you so try to talk with her about that i know that two months is so hard on her but we don't have a choice!please help me!
-i will talk to her!thank you doctor!
While walking to the room i was thinking of how will i talk to her and make her accept to stay here for two months...
-Sooah!can we talk?
-yeah!
-i leave you then!Ha-ram said
-Sooah!you know i worry about you?right?
-yeah!
-and also you know that i want you all the best?
-yeah!
-then if you worry about me and want me the best!please!please!stay here!i know two months are so hard on you but think of yourself a little what if and i don't wish so you get an emergency case what will we do,Sooah please i am begging you to think of your self a little bit,i am with you and i will do my best to make you feel happy and not feeling bored but please thi..
-i will stay!
-really?!
-yep!but bot for myself!for you!
-me?
-yeah!you,you told me to then i will do!but i have two conditions
-what is it?
-after getting out of here you buy me a bottle of Soju and prepare for me a bol of ramen everyday
I laughed looking at her
-that's so childish!but okay!
-deal!?
-deal!deal!
-the second one when i get out of here i will sleep in your hugs
-deal!
-deal?
-yeah deal!
-Se-Gi?aren't you curious about our relationship!?
-what do you mean?
-i mean now,what are we?it's been only two weeks since we have meet each other but..
-i know what you mean!i was curious too,but just let it goes like that,time will show us the deepest details!
-aren't you curious about how i trusted you from the first day?
-no!what matters for me is that you trusted me!i am not looking behind what i see i just have hakuna matata!
She laughed slaping my face
-hakuna matata?!
-yeah hakuna matata!i said smiling
-by the way that day i heard Taehyung Oppa calling you "Kimchi"why?
-it's a long story i will tell it to you tonight okay!
-a night story?
-a kind of!
-fuck off!
-good!i will call Ha-ram,i have to go!
-where?
-i have a job!
-okay!good day!
-is everything all right?
-yeah don't worry,she changed her mind,she will stay here!
-really?how could you
-hakuna matata!
-what?
-hakuna matata?!
-ahh!okay!
She laughed
-okay!i should get going now!see you
-oppa!
-hum!
When i turned to her she hugged me saying
-i love you!oppa!
-Taehyung?where are you?
-i am at the university!
-i am coming!
-what's wrong?
-i am coming!
-what's wrong bro!
-i am thinking of resignation!
-what?are serious?
-yes!i prefer taking up the family business into consideration
-but you said that
-i know what did said,but the status now made me change my mind,i talked with the family lawyer and he started the measures
-if that is what you want then the best of luck,but are you really prepared to that jump?
-if i wasn't i won't tell about!
-as usual!
-that's my resignation letter when you're coming home bring me my stuffs
-okay!take care!
-you too!
-to where now?
-home!
-why?
-not mine!family's!
-what would you do there!
-taking the documents and the old contacts
-if want me to help i can come with yoh!
-nah no need thank you!
-okay!i should now call me when you're done
-okay
My family is one of the biggest real estates owner but as my family is all gone i am the only heir when my mom was in a hit and run accident by one of the clients i decided to give up on the job so,but now i am in need,the job never stopped it was going as usual all the money was transferred to my back account i am not showing up but i am a rich boy!damn! Anyway,i was at home
-Mr.kim!
-is everything done?
-yes!i just need your signature on some papers and you can start the office is waiting for you tomorrow,all the documents are here and the contracts are all at the office!
-why tomorrow!let's go!
-now?
-no later!as you wish mister Kang!
-i am sorry,let's go!
-don't apologize to me,you are older than me so i should apologize!i am sorry!i said and bowed
-it's okay!let's go!
-no!you go first i will go after you there is something that i should do
-okay i will be waiting for you then!
-okay!
I went upstairs to my mom's bedroom it was like an horror film house everything was covered with a white cover there were a lot of dust,i looked at her bed and remembered her when i was 9 years old she used to sit on her bed and sing for me every night "As time passes"by Choi Ho Seob 1988 hit song when i asked her why that song she tald me
"My son,that song is a resume of life you will remember that moment and others moments only if they passes so as time passes as we git more memories" i looked at the room crying like a little boy it was hard staying there
-mom!your son started his new life if you're listening,i am telling you that i love you,and i promise you that i will find who did that for you and he will pay for it i promise you that he will pay for it,mom i miss you,i miss you!i just wish if you stayed with me a little longer,did i change mom i feel that i am another person,mom i hate this moment that is passing but i guess this is how everything is i miss you although you left,there hasn't been a day that i have forgotten you,i miss you mom,from the second day i thought that erasing you will hurt less than resenting you but it didn't goes as i planned how much more do i have to wait,how much more nights do i have to stay up until it will hurt less?mom it is my first time feeling like happy and sad at the same time i am afraid at the same time i am feeling secure,moooom"i said falling on my knees it was hurting so bad
-Se-Gi?what's wrong with you,Se-Gi wake up!Se-Gi!!!
