(this book is intended for a more mature audience as it includes many trigger warnings such as murder, dismembering of parts,gore and etc if the audience does not feel comfortable with any of the topics i recommend you to exit this book,the gore will start at chapter 6 though)
"Where am I?" I had just woken up and my head was still dizzy,but at least it felt better,I noticed that I was NAKED?"WHAT UH FUCK WHAT DID I DO"I panicked and thought to myself.I was more confused as why there was no one here.Wait where am I?I lifted myself out from the bed and started exploring the house.After travelling the house I was tired.The house I was in was probably the biggest one and most expensive one i've been in,it's floors was decorated in marble,the ceiling was high and pretty fucking classy,the house also had tons of rooms like 10.I decided not to enter any of them since I gotta respect the owner's privacy,oh yeah and there was a swimming pool too.A FUCKING SWIMMING POOL.I was so jealous that i wanted to destroy the house but luckily I didn't.
Exploring the house was pretty tiring though,it took me around an hour to cover the entire house as I was tired.I laid in the bed and since my legs were tired,my eyes closed and I started drifting away to the land of dreams and imagination."M-mom is that you?"I saw a woman in her 30s in front of me,she had felt both familiar and unfamiliar it felt that I had seen her somewhere but I just couldn't remember.I woke up to someone touching my face,strangely enough it was somewhat comforting to me,I looked up to see Chucky in front of me.That was when I realized I was at his house.How could I have forgotten about yesterday,arghh this is so embarrassing that I wanted to cry and just dig myself in a hole and die.Turns out why I hadn't seen him was because he was doing his morning jog.He had a pretty fit body too I mean just look at his abs;).I was practically almost drooling for them.
Luckily my class was in the afternoon,imagine if it was in the morning wouldn't wanna skip on a class on my second day.Anyways,Chucky explained to me that when carrying me yesterday I had fainted right in front of his door,so he carried me inside and changed my clothes since I as practically sweating like crazy,hearing this phrase made me blush a bit.He UNDRESSED ME,I mean I had a lot of experience but….thinking he undressed me made me feel some sort of way and made me have lustful desires for him.I thanked him for taking care of me and he gave me pills to put in my pocket just in case I forgot to bring my pills in case of another panic attack.Chucky gave me a ride back home as it was pretty far from his place.With this we said our goodbyes,but to show my gratefulness for him I asked him out for coffee and he accepted.What can I say?I'm worldwide handsome and nobody would reject my offer.
I bowed my head down and said "Thank you Chuckie-hyung,I'll see you later in xxx coffee shop!"He waved me a goodbye from his car and started drifting away.That was when I saw him…..Out of all people it had to be SUGAWARA FUCKING SUGAWARA,I guess God really hates me huh?Least to say Sugawara was pretty surprised I mean imagine if your old sex partner and first love went out from a random guy's car I mean I can't blame him.This was partially why I stopped meeting him...He had feelings for me and the thing I hated the most was when people lead other people on,as i feel bad for the other person...That was why I changed states,schools and cut all my contacts with him...I felt bad for him but I thought if I did this then he would start hating me.\,and his feelings for me would be gone.But seeing how he looked right now,pitiful and sad I doubt those feelings had disappeared,he seemed so lonely and sad…
That I felt bad for him.He called out to me with a shaky voice and asked "H-hyung who was that".Hearing his voice made me feel bad for him and I glanced away while replying to him "Why do you need to know?Am I obliged to tell you about every part of my life?And why are you even here,don't tell me you came here just for me"I didn't mean these words but I just didn't want him to fall for me...A scum like me he was practically my sunshine during our childhood days,he deserved better someone who wouldn't treated him like a toy thus I act cruel too him.I didn't wanna give him any kind of false hope."Hyung I know you don't mean that,and I did come here to find you,I was worried since you had cut all contacts from me and now I finally found you you better not run away" hearing how sugawara wasn't giving up on me made me feel relieved but sad too.I-i don't deserve him,I mean how could I?After what I did that day there was no way a scum like me could deserve an angel like him.