"Spencer," I hear my moms sweet voice from the other side of my room door.
I lay silently on my bed, playing with the charm bracelet on my arm. I sigh, turning on my side and not answering my mom.
I hear the knob click and she enters my room. She doesn't say anything for awhile and I don't break the silence either.
"Hey, honey. Jamie told me what happened in school today. How are you feel," she says awkwardly. I don't think my mom knows how to comfort someone anymore. When Nick and I were younger she knew exactly what to do to cheer us up. Now that she has been away for a couple years, she's not sure what to do.
"I'm fine," I tell her, emotionless. She breathes out an exhausted sigh and shuffles over to my bed. She sits down next to me.
"I don't remember you being this stubborn with your feelings when you were younger. You were always so open with telling us how you felt." She started playing with my hair, combing her fingers through it. It was soothing, but it still wasn't enough to get me to open up.
"Well, that's what happens when you share your feeling with the world and all it does is stomp on it," I mutter out.
"I can't tell if you're sad or angry," she says. I sit up next to her and look at her.
"Neither. I'm over boys and relationships, especially assholes that pretend to be good guys. Once you get over boys, all your problems are solved." I try to keep my voice steady and uninterested, but I can already feel my composure breaking.
"Talk to me," she begs. I feel the first set of tears fall down my face.
"I don't know what to say anymore, mom. I've been in three relationships and they've all gone to shit. Now I'm sure that it must be me that is just bad at being in relationships. I must be doing something wrong because when I finally think something is going right, everything goes bad."
I start bawling my eyes out and my mom pulls me into a hug, holding me close.
"Don't say that. There's nothing wrong with being human. Being human means you make mistakes. It doesn't mean anything is wrong with you. Maybe you just haven't found the right one. That might not happen for decades, Spencer. You're only in high school."
I stay quiet and wipe some of my tears.
"Give me some feedback. Did I give a good cheer up speech? Your father was always better at giving them," my mom says and it makes me laugh. I look down at the airplane charm on my bracelet. Chester really thought this gift out. He even gave me something to remember my dad by.
Too bad he couldn't trust me.
"What do you think dad would have said to cheer me up after a break up," I ask mom. My room door pops open in surprise and Nick walks in with a tray.
"He would've said, no guy deserves you anyways. Not even me. I'll drag any one of those little boys onto my jet, fly into the sky, and dangle them out of the jet in mid air. They'd be scared shitless and won't think twice about hurting my daughter," Nick recites in our dad's voice.
My mom and I both laugh at the top of our lungs and Nick sits on the bed, placing the covered tray onto my bed with a big smile.
"What's in there? I'm smelling something sweet." Nick answers my question by lifting the lid of the tray. My eyes glisten with joy when they land on chocolate chip cookies.
"Would you ladies like some cookies," Nick asks.
"Of course. Heartbreak is always better when your brother loves to make desserts when you're sad," I say and pick up one of the cookies. We spent the rest of the night talking to each other and joking around.
It got my mind off of Chester for the moment, but once they left and it was time to go to sleep, I couldn't help but think of how everything went downhill.
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"Good morning, Spencer," a happy Sky approaches me in the school hallway. I try to put a smile on my face, but it's not genuine. Not one of my friends have asked me how I was feeling after the break. It's only been one day though.
"Hey, Sky," is the only thing I say. I didn't really feel like talking, but she ignored the hint.
"Wow, you look horrible today," she points out. I'm completely shocked.
"How nice of you to point out? I'm sorry I didn't get any sleep last night. I'm sorry my boyfriend dumped me for no reason. Is that inconvenient for you," I ask her sarcastically, saying everything with a smile on my face. When I don't get sleep I get grumpy. Top grumpy with being pissed off that Chester couldn't trust me.
"Yeah I heard about that. I've got something that can cheer you up though," Sky says excitedly. I don't want to bring down her mood, but I don't feel like being jolly right now. But, I suck it up and ask her what she thinks will cheer me up.
"What do you have planned," I ask her.
"You and the rest of the squad are meeting my boyfriend this weekend," she says with jazz hands.
"I'm sorry to say this Sky because I know it was all my idea, but I don't think I'm going to come." She sends a sad face my way for a few seconds, but goes back to her joyful smile.
"Okay. Just tell me if you change your mind. I'm going to go find the rest of the crew to invite them." Sky skips off to who knows where and I decide to go to my locker.
I open it and grab some of my books for the day when I hear someone clear their throat right beside me. I close my locker and I come face to face with the last person I thought would dare come up to talk to me.
"What the hell do you want," I ask Max. Seeing his face today isn't making me feel better.
"No need to be all grumpy. I heard you and Chester broke up," he says with a smug smile. I roll my eyes getting ready to walk away. "Who would guess you'd be a cheated? I guess you're just as bad as me," he says, doing a little chuckle.
His words make me pause.
No one knew the reason behind why Chester broke up with me. I didn't tell anyone about why it happened and I heard Chester hasn't talked to any of his friends since the break up happened. So, how would Max know Chester broke up with me because he thought I cheated on him?
"It was you who sent him that pic," I say. It wasn't a question. Max didn't seem bothered that I figured it out.
"I can help you forget about him if you want," he says and I feel like I vomited a little in my mouth.
Chester believed this asshole over me?!