I opened my eyes and i saw my mother's bedroom's roof it was unique her style i sat up and then Taehyung get in with a box in his hand
-what happened!?
-i dont know when i get in the house i heard your voice but when i get in the room i saw you on the floor.Hey!Se-Gi tell me the truth!what's wrong with you? You're not normal talk to me,tell me if there is
-i am in pain!the pain in my heart is so heavy!i can't handle it,the anger in my heart is so strong!i can't sleep i see nightmares about my mom accident seven years is so much!on that my mom's death and Sooah!i don't know where to start!Taehyung what should I do?
He looked a way and smirked and looked at me
-what is your life philosophy!?
-what?
-no,HAKUNA MATAtA!
-what will i do with it now?
-what does hakuna matata means?
-no troubles no worries?!
-yeah!so just let it go as it is supposed and don't worry everything is gonna be alright and hey i am here to solve everything behind you i got your back!
-then I won't worry as you got my back!
-some coffee?
-thank you!
-now let's go!
-where?
-your new office!
-come on
We stopped looking at the building it was a huge one
-rich kimchi!you're ready?
-as always!
-let's get it!!
Everyone was staring at us and bowing i was going straight to my new office after hours of hard working i called all the employees
-i am sorry for coming in the middle of your jobs but i wish that everyone will be glad for working with me,anyway i saw the files and everything and fortunately there were no problems so i should thank the all of you for your hardworking,i am Kim Se-Gi the chairman and the new CEO of the KRE company and it's a honor working with people like you!anyway as i comeback a lot of things will change but to the best all what i need is your help and your ideas
-excuse me sir!i have something to tell!someone said it was a man
-yeah!go ahead!
-sir!it's been seven years and the company statut was going fine so what will change now?!
-a good question!it's been more than 25 years and the company was working and 7 years without an stable CEO but it was working for 7 years with the same real estates now we will build some new real estates the details will be at the meeting of tomorrow at 10 am so be there!now i should get going have a good day
-i liked the persona of the CEO that you have!
-really!i thought that i was like a stupid between all those experienced people
-nah!you were better!now i should say good bye!
-why?aren't you coming with me?
-no,grandma needs something from here so i should take it to her
-is she alright!?
-yeah!
-ah!if i could go now i will i really missed her!
-she is coming the next week for her analysis!
-really!?
-yep!i should get going now!see you
-hey!tae!
-yep!
-i just...
Hugged him tight
-love you!
-big brother!you should be stronger than me!you are my big brother!kimchi!
-go now,don't make her wait for you!and kiss her for me!
-i will!
When i was on the way to the hospital i got a message and it made me feel happy then i saw a makeup shop and I....
-hello!how can i help you!?
-hello!umm!i am looking for something that will be simple you know light makeup or something like that!
-for you?or!
-no no!it's for..a friend a girlfriend!
-ahh okay!at your age or!
-no!younger 26 years old
-ohh so you want something like a daily makeup!
-yeah!
-okay then come here
-look i don't know those things but give me everything that she can use as a daily basic you know!?
-can i see her?!
-umm yeah
Then i remembered that i don't have a pic with her so i used the internet for having pics of her and fortunately i found some
-Jung Sooah!?
-yeah!you know her so good you can make me a big and special one for her!
-of course just give a moment!
-here we are!
-all of that?
-yeah,girls
-yeah!okay thank you,you use cards
-yeah!
-thank you,have a good day!
-you too thank you!
And then i went to a beauty care shop
-hello!can you help me!?
-yeah!how can i?
-um!i want something for cleaning the cream face that you use every morning!
-me?
-look i have a girlfriend i want to buy her something that can help her carrying her face so!tou know the daily routine of face washing
-ahh!okay,so how is her skin?
-what do you mean by that?
-i mean is it oily or dry mixed
-is that a restaurant !it's a face!
-sir!i can't help if i don't know those things!
