Standing before me was a figure of a girl in a raincoat. A gentle and beautiful figure, a tough yet fragile existence. I reached out my hand but said nothing while doing it. The girl does the same and reaches for my hand.

"Is there anyone else with you?"

Those words reminded me of the events that had just happened.

"I feel sick", I thought to myself. I started crying again. This pain in my heart won't cease to exist.I opened my mouth and tried to say something but nothing had come out. Only short but painful screams cut off by the pain in my heart.

As I was there crying about what had just happened, the girl was there by my side waiting for me to calm down. I must look very embarrassing right now. Please don't laugh at my current pathetic state. I don't know what kind of face I'm making, but it's sure to ugly.

"It's fine, I'll wait for you as long as I have too, just let everything out."

As the girl said those words, my voice finally came out. The excruciating pain in my heart had lessened, but I was still crying.

Soon enough, I had finally run out of tears. The girl had offered me some water, and I accepted gratefully.

The lingering pain in my heart was still there, but it was not as bad as I started crying.

"My bad, I shouldn't have asked."

No, it was my fault, She was just doing what anyone would normally do.

"No, crying was my fault, thank you for not leaving me alone."

If you think about it, this girl actually waited for me to stop crying in this rain. She must be a kind girl.

"Don't thank me, it would have been rude of me to leave someone who needs help."

"I see."

What a kind girl, I might cry again. I look away in embarrassment to hide my face.

"Name."

I look back and almost missed what she said

"Your name."

"Jet"

I gave her my name, the name given to me by my own parents. They are gone now. I just realized how alone I truly am now. My friends are gone, my family is gone. I have no one. I am no one.

"It would have been better if I had died instead"

I said out loud without thinking much.

* s l a p *

Did she just hit me? Way to ruin my image of you. I don't think I said anything wrong either

"Don't"

Don't?

"Don't treat your life as something as flimsy as that!"

But I have nothing. What purpose was my life anyway? Was I born just to witness this one moment? Talk about a joke, the gods must be laughing at me.

"Look, life is not permanent. You only get one chance at life. Do you think dying would benefit you in any way?"

"My friends all died just to save me, what else should I do but join them in the afterlife?"

That's right, I should just die right here and now to appease my guilt. I basically killed them anyways. I left them alone to die while I was doing nothing.

"Your friends died to save you, you say? They saved you and now you are throwing away your life? What a joke!"

"calm down, calm down. I'm sorry I said that"

"sigh"

She let out a sigh heavier than the current atmosphere. I still stand by what I said. I do think I should die. I just don't want to trigger this person any further.

"No, I'm sorry. I got a little angry at you despite knowing your circumstance. I'm a bit insensitive at times, forgive me."

"It's fine"

My parents used to scold me a lot like this before, how nostalgic. I take back what I said, she's getting angry for my sake. She really is a kind girl. She held out her hand and told me to stand up. I guess she didn't want to stay in this rainy forest any longer.

She walked me over to her horse.

"Where do you live?"

Speaking of which, I don't actually have a permanent home. I live in the guild house, but I don't really own the place. Since our guild is going to disband soon, the guild is going to be taken away.

"I used to live in a remote town near Larchroad. But I don't feel like going home right now."

I don't want to reminded of the events and start crying again. I want to keep that memory locked away in my heart while atoning for my guilt.

"I see, what about my place?"

Her place? It's kind of rude to just enter someone else's place, especially since its a girl. But I really don't have anywhere else to go, so I'll accept her kind offer.

"As long as it's not there. Anywhere is fine"

"I see"

She helped me up to her horse and started riding towards the city next to the one I used to stay in. I have never been to this city before. We soon arrived at her home and as we got off the horse, I stared towards the windows.

No lights were on, I guess she lives alo-

Wait. Does that mean this girl, is bringing me, a guy, into her home when she lives alone?"Wait, is it really fine for me to come in?"

I asked with a worried and slightly embarrassed expression.

"It's not like you would do anything that would trouble me. It's fine, come in."

I went inside her house while I was dripping from the rain. Upon entering the house, I could see a small dinner table, 2 rooms, an upper floor, and a small kitchen. Pretty spacy for someone who lives alone.

"You must be surprised about how spacy this house is for someone who lives alone right?"

Bullseye.

"ah, haha-"

Must be a psychic or something.

"The bathroom is over there, you should go and bathe yourself before you catch a cold."

What a kind girl, letting a total stranger she just met use her bathroom first. I have to show my gratitude and thank her later on.

"Sorry for being such a bother"

"I don't mind it"

She let out a smile, my heart almost went doki doki. Looking at her, she's actually really pretty. I'm lucky to have been helped by someone like her.

"Do you have a spare set of clothes?"

I looked around for my bag and then realized that I had actually left it. What an idiot I am

"N-no, I think I left it back at the forest."

"I see, I'll bring you a set of clothes you can just go ahead"

She has guy clothes? Must be a boyfriend or something, I'm jealous, aha. I went inside the bathroom and started bathing.

In the middle of bathing, she knocked on the door bringing over the set of clothes. I got out of the shower room and looked at the clothes she brought over.

"Boy clothes huh..."

I tried them on, and they fit perfectly.

"huh."

Fairly normal guy clothes. I accepted them then walked out of the bathroom. Upon leaving, I could smell something nice. I follow the scent as I reach the dinner table. I soon realized that what I had smelled was the food.

"What's all this?"

The food looked absolutely delicious. Looking at it made me realize how extremely hungry I was.

"You haven't eaten, right? Go ahead"

She let out another smile. Is this girl trying to make me fall for her? Nonetheless, I was guilty for trying to take the food so I tried to decline.

"I'm not hu-"

She looked at me with deathly eyes, I was basically threatened to eat her food.

"Actually I'm really hungry right now"

She let out a smile similar to the ones she had been giving before. I have no choice but to accept

"Let's eat!"

I take one bite out of the food she made and it was delicious.

"Delicious?"

More than delicious this is amazing! Where did she get this from?

"Yeah... did you make this?"

She smiled again and I just stared at her.

"God she's pretty"

Shit, I said that out loud.

"wh-!"

She looked away while covering her face. I let out a small laugh

She looked back and smiled again.

"You look better when your laughing"

"eeeeee~"

Don't tease me like that your gonna make my heart explode.We laughed the whole night, teasing each other and talking the night away. Our conversation soon comes to an end. She let me borrow a room, she walked me to the door and bid me goodnight.

I gently open the door. To see a small but comfortable room. I closed the door and then before I realized it, everything turned upside down. My smile was gone, the pain was back, the tears were falling again. I feel tired having to keep up that lie.

I could not actually taste the food. I lied about it tasting good to make her happy. Laughing, teasing, everything was a lie that I had to keep up, the pain in my heart never left in the first place. It was still there, I was just trying to keep up appearances.

I stopped thinking and soon dived into bed while my tears were still falling. I cried, and cried until I fell asleep. Before my consciousness fully fell away I whispered unconsciously,

"Am I-"

"Forgetting"

"Something-?

And with that, my consciousness finally faded.