The deeper I dug into my memories, the more vivid that light became. Bright. So bright that it was the only thing that came to my mind. This light, it didn't just sear my eyes; it felt as if it was burning my whole body. Eventually, this seemingly incorrigible light became cold. No, the light didn't just become cold, it completely changed. Still that same radiant light, but now it made my whole body shiver, or so it felt. And then hot again. Eventually I realized I couldn't even feel my body anymore, just the light. Was I dead? Or just not alive?
The light made these cycles continuously without caring for the pain I was unable to express. Yet I knew that whoever was behind that light, or was that light: I knew they knew my suffering. It seemed as if my hatred and fear for them was ingrained in me that something I had long forgotten still became a reminiscence for me. After all, they were probably the ones who put me here.
Time appears as a cancelled program. My memory has faded over these long...Years? Centuries? It can't have been that long right? Yet then again, it seems as if someone or something had stopped time here.
But how could light make cycles if time was stopped. And so I reached my useless and limited answer: Either that 'light' is something beyond time or that wasn't light at all, but a being beyond it.
Regardless, I waited. Not of my accord, of course, but because I was somewhat forced to. Unable to move, speak, anything at all, I kept my sanity, or so I thought.
I used to think I was sane because I knew that if I had gone insane, I wouldn't be thinking about whether I'm still sane or not. But now, after such a long time that I can't even begin to fathom or even remember when it started, is it even possible that I can still be sane?
Such thoughts came and have gone like the wind, and eventually my mind became empty of thoughts.
Until that day. It started with an ear-splitting screech that would've ruined my eardrums if I still had them.
Bright. Like always. But a different type of bright. Not bright as in radiant and searing but bright like a light turned on.
Immediately I realized things were different. I could feel things that I could barely understand to be human-like limbs and senses. I could feel wet. I could hear sounds, although I couldn't distinguish what they were. It's not as if I could remember what a voice is supposed to sound like, or even how they would've sounded like. Beyond those senses, I could feel a body. It seemed that I was no longer in the place of that light. My newfound eyes, though unopened and inoperable at the moment, had regained such an intense hope that I could feel my whole body shaking. I had hope that this could just possibly mean that I was alive. With my mind so shocked, it's natural that I wasn't shocked with what I saw, no, with what appeared in front of me; my eyes weren't open yet.
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