Mother I hope that one day you can read this, but I doubt that this will find you, and I despise myself for it.
Fourth brother is with me. Zhongyi somehow caught wind of my plans and followed me. It pains me to have you lose two beloved sons, but I have travelled too far. I cannot send Zhonyi back alone, the trail is too dangerous. I cannot take him back myself either, for it's too late for me to turn back now.
Please forgive me. I had not planned for this. It seems that my influence on Zhongyi was far too great, if only he was more like third brother. Do not worry, he is safe with me. I have not punished him for this, after all it is of my fault.
Mother I wish you well, but I must go now. Zhongyi has finally woken up, our journey must continue.
May you be free from burden,
Ying Guangzhi