I walk home on my own. When I reach, my mom is already in the kitchen cooking dinner while my father is in the attic fixing something. When she sees me, she opens her arms for me, and I hug her. She kisses my forehead and asks me how was school. I tell her it was good, but she knows I am still thinking of glimmer. I go to my room and lock the door. I don't bother to change my clothes or even take my sneakers off. I just throw myself on the bed and try to clear my head. How long will I last? How long is it till the bloodbath begins? Could I save my family? What if I die? Will Alexander cry and shout for me like David did? And will mason or Amelia cry so hard? Of course they will! Mason loves me so much and he always says I am his best sister. And Alexander began to get worried when I go to the forest. He never let me go in there again after what he saw of glimmer. I know because he won't imagine seeing his own sister chewed to death and thrown at the edge of the forest covered in blood. What if they all die? What will happen to me? how will I survive? I shake my head at the thoughts cause my eyes start to form tears. I get up, open my hair, take my arrows, and bow and leave the house without a word. I walk to the rock on the edge of the forest. The only place I go ever since the death of glimmer. I sit there, my arrows at my back and my bow in one hand. Someone sits next to me on the rock, but I don't bother look, cause I know it's only Max. we sit there silently watching the lights of the city for a about half an hour then max breaks the silence. "we could run away, into the woods. We could find life there." I don't answer. The fact he still wants to run away into the woods after what we have seen of glimmer, makes me angry. "you know how to hunt and all plus you could build something" he says, and I could tell he is watching me. I look at him "and our parents? After what happened to glimmer you still want to go in there?" I snap at him. My eyes fill with tears again and I know he could see it. I turn away. "Alice, I know how your feeling, but I don't want to feel the pain of seeing you die in that bloodbath and nor do you want to see me die." I close my eyes shut. He is right, I don't want to see him die in the war, but then I don't want to see what killed glimmer either. "so, I better see my parents die or should I risk ending up like glimmer? No, I better die in war and save my family and never risk dying a bloody death." I say. Max doesn't answer. He knows I am right. All he does is nod. A tear trickles down my cheek and another follows. we sit there watching as the sun disappears into the night and the moon appears. The sky fills with shinning little stars around it. Its such a beautiful view. Tears still roll down my cheeks as I watch the night sky. I wonder if I will ever see it again. When the city lights come out, I wipe my tears away and we plan to go home. As soon as I reach my family is already at the dinning table. I go into my room and put down my arrows and bow, then I go to wash my hand and face. I tie up my hair and go out to eat. As soon as dinner is done, I go into my room change into comfortable clothes and sit at my desk, working on my homework. When I am done. I go brush my teeth, braid my hair down my back and then I throw myself at the bed. I try to sleep but the nightmares keep waking me up again. The next day is just like the other one except for the evening. I didn't go to the rock today instead I stayed home on my bed after school. After doing my schoolwork and stuff I sat there on my mac book surfing the internet and listening to music. It was a matter of minutes before I heard a bomb and explosion. I put my device away slowly and made my way to the window. In the distance I could see the fire burning. Another explosion. I moved away from the window and shut my ears tight. My family. Amelia, Mason, Alexander. Mom. Dad. I thought. I ran out of the door screaming their names until I bumped into someone. I fell backwards and hit the ground. "sorry" said I voice I recognized. Mason stood above me looking as panicked as I am. He helped me up and asked, "you heard the bombs?" he sounded terrified and there was no way I could calm him. "yeah, where is Amelia, Alexander, mom and dad? We have to get out of here" I told him. He looked at the verge of tears when I mentioned Alexander, mom and dad. "Alexander left an hour before the bombs begin and dad is still in his work" he said tears falling from his eyes. my eyes opened wide. I left mason and ran towards the door. Dad, Alexander. They will die. No. I can't let that happen. Before I touch the door, I soft hand touched my shoulder. "Don't" she whispered. I turned to see Amelia. I kneeled at the ground and hugged her. I was crying, I know. "I love you" I managed. "I love you too" she whispered. I didn't want to let go. But then above us I saw mom and mason standing both crying silently. I leave Amelia and run towards mom hugging her tighter than ever. I was crying so hard now. Her smell. Her warm hands that play through my hair. Her soft kisses. Her soft voice. Her heartbeat. Everything about her makes me cry because I don't know if I will ever get to feel those things again. I don't know if I will ever feel the love and the warmth my heart gets when she is near. Or will I ever hear the sound of her heartbeat. Her grip softens, and I go and hug mason. He is crying as hard as I am. "don't leave me, please." He whispers. "I won't" I whisper back. I let go. And turn to look at mom. "dad" she shakes her head. "I am sorry" I give them each a kiss. And leave out the door. I cover my head as another bomb explodes in the far distance. I start running towards my dad's shop, but someone pulls me just in time. A bomb hit's a shop and it's a matter of seconds before I recognize its my fathers. "NO, DAD" I scream and start panicking. The person is still holding me tightly. "shh... its fine, calm down" I turn around and see Max. he saved my life. But my father. He is gone. "we have to leave" he tells me. "No, I am not leaving my family behind" I say. I manage to get out of his grip, and I run away into a place where everything is ruined. in the distance, I see a figure on the ground. I run towards it. It's a boy. I turn its face, so I am face to face with it and I recognize the face. Its Alexander. My brother. "no, please" I whisper, while a tear traces my skin. "No, Alexander!" I shake him, but its no use. He is dead. I close his eyes slowly . and put my head on his chest crying silently. I think I fell asleep because when I wake up, someone is shaking me. I turn around and see a soldier. He looks young. About Alexander's age. I look straight into his eyes and see my dead brother. those green eyes and that messy brown hair. But his skin Is white instead of tan. He smiles sadly at me. "we have to leave." He tells me. "No. my mom, and my other siblings I can't leave them, please." I say panicking again. He kneels down next to me and puts a hand on my shoulder. "its ok. We will go there. I promise" I shake my head crying. "You can't stay here." He tells me. "what about him. I can't leave him here. No please." I say. "you can't help him, he is dead." He tells me although his voice is broken. I look at my brother. I lean down and kiss his forehead. Give his hair a small ruffle and put my lips against his hair. "I love you...Rest in peace." I whisper. Trying to hold my tears, I turn around and walk up the helicopter with the soldier. I take one last look at my brother, then I climb up without looking back.