Since that time and I have had a phobia that makes me lose my mind if I hear someone coughing strong, immediately the Adrenaline goes to the top and I get so scared.
My weak body couldn't take that much Adrenaline, when I saved my brother, a few seconds later I fainted for more than half-hour, when I woke up I found myself lying on the couch in the living room and Sara with me.
I tried to sit but she quickly came to me and stopped me with her soft hands "Kass, you have to relax."
I returned to my position, and she sat beside me, "for how long this time?" I asked her.
"Half-hour," she answered in a calm-sad accent.
I kept silent for a moment and said "Sara,"
"Yes," her eyes were down to the floor and her perfect long hair was covering her that I couldn't see her.
"I got a question for you,"
"I grow up in a rich family which has a big legacy and so many rules, my father is a strict educated man, he made sure that we get the best education and the best teachers, the best life, so he imposed us on many things that we didn't want to do it…"
"Us?" I interrupted her.
"Me and my little brother… and one day, my dad got in trouble and was about to lose his wealth, and he needed someone to help him, the only one who could help him was his competitor, but he had one condition…"
"Which was?" I patiently asked her, waiting for the answer.
"Which was; marrying one from our family to one of his, so we did a toss between me and my brother, the choice fell on me but I totally refused the idea and ran off the house with some money to live with," she continued her speech sadly.
"After two days, I got a letter from my father, that said that my brother is the one who will get married but I'm fired of the family and he denied me from coming back… and when you said what you said about marrying, I remembered my family and that I put my brother in a trouble… so I couldn't take it… and ran away..."
Her accent began changing to anger and she started crying "That what I do, I always fucking run away, every time I face something I just run away… I'm a fucking coward…"
She was about to hit her head with her hand but I stopped it and gazed at the tears in her beautiful green eyes.
-I could kiss her at that moment but I felt that if I did, I'd be exploiting her and use her weak moment to get what I want.-
Seriously I said, "Listen! I want to give you a great speech like in the movies and this shit, but I don't know how to, the only thing I can say to you is; don't get things complicated, Life is simple, do as you feel and acted like your heart tell you, do what you want…in limits of course, and the most important thing is that you don't have to hide your feelings because feelings are simple; sadness, happiness, anger, love… and if something gets out of your hand…just leave it to God and he will take care of it but you just have to believe…"
She was surprised and stared into my eyes "You asshole… you do can give a great speech," she smiled, and I did too.
She came closer to me and hugged me; the hug carried so many buried feelings.
When I hugged her back, I saw my mom hiding and looking at me with one eye and she did a thumb up while smiling, and after the hug ended, she came like she didn't see anything and said "Sara! Would you like to help me at the table?"
"What? Of course not! I'm tired!" Sara said seriously.
My mom and I were surprised by her reaction until she began laughing, then we know that she was kidding "Of course! Aunty, I'm joking!" Sara said while laughing and went to help mom in the kitchen.
Fifteen minutes later, we ate our dinner as usual like one happy family and all of us around the table; me Kasseri, mom June, my dad Harrow, my little brother Yoshiro, mom's aunt Mira, my cousin Tina, and my cousin's friend Sara.
All of our speech at dinner was about my heroic act with my brother, and he was super happy not because he understood that he was about to die, but because he felt pain in his throat and I stopped it; his thinking is this simple.
-And what a life he lives! Not like adults; always give things more than deserved.-
One thing is that Tina was not okay since she gave me those sad looks and smiles, but I knew that those smiles were there to hide her tears and her sad face though I did not know what the main cause was.
When the clock pointed to 22:00 I went to my room to revise more for the exam, I entered the room and spent two hours there before my eyes betrayed me and slept on the bureau.
Thank God that mom never forgets about me and came to wake me up because as I forgot to program the alarm, -actually, she always came to wake me up, I didn't know why this time was different; maybe because I began to feel responsibility until I saved my brother's life.-
Anyway, I wore my clothes, drank my coffee with Tina and Sara, and went to school together, in our way, I noticed that Sara and Tina were not talking too much, as usual, I preferred to keep silent.
The exam was not so good, and after we finished it, I searched for Moshi and Asabi, to have lunch in a restaurant as usual.
But I didn't find them out, so I thought that they stilled passing the exam, and I waited for a long time until the high school closed its doors.
I decided to go alone, when I turned my head I found Tina waiting for me down on the stairs, I didn't believe it; if I was watching the door for a long time and I didn't see Tina come out of it that means that she was out before me which means that she waited for me more than I waited for Moshi and Asabi.
From the last night and the ugly face On Tina was moved away –I don't know why.-
"Tina, why didn't you call me?" I said while going down the stairs as putting my phone in my pocket.
-I know that you might wonder why he didn't call his friends when he didn't find them…well, I did, but both of their phones were off.-
She looked at me with that innocent face and said "I saw that you were a little busy, and I didn't want you to worry about me,"
-you can judge! How can't you love someone who waited for you forever and when you ask him, he says that he didn't want to make you worry? How can you put him far from your heart?-
I smiled and tried to control my heart which was about to fly " I owe you a dinner."
"A dinner? You mean a date?" she wondered.
"Did I say date? Tell me did I say date? Why do you imagine things?" I raised my voice sarcastically.
"No, you said dinner, and I thought…" shyly she said.
"Let me correct it, I owe you a lunch, now!"
"Now!"
"Yes, now," I began walking.
She followed me quickly, we walked without stopping chatting, about everything; exam, games, life, sex…Passing in our way by the court of the town, the stadium which was containing wonderful football matches, the mosque to do our duty for God; and finally the restaurant that I and my friends used to eat at…
But I wish that I didn't enter it because what happened next was so painful.