-ah!then give a moment please. Ha-ram help!
-why!?
-the Sooah's skin,is dry or oily?
-what?
-answer!
-ohh it's dry!yeah
-she is dry!the next question please!
-ohh does she have any allergies
-does she have any allergies?
-no she is fine!
-no she is fine
-okay
-okay thank you
-but..
I hanged up
-can i ask you a favor?
-yeah,sure!
-can you give me a makeup class!?
-what?
-i don't know how to put the makeup on so can you help me!?
-ahhh!sure come on!
She was nice,she taught me how to put make for myself and now i am an expert in one class...
-thank you so much!
-you welcome!i hope your girlfriend will be happy and i am sure that she is the most happy person in the world!
-why saying that?
-she has you!
-nah!i am lucky for having her!
-i said so!good day!
-thank you Unnie!
-yeah thank you!unnie?
-have a good day! And i run out going to my car...i went to the hospital
-hi!
-hey!how was your day!
-not perfect!but it is now!
-why?
-you are in front of me now that is why!
-you were shopping?
-um!yeah for you!
-me?
-yep!you will be discharged tomorrow so i thought I should make something for you!
-tomorrow??
-yep,the doctor send me a message and told me that you can be discharged tomorrow so!
-but they said two months!
-yeah!but the science is growing up so,
-waaw!thank you!
-why thanking me!i am not a scientist!
-but you told me that nice new!so
-okay okay!
-so what did you bought?
-none of your business!
-but you said..
-i know but not now!
-ohh,where is MRS.Oh?
-Ha-ram!i saw her at the reception i think she is preparing the discharging files!
-ohh
-but wait!why are you calling her Mrs.Oh and not Ha-Ram and you're talking with her casually!
-i like calling her like that
-are you so close!?
-yep!we are!
-tell me about her!
-she was a dance teacher she is a great dancer you know!but she had an accident her parents were against that thing so she moved from Ilsan to Seoul and she started working with one of the entertainment companies like training the dancers and those things but unfortunately the boy group that she was working with disbanded and the company had a bankruptcy and then she went to a lot of companies but no one accepted her then she lost hope at dancing so she thought of opening her own dance classes And an orphanage asked her for giving classes to the kids and by coincidence my father saw her there when he was donating and asked her for helping me at first she said no but my father asked her for talking with me i remember when she came,her first time she was so caring and nice,i thought she was a nurse or something like that but when she told me that she is a dancer,i asked my father why her and he told me that he saw my soul in her eyes so she will understand me she accepted working with me and she abandoned her dream she was pretty and nice
-was?!
-yeah was!now,she so committed but also she is nice she is my only friend,i was never in school so i didn't have friends only mom she was the only friend for me, at every morning the house be empty only me and her my brothers and sister go to school and my father to work so we stay at home alone she taught me how to cook and make music as you know she is a composer but i didn't learn a lot i was more into singing and drawing...
-you can sing?
-yeah!and someone told me that you do!
-me?who told you that?
-a bird!
-that brat Taehyung!
-don't be cruel with him we were talking and it sticked in the discussion
-did she had a holiday?
-who?
-Ha-ram!
-never!her father passed away after the bankruptcy her mother committed suicide after it so she has no one..her relationship with them wasn't good,so she wasn't shocked when she heard that new her father was beating her mother and he was an alcohol addicted,she had a terrible childhood she told me that she tried to kill her father when she was 13,so when she was 15 she ran away to Seoul and she was accepted as a trainee for five years but she wasn't the chance to debut and then she started training so..why are you looking at me like that!?
-Sooah!
-yes!?
-i love you!
She get anxious and her face turned red
-i love you,Sooah!i love you..
-i see..!
-you see that!?i said laughing
-Sooah!i let my job for spending more time with you!i came back for the family's job!i am in love with you,when i talked to you in the cafe i felt like i am walking across the sky,believe me or not but in those two weeks i knew that you are everything in that world to me and i will do everything just for you and for make your smile shine like a diamond in the sky,your smile is so cruel it's dangerous,when you smile you got two galaxies when they appear i get dizzy,Sooah!always keep that smile okay don't let your galaxies disappear,hum, okay!you remember the song "making a lover" by SS501
"To the world i want to shout "i love you",to love you and have you as my girl dazzling always you are my star i will always protect you" Sooooo-aaaaaaah iiii loooooo-vve youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.. i shouted but before finishing my high note she put her hand on my mouth shutting me off
-Se-gi!we are at the hospital
-so when we go out i will shout!
