I was in the hospital with Kelly next to me. I had been awake for over 30 mins yet I refused to speak after my panic attack. I didn't want to see anyone. Didn't want to speak to anyone. Nothing. I was told I had been in a coma for a month doctors refused to inform me and Kelly bout our infants. Our unborn. I was shaking not with cold but with pain. The pain my heartfelt. My tears fell freely and I had no issue.
Doctor Will entered the room with Mary holding a clipboard. They asked me to shift and try to feel my legs but I felt nothing. I just shook my head. The family entered and so did Kelly's and just spoke as if nothing happened and I was sick of it. All of it. The doctor returned informing me that the feeling would only return when. Ready. I. Didn't. Care. James tried touching my hand but I wouldn't let him. He tried apologizing but I wouldn't let him. He betrayed me and I was sick of him. Of all of them and their 'perfection'.
"My...baby..doc. Where's-my baby?" I tried.
"Sadly both you and Kelly lost the unborn in the crash I'm sorry." He said and Kelly erupted into unfit cries. I reached for the injection filled with drugs and pressed it into my chest before they could grab it and I was out...
I could only see flickers of light. Doctors rushing and James tears falling. Everyone rushing to save me but I didn't want to be. How do you deal with child loss? How do you deal with your soon-to-be disloyalty? How do you deal with the world permanently? Death? Peace? Cleaning it again? What? Cause right now everything was just far of from space...
James POV
Current time...
I didn't mean to hurt Lusi. I didn't mean for all that shit to happen. We were happy and we were bout to start a family. Yet when I started working for my dad work was pulling me away. Cutting my time with her. With our possible son. An heir. That I wept and my mother could've held. How could I? While I was busy with a phone call I was offered a drink. Only realizing look later that it was drugged. I could only see flashes and images as two men dragged me to a room and a blond girl. I didn't even know what was going on. I felt limp and weak.
All of a sudden I heard a scream and I knew that was Lusi. My Lusi. I tried saying her name several times but it came out as a whisper. I saw the blond be thrown to the other side of the room and be slapped by Elsa. Lusis mom. She came to me and tried talking but I heard nothing. My body was fading though but I needed to find Lusi.
That's it. I felt an injection on my left side and saw the family doctor. I immediately felt my body slowly from the bottom up. And my hearing was returning. I just ran half-dressed to find Lusi. That's all but I saw her sprint away and Kelly followed in pursuit. I should've joined the track sprinters. I was almost behind Kelly when the truck collided with them.
The screams and the horns were loud. Lusi! Kelly! My child! Gone. All because of s stupid drug. All because of some spy. She wouldn't let me in after that. She shut us all out and I didn't blame her. She tried suicide but security guards were close to her.
What I feared most was when I was told she might not be able to have a child again...sadly no one told her. For the fear of the past. I'm so sorry my love. Now we just strangers with a doomed future...
I betrayed but it wasn't my fault. She wouldn't listen to any of us. So now we were just stuck in an arranged marriage.
The door opened in the hospital room I was in and I saw Lusi enter with her mom. Her mom nodded at me, whispered something to Lusi's ear, and then left. The awkward silence settled in. She moved to sit at the chair beside me. The tension in the room was hard to bear. I wanted to throw myself out of the room.
Shit...
I pushed myself to sit up and she hurriedly fixed my pillow so it could accommodate me. Her face was inches from mine but we ignored the tension and the emotions that were fighting. Her tears began to stain my face. Her breathing was shallow.
"Why did you have to cheat James? Was I never enough for you?" She whispered.
"You are more than enough. More than the intended. And every day I grow more fond of you. More fond of these things you make me feel." I whispered as I stared into her eyes.
"Just stop that crap, James! Don't give me your fucking poetry I'll have none of it! You make me fear you cause I can never stop loving you. I hate it. I can't stand it! Damn you!" She shouted.
My own tears fell at the sight of things.
"I never cheated..." I whispered.
"Really James we playing in denial right now. Is that the smartest thing to do? I saw you in bed with her on you! I saw-"
I cut her off "What you saw was a girl forcing herself on me but giving a show of possible sex action. I was drugged, Lu! I was in the office taking a business call. One of the waiters offered me a drink and I took it. It made me limp Lu! I could barely speak. I heard you scream and I needed to tell you but you ran off and that accident left was in pieces. Do you know fear? Fear is when you watch what you live for disappear or hate you or deny you when you are innocent. We were inseparable. Happy and destined. They say fear love cause you will never be in control but damn I let love rule me. I learned that if you want something you gotta earn it. The question is Lusi have I earned the right to be your husband?"
"We are just missed placed pieces..." She whispered.
"Come to me please," I whispered. She got into the small bed and I held her close. I pulled the blanket up and covered both of us. Kissing her forehead as we both slowly fell asleep.