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🇺🇸Madinaminute
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Ren Midori is 21 years old and hasn't lived his life the way he wanted to. A major trauma in his past had completely taken over his mental health, Starting with hating the sound of his own name. Ren starts neglecting his health almost completely after a traumatic breakup a few years ago. As fate would have it Ren meets a rebellious blonde, named Kane Suzuki, who wants to help in his own way. Though Ren doesn't make it easy, disregarding his help almost every time. Can Kane save Ren before it's too late? Before Ren drowns completely from his dangerous mind
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Chapter 1 - Chīsai fits him better

No! Stop, please! You shouldn't have to do this! Please! Please! I'm begging you!" Ren screamed, his uniform top ripped open his pants halfway down his thighs. Kicking his legs in failed attempts to move his attackers away from him. Ren shivered in disgust as he felt a tongue run over his torso stopping on his bruised pecs, screaming as teeth broke the skin on his chest "Stop fucking screaming, you're ruining my goddamn high, you fucking like this shit, so shut up.." Ren shrieked as his bare legs bore goosebumps from the chilling night air. A clenched hand made contact with his cheek leaving a metallic taste in his mouth. Tears streaming down Ren's face as he stared at the stars, stars that seemed to reflect his crystaling tears pooling from his eyes. Mumbling "Stop.. Please.." as his body rocked on the cold cement below him, scraping his skin from each hateful thrust. Each pair of dead eyes stare at him as they take turns holding him in place as they rotate from place to place. A brief break between the thrusts and the rotating of hands on his arms, that he was sure was coated in bruises. Pulling himself out of his trance, he started to flail his legs in the air looking for someone anyone to hit. The two not currently holding Ren to the ground start running towards the screaming, flailing redhead, covering his mouth in attempts to keep him silent. Ren shot his eyes open as a rough calloused hand covered his mouth, swiftly bringing his mouth closed sinking teeth into the hand preventing him from screaming. "Ahh! You little fucking slut! Fucking hold him down." The figure started pointing to his 'friends'. "I think this bitch needs to be taught a lesson." Rough hands grab his flailing arms and legs pinning him to the ground once again. A clenched fist making contact with every naked part of his body leaving bruises in his path. Ren panting from the lack of oxygen and the pain continuing to overwhelm him. Why isn't anyone helping him? He was sure he was screaming. Wasn't he? Ren was brought out of his thoughts hearing a 'click' sound, only to feel a piece of metal lightly scraping his torso. Tears still falling, still panting, still can't breathe, still screaming, still no help. The dark figure pulling his hand up ramming his hand downward towards his chest. "No! Stop!"

'Beep, Beep, Beep'

Ren shoots up from his bed, throwing his sheets away from his sweating torso. Bringing his scared, contorted hand to his panting chest. Running his free hand threw his soaked green curls. Drowning out the sound of his blaring alarm clock, counting to 20, to calm his unsteady breathing. "1..2..3..4" Calming his breathing he sighed, "Fuck, what's with those goddamn dreams still." Ren brought both hands to his eyes, pressing into his eyelids until he sees black and white spots dancing behind his lids. Throwing the sheets from his legs, shakily standing as he walked to his connected bathroom. Turning on his faucet running hands through the chilling water, attempting to chill his sweating hands. "I can't fucking stand this shit anymore." He sighed out, staring into the mirror at his chest, littered in scars, his left arm tattered in deep purple scars. Shaking his head he cups his hands to bring the water to his face. "I need to stop at the pharmacy, I'm out of my medicine." He ran his hands through his green curls as he walked to his closet pulling out his 'I don't give a fuck' outfit, grey joggers, a dark green T-shirt with a black beanie covering his hair. Gathering his textbooks and notepads into his orange bag, as he whispered his therapeutic sentence that was engraved into his mind after years of being forced to repeat it, "Yesterday is over, tomorrow will be better and today is a present that not everyone can see." walking out of his dorm room down the hallway to his morning classes. Pulling his phone from his pocket, scrolling through his social media, to keep his eyes from uncomfortably locking with a stranger. Mumbling to himself. Slamming into someone, knocking him off his feet. "O-ow, I'm sorry I didn't see you." Ren slowly looking up rubbing his lower back from the slight tinge of pain he felt. "Yeah, I can see that. Nose dug into the goddamn phone mumbling to yourself." Ren's eyes travel up a tall figure standing in front of him, a scowl pressed on his lips as his eyes glared down at the flustered greenette. "O-oh uh, H-hi. I'm sorry about that." Ren stutters out, locking his emerald eyes with deep crimson. "Whatever, -" The blonde male scowled as their eyes met, clicking his tongue reaching his hand out to help the smaller off the ground. Ren went to reach out to take the hand offering help, but, he retracted his hand after a few seconds placing his hands in his knees to push himself up. Ren's height only brought him the other males chin, which allowed him to stare up at him. An undercut of ash blonde hair, lightly tanned skin, a perfect muscled figure, with his beautiful crimson eyes. "Just look at where your going next time, Chīsai." The deep threatening tone from the blonde made Ren flush a deep red. "U-uh y-yeah I'll uh I'll do that." The blonde let out a chuckle swaying his head as he walked past the smaller male. Ren quickly glanced back, unknowingly wearing a smile as he turned around to make it to his first class.