-no!i don't need you to shout i hear your heart shouting already!
-really?
She smiled saying
-Se-Gi!I just want you to stay with me forever!
-i will!
-Thank you!
-no instead of "thank you" always tell me "love you"!
She laughed hugging me and saying
-love you!kimchi!
-that brat!
-shut up!
It was the morning and was talking with the doctor about her statu
-she is good she can return to her normal activities starting from the next week but she should be so careful with her temporary relief but after a month she will have no problem but the best is to be carrying
-i see!thank you doctor!
-i did nothing if it wasn't you she wouldn't be here!
-what's the point?
-since her family accident we wanted to transplante her sister's heart but she didn't listen to us but by talking with you she accepted,i want to know what kind of magic do you play?
-it's love magic!fate and life plans!
-maybe!anyway i should get going wish i won't see you anymore!
-a weird wish,but amen!have a good day!
-are you ready?
-yeah!more than ever!
-let's go then!
-Se-Gi!you take her home i have some work to finish!Ha-ram said
-what work?
-don't worry!the school called me for coming and taking some of your brothers stuff,that's all!
-okay!see you!
-take care of her!
-i will!
-let's go!
When we get home i opened the door for her
-how did you know about the password?
-Ha-ram is a hard carrying!you should be thankful for her
-i am!
-where is your room?
-upstairs!
-after you then!
She get in and sat on her bed
-isn't your shopping bags that day?she said pointing on it
-yep,and we will use them now!
-now?
-yeah!you took a shower at the hospital right?
-yes!!but why asking?
-i will give you a makeover!
-makeover?
-yeah!just calm down and sit in this chair!
-is that a massage chair?
-you ask a lot!shut up!
-okay!
I helped her sitting in the massage chair and started the massage,and started taking the stuff out of the bags i took the mask bottle and put it on her face she said
-what is that mask?
-i don't know they give it to me!
-what are you putting on my face?
-a mask!
-i give up,do what you want!
-that's what I was doing!
I put the mask,we were happy laughing and smiling i helped her to get up off the massage chair and wipe the mask off and then clean her face with a face wash gel and then i put the cream on her face and i cut her hair i gave her a new hair cut she had a medium cut so i just gave her a shorter hair cut and i manicured her nails and i started the makeup
-where did you learn all of that?
-where i don't know but it's all for you!
I put on everything but every time i put something for her eyes she cried and messed up everything
-why crying now?
-love you!
And she hugged me
-hey!now you will cry and you will ruin my t-shirt with the makeup and your face should be cleaned up again!stop crying
-you jerk!pervert!
-where is the pervertedly in what i said?
-love you!
-you're welcome bae!
She laughed punching me
-let me do the makeup i am still a beginner not a pro okay!
-you are my pro!Se-Gi!
-your voice when you say my name make me want to be locked in you and swim in you!
-that was so weird!
-i felt that!
She laughed
-idiot kimchi!
-don't call me kimchi again!
-what's the story behind the kimchi and ramen thief?
-he didn't told you?
-no,he was saying "kimchi is so sensitive he is like a baby he loves you and wants you to be happy he will make the impossible for making you happy but he will forget himself,Sooah please take care of him,kimchi and my grandma is my family and i am not ready for loosing one of them" i asked him if he is talking about kimchi as kimchi or someone and he wiped his tears saying "who said kimchi?did i said that!damn!don't tell him that i told you that but kimchi is Se-gi and Se-gi is Kimchi"he was so funny and sad at the same time
-he called me kimchi when we were 4 years old every time someone asks me about what i want to play or do or eat i say "kimchi"
She laughed so much
-kimchi is my favorite dish mainly his grandma's kimchi,she makes a wonderful kimchi!you should visit her one day!
-and the ramen thief!
