I got up from bed and checked the time, it was 7:00 in the morning.
I picked up my feet and off to the kitchen to get a glass of water.
Seeing my mom startled me.
"mom, what are you doing up so early? you scared me. You know startling has killed so many people"
"Well if that's true then we'll all have been dead a long time ago. I just thought I should prepare your breakfast and lunch before you leave for school" mom said
"what do mean..."
Then I suddenly remembered, the word school triggered by memory back into life, I remembered that today is the day of my nightmare, the day I start school, the D-day. I ran back to my room as fast as I could and took out my diary and I wrote:
"oh no bestee, today is finally here, what should I do. Well you wouldn't know cause you're just a piece of refined wood"
That was a bit harsh but yeah.
I shoved my diary into my drawer and I started breathing fast, I started panicking and pacing around the room.
Someone knocked on the door and I didn't even pay attention. My mom came in with my breakfast and perfectly ironed school uniform.
"mom you know I can't eat, I'm having panic attacks" I blurted out still pacing around. My mom stood up and dragged me to sit on the bed. She told me that it's all in my head and that school is not so bad, she then left my food by my bedside, dropped my uniform on the bed and left.
"Easy for you to say, you weren't the one that got expelled for having a crush," I thought out loud.
I sat on my bed, crossed my legs and did some meditation,
"oummm...oummm..., dang it! this Isn't working!...
then I grasped a thought of confidence
"yeah...I don't need this, i'm a smart girl so all I need to do is just go to school, it's not a crime and besides I love learning and I don't have to talk to people", I said to myself.
Well that worked, I immediately took my uniform and zoomed into the bathroom. I took my bath, changed and went downstairs.
When I went downstairs, my parents stared at me in a way couldn't understand.
"Is...is it so bad?, did I wear it wrong?" I said out of confusion while trying to fix my tie.
"you look beautiful," they said in chorus.
"wow honey, you look so different and beautiful, just smile a little and stop looking so worried, everything will be fine." mom said.
I smiled at her and I wanted to zoom out and into my dad's car when he stopped me "slow down there..", getting a thought of hope,
I immediately beamed and said "are you finally reconsidering the idea of going to school"
he let out a grin and stretched his arm to pick up something from the couch near him.
"you're still going to school, it's just that you forgot your backpack".
I guess I spoke too soon.
"I don't have a backpack remember? ", he then smiled and handed out a backpack to me.
"well I knew you'd say that, that's why I bought you a bag, it's Limited Edition and it's got a cute piggy on it, you like cute pigs right?
"yay! A Limited Edition bag that's got a piggy on it? Can my day get any better?" I said sarcastically...
"i'm glad you like it, honey, let's get going," he said as he headed towards pretending not to not understand what I said.
**In dad's car
(Dad is driving me to school and it was dead silent")
Dad:{ to break the silence"} Uhm...
Me: Dad, how could you do this to me?, you said I was your favourite girl but you went on and agreed to it without asking me.
Dad: I had no choice...
Me: {Then I childishly blurted out} who do you like more, me or mum?
Dad: oh my God, are we really having this conversation right now? You know I can't answer that and besides, I had to do it.
Me: You used to say I was your favourite and now you can't even answer this..and what do u mean you had to do it? were your threatened?
Dad: you'll understand when you grow up.
Me: {A thought came into my mind and it made me smirk} oh I get it, you fell for it right? You chose pleasure over your daughter!. Am not so surprised because that's so you.
Dad: I'm going to have to stop you right there young lady, the sooner you keep quiet, the sooner we get there.
Me: yeah whatever...
*****
It took a while then we finally got there. I got out of the car, banged it close and I looked up. I saw a big school, white walls and clean floors.
Then something took my attention, the name "real high"
The name sounded so familiar then I suddenly remembered, it's the same name as the school I got expelled from.
I turned to my dad with fear in my eyes "don't tell me it's...?"
"you gotta learn to face your fears dear, good luck! " dad said and zoomed off.
This is worse than my worst nightmare, what if she still attends this school. "I shouldn't worry because I'm grown now, even if she's in there, I won't allow myself to be bullied ever again," I said to myself, I got so much confidence from saying that and I walked into the hallway.
I went down to the principal's office, which I remembered clearly. I felt like everyone was staring at me as I walked down the hallway. I entered the office and saw a lady in her early 30's.
She smiled at me and said, "you must be Ella, welcome." looking confused I said, "are you the...?"
She interrupted saying 'yes, I Am the principal, the former principal was taken out of this position for indulging in unacceptable acts.
"Your locker is number 103 and here are the keys", she handed them over to me and directed me to my locker. She gave me my books and told me where to find my class.
I went over to my locker to drop the books, as I was organizing them, I heard a voice very close to me like someone was talking to me but I just ignored it.
I finished organizing my locker, i closed it and a body appeared in front of me.
A fair boy with the latest hairstyle, shoes and watch. He seemed to be someone popular. "Hello there, I've been waiting here for quite a while," he said and I struggled to answer with very little certainty
"m..e..?", " yes you, i'm Cole, you seem to be new what class?"
In my mind, all I could think of was, why is he talking to me! a
i'm trying to not talk to anyone but he's ruining everything.
"Grade 10" I replied. He looked at me closely and said "wow, you're in the same class like me, you look really worried though, I know this look, you must have come here to get away from someone. Don't worry here is the best place, here you are unknown" he stopped and the continued again
"You are unknown.. Does that even make sense?, I really need to focus on grammar, see you in class..." then he walked away.
All I could pick from that was I'm unknown then I looked around me and no one was even looking at me, I figured out there and then that at that school am unknown.