I never really believed in love, because I believed that love can only make you cry, suffer, and even kill yourself. Those people who wanted to kill their self are dumb and stupid.
Love for me is just a children's play. You pretend to get married. Pretend to be wife and husband but when you grow up you can only feel pain. Maybe at first it is as sweet as a cake but as time flies everything will change. It will turn into bitter love that ends up hurting each other.
HI iam Nina Arcilla. I am a senior highschool student at the University of Sto. Tomas. Unlike other stories mine does not have a happy ending. Mine does not have any happy ending just like Disney movies. There is no wishing star I can wish on to grant me my wishes.
"Nina! Nina!" someone called my name, so I looked back and saw my only friend.
"Nina wait for me you are such a fast walker" she said. She is Jianina. She was my friend since Grade six. And we are still friends until today. And she knows what I have been through.
"I am not a fast walker you are just a slow poke." I told her.
"well I am sorry but there is some guy who asked me a favor." she said. I gave her a look to tell me what was it.
"well some guy asked for your number. He said you were totally his type. And he was wondering if he could court you." she explained
"and did you give him my number?" I asked calmly while looking at the down.
"well yes" she said. Oh my g this is why sometimes I hate being with her.
I stop walking and I faced her "did I gave you permission to do so?" I said still calm as I can be.
"uhmm... No" she said nervously. "then why did you give him my number?" I asked again.
"don't you think it's time to open yourself to a new possibility of love? It been long time since you've been happy. It think you also deserve happiness" she said.
"life or even God does not want me to be happy! Don't you get it. Out of all people you know what I've been through! And yet here you are trying to push me to be happy. Why? Because you feel pity on me" I told her I just can't take it anymore. I just snapped.
"Nina it's not like that I just want you to be happy." she said "well I don't want to be happy. Because every time I am happy that person dies." I told her and left her.
I don't deserve to be happy. Because every time I am happy with someone the next thing I know is that they are dead.
I did not feel like going to class so I went straight to the clinic of our school and laid at the bed. I put my earphones in my ears and just stared at the ceiling.
I guess I was very bad in my past life so God is punishing me. I guess I have to say sorry to Jianina. I felt my eyelid getting heavy so I just closed my eyes and hoped that the pain would go away.