-when we were i think 7 or 8 years old when we are coming back from school there were a store that we used to steal ramen from there a day on me to steal and a day on him after four months of stealing we got caught and it was his day the store owner said to him grabbing his ear "you ramen thief,so it was you i will tell your father about that"and he cried he was afraid of his father so "no please mister don't tell him please don't,i swear i won't thief again" fortunately the store owner was a mercy man "look,Taehyung i know you are a good boy tell me why you steal the ramen?" "mister i thief it for two reasons there is some kids in the end of the street they are the sausage's buyer children so me and my friend taught of giving them something to eat but our parents doesn't give us money so" "the second reason?" "We are hungry" "were is your friend?" I walked to them "Se-Gi?" "I am sorry mister" "look kids stealing is not a noble thing but as you did it for a noble reason i will help you but know that whatever was the reason the way for the noblesse should be noble okay" "okay mister"we said wiping our tears "so,every day come to the store and i will prepare you some hot ramen and give you to take for the kids okay" "really mister?" "Yes really!" We hugged him he was a noble man he passed away after six years of that day he was like a father for the two of us mainly for Tae,his father passed away in a building collapse when he was only 10 years old he was so strong his grandma raised him
-what about his mother?
-she passed away while giving him birth that's why he never viewed his birthday as a happy day!
-you were friends from childhood?!
-yeah!our fathers were friends!so!
-i wish if i had a childhood friend!
-are you hungry?
-a little bit!
-come on i will make you something!
-what!?
-some eggs roll and some rice with some kimchi if it will be here!
-i think that we di have some my mother used to make it every year!
-let's see!
I was cooking while she was staring at me
-i won't be able to make a good roll if you will stay looking at me!
-why?
-that distracts me so!i won't focus
-then what should i look at?
-take this cut the vegetables?
-okay!
-umm!you make good egg rolls!
-i do!?
-yeah!where is Taehyung?
-he went to his grandma,but he is coming today!
-ohh
-why asking about him!?
-he is so funny!and..
-and!?
-nothing!just asking!
-Sooah!
-Se-Gi!
-why!?
-why did you quit your job?
I took a deep breath before looking at her eyes
-because i want to be free!
-free without a job?
-i have a job i had it i never let it i just was ignoring it
-what?
-did you hear about the KRE company?
-KRE?you mean Kim for real estates?
-yes!it's my family's company,but i let working their after my mom's accident it was it a hit-and-run the police closed the case saying that there is no evidence that it was a hit and run after one week my mom opened her eyes she was in a coma but she was paralyzed she couldn't move a single finger and then i let the job but as i am the only heir so i just put on a CEO for not stopping the family work,you know when the criminal knew that my mom was the CEO of the company he send a guy and said that he was the driver and the police accepted that story he still a prisoner until now but i am sure that he wasn't the driver!
-how could you be so sure?
-because i know who is he!
-what?
-i know who was the driver but i have no idea about where is he now!
-who is it?
-your father!
-what?
-i was joking!
-what!
-that's what was expected in every K-drama!anyway
-you freaked the fucking hell out of me!she said and she threw on me a spoon!
-why the spoon?
-it was in my hand
-you know that your swears are so strong
-fuck up and give me a spoon!
I laughed
-was it a comedy clip!?
-no,but the same thing i fo for Taehyung you did it now for me i curse and the. Trow the spoon on him and then i shut him and tell him to give me a spoon!
-really?!
-yeah!but you know what is the difference between me and him?
-what?
-he gives it to me after five minutes of me cursing him but i will give it to you right away!
-what's that smell?
-where?what is it?
-ohh you know it's a smell of a bad romance line!
-at least I tried my best!
-give me a spoon!
-you're so cruel!
-a spoon!
-take it!
-hellooo!Ha-ram said
-hello!finally!you saved me!
-what?Sooah said
-i should get going right now i have a meeting with the company employees!
-okay go then!Sooah said
-Se-Gi!are you coming tonight?Ha-ram said
-i think so but i will be late don't wait for me!
-okay!good luck!Sooah yelled behind me
-good morning everyone!
-good morning!sir!
We started the meeting everyone was telling his thoughts about the new plan of the real estates and then someone get in saying
-i am sorry,i am really sorry!i am late!again!
He was familiar and he gave me a déjà-vu
-It's okay mr...?
-oh i am Choi seung-Hwan!the COO!sir!
-Mr.Choi sit down please!
-thank you!
-so can you tell us what are your plans for the new real estates?
-yeah!i mean yes!i am thinking of building a new mall where will be a park a natural park..
-good idea we will go on that one!everyone bring me something that could help us for that mall,i will be waiting for your creativity!
-yes sir!
-good day!Mr.Choi and Mr.Min to my office please!
-Mr.Min i am glad because of what you did for the company and also glad because all our officers are young men
-thank you!
-talk casually!
-i will thank you!
-Mr.Min you are the CFO of the company so without you that company would have been underground thank you!
-welcome!that is my job!
