We said our blessings and then we digged into the food. Every where was so silent that you could even hear the sound of the spoon touching the plate and the clock ticking. Then my dad broke the silence, well he tried..
"you've not had dinner with us in a while" he said has he put a spoon of food in his mouth. "Yes, I've been busy with school stuff" I replied immediately.
Every where turned silent again. I laid down my spoon on the table and it made my parents look towards me. I finally burst out "Dad, Mum?" "Yes dear" they replied in chorus.
"Will you guys worry about my sexual orientation" I burst out after two whole minutes of anticipation for their reply.
I could definitely see the change in expressions on my parent's faces. "What do you me..mean" mum stuttered
"oh well I think I'm a les..." I held up my words.
"What are you talking about ella" my dad added as he paused his eating.
'Whoa! I've never seen these expressions coming from them. They look so scared, i have to get out of this'.
I let out a pretend accidental chuckle. "Ella? Something serious is going on now and you'e amused?" dad said with a higher tone starting to get angry.
"E..Ella please don't.." Mum couldn't even finish her sentence before she started to to tear up and it made me really frightened. They were both tensed at that moment, I could see it.
What if I actually say it now? What could happen? No, No I can't. I smiled wide and I said "what's wrong with you guys, I wanted to say am a leserator.
Our teacher gave us a project and I was assigned with checking up on the internet on how lesbians have difficulties in coming out to their parents so I call myself a les-rator for now". I laughed out.
My mum heaved a sigh of relief as she brightened up immediately "oh my God Ella you almost gave me an heart attack, who's that teacher and why that project?!".
"oh mum she's a social science teacher and she insisted on me attending school well here you have it" I replied trying to ease the tension.
"You almost gave us a shock right now but now you're trying to push it on us?" dad said and I definitely caught him rolling his eyes. I heaved a sigh of relief.
I felt suffocated so I quickly dropped my spoons, I said the normal routine word after dinner, "thanks for the food" and I went back upstairs to my room.
I took out my dairy again and a pen then I wrote! "Hey bestee, some commotion just happened downstairs at the dinner table. I almost told my mum and dad that I'm a lesbian; I had to divert the conversation. Their expressions were not good at all. I wonder what I'd do if I really want to tell them. They would hate me…"
Before I knew tears were already dropping down my cheeks, All those thoughts made me tear up. I quickly rubbed off my tears, dropped my diary and I went to sleep. I woke up the next morning. I opened my eyes and I just stared at the ceiling of my room.
I stayed like that until I remembered Linda's party. I immediately jumped off with the intention of going to ask mum about the cloth but then I noticed something different about my room but I just couldn't put my finger on it.
I looked around my room and I saw a pretty red short dress. It was like it made my room look brighter.
I went closer to admire the dress. I took up the dress and a note fell off it. I picked the note and I read it, It made me become flustered
THE NOTE
Ella, i looked around for a nice cloth for you to wear but I couldn't find one. I know this dress was meant for your elementary school graduation but I think it's perfect for this party because it's your first party.
-MOM
My elementary school graduation dress? No wonder I looks so short. Oh well...
I tried it on and I looked perfect. The way it was small made me look sexy. "Linda won't be able to resist me now l600l " I thought out with a grin on my face.
I folded the dress nicely and I put it carefully in my school bag. I bathed and changed into my uniform and I went off to school.
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Mom stood up from bed when her alarm went off. She went to Ella's room and she looked towards where she put the dress and she smiled "She must have liked the dress. Wait a munite" she looked at her watch "it's just 6:40, what is she going to be doing at school?"
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I reached the gates of my school and It looked so deserted "Seems like I came too early" . I banged on the gates of the school for about five minutes before a man came to open it up. It looked like someone in his late forties.
I really need to stop analyzing people's ages.
I walked past him and then I heard a hard voice that made me stop "Come back here! ".
I looked back and saw the man staring like I was a prey he wanted to devour.
Why's he looking at me like that, did he hear my thoughts?
"Me??" I pointed at myself with the intention of finding out if he was actually calling out for me.
He nodded his head in response as I went closer to him. "Y..es?" I said with fear as I reluctantly went closer and then I stopped when I was close enough.
Everywhere was silent for about five seconds until he finally bursted out "Can't you greet?"
Phew. I heaved a sigh of relief. I seriously thought something bad was going to happen to me.
"Sorry sir, Good morning sir" I replied as I bowed to show sign of respect "Good morning to you too" he replied with a little smile.
I watched him walk to his gate post and then I entered the school. Every where was dead silent but I started hearing sounds as I got closer to my classroom.
Is there someone in the class?
I finally got to the classroom door and I opened it up and surprisingly I saw the person I least expected. It was Linda! I felt so happy.
"Hey Linda" I said suddenly and it startled her, I could see it from her expression.
She quickly put on a smile and waved at me. "Hey, what are you doing here so early?" she asked, "I just woke up too early,what about you?" I asked.
"Well I just finished setting up my birthday brawns" she answered as she gestured her hands to the walls.
I looked around and I noticed what she was talking about. There were glitter on the walls and posters saying "Happy Birthday Linda".
Whoa!
I looked around the class and I saw gift bags on each tables then I noticed that a table at the far edge was empty. Then i remembered that it was Evelyn's table and my eyes widened.
She probably skipped that table intentionally. This is my chance to find out what happened between them.
"Hey Linda? I think you missed one table" I said as I pointed towards Lyn's table.
"No I didn't skip any table, I know that's Evelyn's table" she said with a much lower tone and a frown on her face.
"Then why did you skip that table" I said with so much curiousity.
Come on Linda, you have to tell me"
"Well because..."