"HUSH"
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"HUSH" " ITS NOT YOUR FAULT" "I-ITS NOT YOU-YOUR FAULT" I moved back and forth swinging my body with hands hugging it and squeezed it to let out the pain or numb it so I don't feel weak and see me falling.
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But I instantly collapsed on the floor. I couldn't see , my body was numb, my breath hitched and i was crying and panting hard. I could feel the abrupt onset of intense fear , my heart could explode and i was trembling at this one thaught that was never going go leave my mind soon.
To my fear , It was an anxiety attack.
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"you have to get through this just hang on , b-breath" I tried to calm myself but falied miserably. I needed someone, a pair of hands to reach out when i am at my worst . I was suffocating on the fear that i would never be home again.
It was a disaster , I was sweating and trembling in a corner of this washroom stall at this restaurant which I don't even know. I'm so far flung from home.
This corner looked so huge that my head was dizzy and I reached out my hand to the door knob but it stopped in the way at the immediate knock on the door.
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"hey, are you alright ?" This sudden voice got my attention and I tried to answer with the energy left in my body to speak not to make this person suspicious about me.
"Yea-yeah , I'm alr-alright , thankyou " I answered in a feeble yet clear voice.
Somehow this person was convinced and I heard the footsteps going away.
I sighed.
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I gathered my strength to reach out for the stall knob. and I opened up to see if there was people around but there was no one which calmed me slight. I couldn't stand as my legs were trembling along the steps I took. I leaned on the door of the stall and pushed myself to the basin.
I looked up at the mirror forepart and saw my reflection. I splashed cold water on my face to appease the nerves in my body which were scorching to get out and spill the ounce of disgusted blood flowing through them.
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DRIP~~~
DRIP ~~~
DRIP ~~~~~~~~~
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-----------------------------------------------------------------"MEANWHILE AT WISCONSON STREET "
" Are you sure , No witnesses ?" A CSI officer asked the cop which was presented at the crime scene.
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A tall and well built man in his late thirties Showed up in the range rover specially assigned for the police department of crimes. He enquired from a man who was seeming rather grim or not much of tall with short black hair with his arms crossed.
" I'm afraid none sir " The cop replied.
" Who ringed ?" The CSI officer asked again to make sure not to leave any evidence behind.
" A girl sir " The cop replied. But the officer cop hummed in response.
" I think it's the local gang sir " The cop added.
" Why so sure , dean ?" The officer said analysing the crime scene. The cop frowned at his response.
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" Do you copy?" " Team grag, do you copy?" A walkie talkie inside the cop's car was burping some words from the headquarters.
"Yeah , it's dean. I copy , over n out " He replied pushing a button with an emotionless face and drove away from the crime scene.
The officer cop called out his team to clear the locals from the scene and enquired everyone present.
"waaaaahhhhhhh"
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"waaaahhhhhhhhh"
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"Waaaaaaaaahh"
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A team of coroners arrived at the scene in the provided van to clear out the body of a teen who was being shot at the head in the middle.
The forensic team arrived about in an hour to investigate and examined the crime scene as per the order.
_________________________________________----------------------------------------------------------------- "Mi-miss, Miss ??"
"Excuse me Miss , we are here!"
I felt some hands on my face trying to wake me up from the subtle still abrupt sleep. I opened up my eyes and gave myself a moment to shed my thaughts , to allow the visions of the hour to give way to the moonlit street i stopped on and found myself in front of my house. I felt so relieved and saw the man standing at the car door.
I remembered so many vivid details about my anxiety attack and how I managed to tell this UBER driver , my home address.
I stood up on my own and tried to reach for my coat pocket to pay but to my surprise , it was empty.
He was staring at me to have his payment but I had no money. The only option left was to ask my mom to come out and pay but I have to make her clear of my condition and had to lie thousand times.
IT WAS NIGHT, NOTHING COULD BE MORE VEXED TO MOTHERS THAN THEIR DAUGHTER COMING BACK IN PITCH BLACK NIGHT IN AN UBER.
Now I was more scared to ask but I gained my thaughts and told the man to wait here till I get money to pay him.
He somehow believed me and stood there as he was ordered.
I walked towards my house and was about to knock. But my hand stopped in the middle, I was terrified to return home looking hideous and awful.
My legs were still trembling and my heart skipped a beat. I trembled and sat down beside the wall to collect my thaughts to explain what i have been through.
I sobbed quietly making sure no one could see or hear me.
Thereupon I stood up and knocked on the door. I was wishing Andrea to come.
I was stunned to see Andrea on the door. I felt so relieved and clutched her so tight.
" ku- kuku are you okay ? Where were you !!!?? Mom was about to have a breakdown and dad , he could have gone to the police station ?"
"Do you have any idea how worried we were?!!" Andrea yelled at me. But I felt so much peaceful in her arms.
" An- Andrea , don't shout please" I told her in fragile voice while sobbing in her arms.
My voice cracked , the guilt build up and I burst down and trembled but she held to me firmly and took me in embrace.
" Don't scare me, did you drink ? and your eyes - did you cried ?" She asked and I could sense the worry in her voice.
"Let me take you-" she resisted my actions.
" Andrea listen , there is a m-man outside just pay her . I took an UBER and don't tell mum . Go to my dresser , there would be enough money there . I have to come back to my senses before mom finds out"
I told her while withdrawing the hug and I sneaked into the house and went to shower.
" Okay , mom is upstairs with dad " She said and I make my move into the shower as it was near the gateway of our house.
" An- Andrea " I whispered.
"What?" She asked
" Thankyou " I said while tears made way to fall non stop.
With that , she turned towards the door to bring money and pay the person.
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PLOP~~
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PLOP ~~
The cold water poured down on my warm body earning a moan from my lips. It dripped by my side , as my mind fades away into dullness and everything become foggy.
My toes flinched as they touched the chilled ceramic floor. My mind was in shreds. I would never forget this night EVER.
-----------------------------------------------------------------"GUILT CAN DROWN YOU"
"REGRET CAN CRAWL OVER YOU"
"MISTAKES CAN TEACH YOU"
-----------------------------------------------------------------Dear readers ,
I'm really sorry for all the grammatical errors and editing error as I'm still learning and new at this. English is not my first language but it's all about the story.
Thankyou for reading💜🙂