-you can go now thank you for your time!
-have good day!
-hey,Seung-Hwan!
-i can't believe that it's you the CEO and the chairman of KRE waw!awesome
-nor i can believe that you changed to be a COO!
-we really grown up to be successful!
-we did!
-i heard about what happened to Mrs.kim and i am sorry for what happened!my condolences bro!
-thank you!
-so we should have a drink tonight together!
-maybe another day you know i am a new CEO so
-showing up was your habit and it still
-i know you were the CEO and that hurts your pride to be a COO after all those years
-shut up!
-by the way i need a secretary!
-you can take mine he is so good at his work!And he knows all the jobs he were my secretary before being a COO!
-what about you!
-i have one already!
-you have two!?
-no!i told him that he will stay for the new CEO so..!
-how carry that you are!
-did you really liked my idea!or?
-yes i did job is job and relationships are out of the job!
-thank you!anyway i should go now but i will be here when you need!
-okay!
-hey i forgot to ask you,where is Tae?do you still in contact!
-ohh yes!he went to his grandma but he is coming today!
-i missed her badly i moved to busan!
-we all missed you,anyway we will have drink together tomorrow night so!
-oaky then should go now!
we met him at school when we was 10 years old and we started a friendship with him but when we graduated and finished the high school he moved with his family to busan we lost contact with him and now the life plans appears to love us...
It started being dark and i was exhausted cause of the work today,when i was going in my car i received a call from Taehyung
-"hey bro where you?"
-on my way!Are you at home?
-no i am with Sooah!
-okay then i will change and catch you there!
-okay take care!
-i will!
-you still here?
I jumped in the car like a crazy
-ahh fuck,shit you freaked the hell fucking out of me!Ahh!what the fuck wrong with you!?
And fortunately it was Seng-hwan
-you still cursing!
-it's not cursing it's swearing!
-the same sheet!
-what are you doing here?
-i was working on the new project!
-hard-worker!
-i am!Did you like your secretary?
-yeah!he is good!a hard working guy!
-so!
-i am going!
-did you get married?
I laughed
-me?why asking that question l?
-why are you in a rush then?
-a long story!
-i am married!
-what?
-really i get married two years ago!i was waiting a baby!
-what?
-i was supposed to be a dad
-what!
-what is what?
-i am shocked!congratulations bro!then you should make a party for us!
-you know her!
-me
-yeah she is dead three weeks ago!
-she is from the Jung family!their big daughter!
-j jung family?
-yes! Jung Soo-jin
-are you messing with me or?
-no i am serious!look our pictures together look that's her sister i went to the hospital every two day to see her they told me that she was discharged today!
-jung Soo-ah?!
-you know her!
-of course!
-how?
-a long story!tell you after now i should go and by the way,my condolences!i didn't know about your marriage!and sorry for the baby!
-it's okay bro!this is life,why sorry then!
-you're right!
-go now,take a rest tomorrow is a weekend so have a good one!
-see you then!
I went to my home but before getting out of the car i called Taehyung
-hey tae!can i ask you a favor?
-of course!I am listening!
-tomorrow we will have a drink together with someone,so i want you to have a sleepover with Sooah and Ha-ram tonight i may come so late!
-was that the favor?
-yes!?
-fuck off!you got it!
-hay hay captain!
-but who is that someone that you said?
-someone!now i should hang up!good night!
I get in the house and called a cleaning company
-hello!i have an old house i want it to be cleaned up tomorrow!
-yes thank you i will be waiting for them tomorrow!thank you!yeah i will send the address then thank you!
I started bagging my stuff and preparing it and putting my stuffs in boxes i wanted to move to my family's house...
After three hours of bagging and inboxing i went to Sooah....it was midnight...
-why coming now?
-i was bagging,we will move to my family's house,tomorrow!
-what?
-yeah i called the flat owner and i will hand it tomorrow!
-i am a poop to you!?
-what do you mean?
-come out with me!
He dragged me out to the garden and stopped he looked at me and said
-Kim Se-Gi!
And he punched me on the face
-what the..!
-do i have no opinion!i pay the half of the rent!and you are handing it back tomorrow,and without me knowing!
-Taehyung!i did this for...
He grabbed me from my shirt-neck
-i know why you did that!you are so selfish Se-Gi!
I punched him back in the face
-i am not selfish!okay!i am not!if you want to stay there then stay you're not obligated to go with me wherever!