"Gaichū! Hey Gaichū, over here!" Ren looks over to see a small girl with chocolate-colored eyes, waving her hand gesturing to an open seat next to her. Ren chuckled shaking his head as he made his way to the open seat. "So, what's got you all smiley this morning? Huh?" Ren flushed a slight "I'm not smiling. Drop it, Akari." Ren waved one hand towards her dismissively. Akari smirking at her shy best friend, "Come now Gaichū, you really think you can lie to me? Of all people? What happened?" Ren sighed he didn't really want to tell her, knowing her she would track this guy down just to find out if he's gay or at the very least bisexual. Ren was bisexual but had more preference for males. "Look, I bumped into someone. I don't know who they are, I just know what they look like." Akari groans as she lays her head on her desk "Gaichū~ You bumped into someone! Who were they? Boy or girl?" She laid a hand on his forearm squeezing slightly, "I'm not telling. You'll go track 'em down and bug them about me. Not doing that again. Last time turned out to be complete shit." Akari sighed "I-i know I messed up when it came to Mazuko. But he was just so sincere I really thought he was okay.." Ren shook his head, "I'm not blaming you, Aki. Mazuko was just one hell of an actor, he had everyone fooled." Ren looked at Akari with a sad smile, "Oh Gaichū, I get it. I'm sorry that happened to you. But your 21 now. Maybe it's time to put yourself out there again.." Akari let out in a small whisper, Ren hummed in a slight agreement "I know 'Aki, I just.. don't think I'm ready." The doors to his classroom slam open, causing a noisy class to suddenly quiet down and turn their heads in the direction of the now slightly bent door. Ren's eyes widen as he sees a familiar set of blonde locks, looking down at the scowling face. "Are you fucking kidding me.." He muttered out. Akari quirked her eyebrow questioningly before turning her head to the pissed-off looking male. "Him? Really? I mean he's hot and all, but he's an asshole. He's always yelling at people, calling 'em 'dickheads' or 'fuckwads' I don't think someone like that is what you're looking for." Ren turned his head towards his friend "You know him?" Akari nodded her head, his emeralds eyes stared back into her dark chocolates "Yeah we have a couple of classes together." Ren's eyes were normally just so dead, hardly any life to them. But as soon as Crimson met Emerald, his eyes shined again. "Do you know his name?" Akari went to answer her trembling friend before a hard kick came from the underside of the desk causing Ren to flinch hard almost throwing himself out of his chair "Oi, if you, want to know my name. Fucking ask me, not Snow White here." Akari's mouth fell open "Snow White! Who are you calling Snow White?!" Rolling his eyes, he pointed to her, "You, White hair and annoying, Snow White." Akari started pouting, crossing her arms in front of her chest, Akari huffing in annoyance. "Alright then, what's your name?" The ashen blonde turned his head towards Ren, flashing a devilish smirk "Kane. Kane Suzuki. And yours?" Ren smiled, stifling a chuckle "You already know it don't you? It's Chīsai." Kane grinned. "Chīsai? That's all I get? Not even a real name?" Ren shook his head "Nope. I don't tell strangers my name, so no. Chīsai, is what you get to call me." Kane taking the empty seat in front of Ren he slowly sank into his seat. "I'm no stranger though. An acquaintance maybe, but I'm no stranger." Kane smirked noticing Rens clear annoyance on his face. Ren opened his mouth to say something but was forced to shut his mouth as the classroom door slammed open and two males strolled in. One with black, empty eyes. The second? The second male had Ren's heart drop to the pit of his stomach. Fuck he found me. "Kane, please don't move from that seat. I beg you." Kane quirked his eyebrows, glancing in the direction of the room the greenette had his eyes locked on to. "Who's that bastard?" No response. Kane locked eyes with the bi-colored male. Scowling in his direction as he made his way from the front of the room towards Ren and Kane. Black and White. The colors Ren now hated. Mint and Tabasco. The scent he now hated. They used to remind him of spicy-sweet candy, and a happy, loving home. Now, they made his body shake and his eyes water. The bi-colored male made his way to Kane, glaring down in his direction, "Move." Kane's eyes never left his, glaring intensely while he stood up. Kane was taller than him, by a lot. It was good enough for him to be intimidating to anyone. Though, this 5'11" male stood with his head tall as though he were 6'5" like Kane. "Who the fuck are you telling to move, Bastard." Kane sneered, bringing his eyes down to his level. "You, move dog." Kane grabbed him by his collar, practically growling at the man. A slight tug on Kane sleeve pulled his attention away from the lightless green-blue eyes, locking on to the fearful green. "Kane, please. Just sit down.." Kane let go of the man's collar, sitting back down in his seat staring at the shaking greenette. Placing a calloused hand on his arm. "Don't leave Gaichū, I want to talk after class." Kane scoffed as he walked away. "Gaichū? What's that." Ren was staring at the ground. Not letting his eyes falter towards Kane, "A nickname he gave me, A long time ago. It doesn't matter." Kane opened his mouth but was quickly shut with a raspy voice "Shut it. Sit down. And get your books out." 'Who could give him a name like Gaichū? Chīsai fits him better.'