She was walking on a muddy-wet, slippery-rock, and narrow road of Mount Lantawan. Her tears are falling on the ground as serve as her trace marked. Her precious mental health was disturbed and she's fighting it back against the thought of ending her life.
Iniisip niya ang mga taong nagmamahal sa kaniya at minamahal niya. She was trying to balance everything habang nakaharap sa mailaw na siyudad ng Digos. Everything she saw are just beautiful and peaceful, pero sa loob niya ay hindi masabi ng karaniwang salita lamang kung gaano kagulo ang kaniyang puso't isipan.
"Bakit ba kasi ganito ang buhay na meron ako?" habang umiiyak at halos hindi na makahinga dahil sa luha at sipon niya.
She was thinking kung ito na ba ang parusa ng Diyos sa kaniya o sadyang minalas lang talaga siya sa pamilya niya. She took a step towards sa cliff and stopped for a while. Her mind and heart are still battling about ending her life or not. Gustong-gusto niya ng wakasan ang sariling buhay sapagkat hindi na niya kaya pa ang magdusa sa sakit na nararamdaman.
After a few minutes, she finally decided na ituloy ang balak niyang magpakamatay. Huminga siya ng malalim at binuga ito ng may kasamang bigat sa kalooban. She was about to jump off from the cliff but, may biglang pumigil sa kaniya. A strong hand grabbed her left hand and another hand on her waist. Resulta nito ang direktang pagkayakap nila sa isa't-isa.
"Why? Why?" wika ng isang lalaki habang nakayakap nang mahigpit sa babae. "You don't have to do that, alam mo naman na you can always talk to me."
The girl chose not to say anything, instead she just cried too loud and moaned. The sky filled with shining stars and a clear bright full moon. Everything seems fine, parang walang problema ang mundo at mga tao.
Bakit kaya may ganitong pangyayari sa buhay natin? Is this what really our Creator wanted for us? Ang masaktan at magdusa sa mundong ginawa niya para sa atin? I mean, para saan? Why do we need to experience these things? What's the connection of living in harmony from suffering different problems?
We all wanted to live like normal survivor. Society have made a set of standards na halos lahat ng tao ay sinusunod ito. The worst is ginagawa nila itong reference for judging other people. Most of them are non-educated o walang pinag-aralan, but don't get me wrong. Some of this people naman ay may malawak na pag-iisip kahit walang pinag-aralan. They are open minded people who are ready to learn. While other people naman ay may mataas na pinag-aralan but, refused to add more knowledge on what they had already. Close minded people to be exact.
The world is upgrading every second, minute, hour, or even a single day. Humans should never stop learning at sana naman ay e-apply nila sa kanilang sarili before forcing other people to apply it to them. Paano nila malalaman if it is working or applicable to the community if educators can't teach themselves to learn and understand.
Nakakapagod ang mundo, yes, totoo naman talaga. Pero, sobrang boring naman siguro ng buhay natin kung wala tayong problemang kinakaharap. Like family problem. Lahat tayo may pamilya, blood related or not, basta pamilya ang turing mo sa kanila, consider it. Most of us, teenagers, we're afraid to open up or share our problems sa pamilya natin dahil natatakot tayong husgahan ng sarili nating pamilya. Pinangungunahan tayo nang takot at kaba sa posibleng maging reaksyon nila. Best example is LGBTQIA+, I am not trying to be subjective here but let me use this as an example. Coming out is very difficult for our sisters and brothers to their family. Especially to those family na molded by religion.
Early pregnancy or teenage pregnancy, gender preference, and suicide are just few main themes in this series. As the author of these series, I would like to share my knowledge and save all the people who's suffering from different problem by educating using this novel.
I am not the most knowledgeable and well-behaved person. In short, I am not perfect. If may mali man ako through these series, I am willing to know and open for any constructive criticism from you. I want to learn. I want to know more. I want to know my mistakes. I love to grow from everything that will mold me to be the best version of myself.
Let's fight depression and anxiety. Let's change the world for a better place to live and for a brighter future. Cancel toxic mindset. Let the world hear you. Show them what and who you really are. Don't be afraid, fight! Use your right as a human surviving what is right from wrong.
So, let's save Dixie together with her friends. This is Digos Series #1.