-of course i am not!
-you idiot!i thought that when grandma come here our flat is not comfortable for here there is no garden and no fresh air for her so!you punched me so hard my jaw is hurting me now!are you going to a gym in my back?!grandma will like to stay there and it's not that big deal if you don't want to move then she will stay with me!
I sat down on the lawn he was standing behind me,he sat down beside me
-sorry!he said without looking at me
-fuck up!
-sorry!really sorry!
-do you want to donate your prostate?
-yes!
-you dirty piece of trash!
-dirty pervert!
-you really love her,don't you!?
-who doesn't love grandma!
-No!i didn't meant her!i mean Sooah
I took a moment of silence and looked at the sky and said
-if i said that i don't then know that i am the biggest liar in the world and if i said that i do then i still lying because i,i don't know i have feelings that can't be explained,i don't have the correct words to express it so if i said that i just love her it won't be completely honest because
-it's deeper than love
-yeah!art professor!
-let's go inside!
-yeah!
It was the morning i woke up too early and i went to the kitchen for preparing the breakfast for everyone and Taehyung joined me for helping when we started setting up the table Sooah and Ha-ram joined us and started helping but i refused them helping us so sat them down on their chairs and we all started eating in peace it was like a happy scene in a classic drama i suddenly remembered my family then we were so happy together but a lot of stories happened and everyone took his own way my father passed away my big brother leaved korea and lives in japan and he is a Japanese now my mother got hit by a car after taking over all the work on het shoulders and then she disappeared like a ghost and i am here alone with all those people smiling and trying making me happy but even if i laughed there is a crying side inside of me a black snowflakes falling down on my heart but looking at Sooah smiling and happy those black snowflakes doesn't matter for me even if it's hurt so bad but i will be happy and strong with her besides her and for her now Jung Sooah is my world Taehyung,Ha-ram,Seung-hwan and grandma En-tak are my family now and they are my world.
-congratulations,Se-Gi for your new job! Ha-ram said
-thank you!
-he is the rich Kimchi boy!Tea said with a smile i tried to smile but he was annoying so!
-please!i said with a joker smile
-Wait you said KRE company right!?Sooah asked
-yeah!
-so you know Seug-Hwan oppa!he is the CEO!
-yes i know him he is thr COO now!
-who?tae asked
-Choi Seung-hwan!you remember!
-Choi Seung-hwan?wait!you mean Seung-hwan?seung-hwan!
-yes!Seung-hwan! Grim reaper!
-waaaw!i am dazzled!aigoo!what a life plan!
-you him?ha-ram asked
-yes!we are childhood friends!
-he told us about the grim reaper story! You guys were crazy!
-yeah!i think we still!
Thank you my brain for saying "i think" in that sentence because i know that i changed a lot my persona my thoughts everything about mr changed even i am so merciful and so comedic there is a cruel side a black side in me that i don't want to show that side of me is merciless poker mode faithless smile less cry less he is the opposite person than that Se-Gi if he is shown one minute it will be hard making him return to his cage more hard for me and for my entourage to support him and i am afraid of that day when i won't be able to support that mask me anymore...i looked at Sooah wondering how will she react to me that day,Taehyung know that Se-Gi he showed up seven years ago but thanks for Tar he disappeared but i have a feeling saying that he will comeback...
-Se-Gi!is the someone,Seung-hwan?
-yes!
-that will be cool!we never drunk with him!
-you're going out tonight?Ha-ram asked
-yeah!and we won't sleepover here tonight!as we will be drunk!so it won't be you know!i said
-why not!?Sooah asked
-dunk boys are not controllable!Tae said
-ohh!i understand!Ha-ram said
-i should get going now see you!
-where?Sooah asked grabbing my hand
I looked at her hand grabbing me and said
-i am going to the office i have some work to do!
-so are you coming for lunch?i will make some black-been noodles!
-really!?then we will have lunch together! Seung-hwan is probably coming with me!
-okay we will be waiting for you!
-Taehyung!Let's go!
-Taehyung!Ha-ram said
-yes!
-Se-Gi!she said awkwardly
-yeah!
-don't be late!
-okay we won't!i said smiling and i winked for Sooah!
-okay see you!Tae said waving to them
-you like her?i asked him in the car
He dropped his head on the car chair
-i love her!from the first second she put my heart on fire!
-waaw!
Suddenly my phone got a notification from Youtube it was a BTS song
-do you listen to them?
-you know them?
-yeah!i heard a lot about them they are good peoples!"ppogo shipda ppogo shipda"!he was singing the spring day song
-so let's hear that song then!
-put it on!
I put on it was called DNA when the lyrics started we started dancing but at a moment we stopped it was a sad lyrics on a happy tempo but then we gave up on sad face and kept on dancing on the song and then we changed to other songs like "dope,we are bulletproof pt2,NO,just one day,boy in luv,danger,fantastic baby,making a lover" and other good songs by a variety kpop groups and idols.....
We went to the company we were at my office
-what can i do here with you?tae asked
-i want to change our company's logo i have many i cannot choose one so want you to help me!
-will i be paid for that one!?
-no!
-let me take a look!
-this one is better!more confidential!
-you said so!
-may i get in?
-yes!
-good morning Mr.chairman!i heard that you're working in the weekend!
-so you do!
-i have never had a full weekend because of that company but now as i am a COO i have my weekend but after this project maybe!
-Seung-hwan!look who is here!
I said pointing to Tae who was sitting on the sofa
-Seung-hwan!tae said standing up
-yes!
-you cool bastard!hey grim reaper!
-tae!taehyung ramen thief!
-yaaa!
And they hugged each other like love birds
I said for annoying them
-Mr.CFO!come in please!
They detached from each other awkwardly
-love birds can we finish out work!please!
-you never change you still that rude kimchi from then
-and you still the Grim reaper from then with the black clothes
-yeah right he is always in black clothes!
We finished the works we talked about our childhood memories we laughed together
-i think the girls should be waiting for us now!
-yes right let's go!
-so i should get going now!then see you tonight right?!
-aren't you coming with us?
-you said girls so isn't a date?
-no!Sooah and Ha-ram!
-ahh!can i join you!
-you still that crappy boy!
-i do?
-let's go!
-i will join you!I will put in order some files and put everything in order for the Monday meeting and join you!
-the hard working COO you are!okay then we will wait you in the parking spot!
-how was grandma yesterday!?
-she is good!
-i am on fire waiting for her the Monday!
-me too!
-Se-Gi!?
-yep!
-isn't life so surprise full?
-why saying it?
-how we met and how we are now,how we met Seung-hwan and now how we remet again and his relation with Sooah and Ha-ram and as ours with them how we met each other the coincidence that did ensemble you and Sooah your family history your mother's death and your second persona appears and disappears my grandma's coming here your new job everything is just like a perfect plan of a perfect planer!
-you're right a perfect plan for perfect "us"
He smiled to me saying
-i wish that "us" never changes to an "i" and "you"
-did i took so much time?Seung-hwan said
-nah!perfect timing!tae said
I get in the car with Tae and Seung-hwan get in with us!
-don't you have a car?Tae asked
-i do but we will spend the day night together and we won't use our cars tonight anymore so better coming with you now!
-bingo!
-you didn't told me how you met up with Sooah and Ha-ram!
-we have all the night tonight so why being in a rush!tae said
-right!Hey tae!are you married or engaged or something like that!?
-no!not at all!
-are you planning on getting married in the same day or what?
-why saying that!?
-he is not married nor you are!he is not engaged nor you are so!..
-no!no!it's just that i haven't found the right girl!
-haven't!?
-yeah!i think that i found mine!he said with a smile
-that punk!he is talking about Ha-ram! I said
-really!he reacted so happily
-yeah!i said
-Ha-ram is a good girl!and a strong girl she is so smart!i think she is perfect with you!
-you say so!
-yeah!
-and you bro!?tae asked
-me what?
-the same question!
-ohh no!i was married but i was not destined to be a father!i was a husband for five years but it ended up with me being widow!
Tae's facial expressions changed from happy to sad
-I'm,I am sorry for hearing that!i had no idea about what happened,I am sorry!
-it's okay!that's how life turns into!so don't be sorry for something that just happened!
-get out of that subject you made Clara sad!
-sorry!tae said
-wait who is Clara!Seung-hwan asked
-right who is Clara ?tae asked
-Gentlemans!Mrs.Kim Clara is my car!
Say hi Clara!..and i made the car horn!
-you stupid psycho!seung-hwan said
-better than you Grim reaper!
-wait!You just asked us about Ha-ram and Sooah!how you!
-a long story!but i will resume it in Sooah is my wife's sister!
-waw!what a coincidence!
-yeah!and here we are Let's get it!