"You know, there's something I wanted to tell you… Hideki-kun."
"Wha… what is it? Shimamoto-san."
I think I'm in a dream, I'm having a weird dream where I and Shimamoto-san is talking in a bench where there's only the two of us.
"Good morning! Hello? Hideki-kun? Are you up?"
My dream was suddenly stopped when I heard Yumi-chan's voice at my door. She was knocking many times that it irritates me.
"What the heck? I'm at the good part. Is that Yumi? What's Yumi-chan doing in my apartment?"
I made a big yawn while walking towards the door. I opened it and Yumi suddenly entered without my permission.
"Oi, what are you doing here?"
"Of course, I'm going to fetch you." replied by Yumi. "When we're kids we always go to school together right?"
"Is it really necessary for you to do that? We're high schoolers now, remember? Do not touch anything okay? I'll just get change for a bit."
What the heck! Doesn't she know that she's alone with me right now. I'm certain that I'm a guy. While I was getting dressed with my uniform she suddenly appeared at the side of the mirror. She's looking at me quietly while her head is slightly looking down.
"Yumi-chan? Can you at least wait for me at the sofa back there?" I said with a shaking voice.
I'm afraid that these moments can trigger my disease.
While finishing my half-dressed top, she suddenly runs towards me and hugs me.
"Oi! Yumi-chan! Please stop that!" I accidentally struggled and pushed her down the ground.
She's still looking below and tears fell down at her cheeks. I suddenly realized that I pushed her that's why I quickly kneel down to help her.
"Sorry Yumi-chan! It was just an impulse."
I thought that I hurt her so bad in her fall.
"Why did you leave?" she asked while crying out loud. "You even didn't bid me goodbye. Do you know how lonely I am?"
"…"
I remember that time that I left. It was so sudden, my parents doesn't want me to feel sad and lonely in the other country that's why they don't want me to tell my goodbyes to my dear friends and even relatives.
The room was filled with silence and sadness, I don't know why but I suddenly hugged her, maybe I did it on impulse.
"I'm sorry for that. For now, I can't tell you the reason why I left, but please let me pay for that.", I said while slowly backing up and packing my things.
"Clean yourself, we'll go to school now."
"You won't leave me again, right?", she said while wiping her tears.
I nodded to her as an agreement and she smiled back at me. Yumi is my childhood friend that helped me back when I fell at the playground. Everyone was laughing at me but she's the only one that doesn't laugh but also defended me to the other kids. Yumi is a strong woman but on her insides, she's a crybaby.
I thought that I can hold myself in this situation, but I was mistaken. Its like my body wants to move on its own. It's the disease. I touched my head while suddenly losing my balance and leaning to the wall. I felt dizzy and hot, Yumi was shocked and suddenly approached me.
"Are you alright Hideki?"
"No, please go to school, I'll be on my way later." I said at Yumi while she's supporting my arms.
"But! You're hurt! Can you at least depend on me again?"
"PLEASE!!!" I yelled.
She listened and quickly left the apartment. I think she's mad at me again. After 10 minutes, I went back to normal and took a ride to school.
I arrived at the school and proceeded at the classroom. I saw Yumi looking at me and quickly averted her eyes.
"Damn, she's really mad." I sighed.
"Good morning Hideki!" greeted by Kazuki. "Why are you feeling down? Love problems?"
"Idiot, its not that." I responded.
I noticed that Shimamoto is still not here yet. Guess she'll never talk to me again. I head to my seat and fixed my things when I suddenly noticed the game CD that I put in my bag last night. I think I'll leave this at her seat while she's not here.
After several minutes before our homeroom, Shimamoto arrives. She walked silently without being noticed by the class. I looked at the windows so that it looks like I didn't notice her entering the room.
I'm waiting for her reaction about the game but she didn't talk to me. I decided to look at her side and saw her looking at me as well, as if she's waiting for me to look at her. She's blushing while holding the game that I leave at her seat. I guess she really waited for that game.
"Thank you…", she whispers.
"No problem, I'm glad that you're happy." I replied.
After our short conversation I saw Kazuki looking at us since he's sitting at my front.
"What?", I asked.
"Nothing, my morning is just really bright right now.", said by Kazuki while smirking.
I suddenly saw Yumi glancing at me again, but this time, she looks like with a teary eye. I stand at my seat and heads at her spot when the teacher suddenly interrupted me.
"Okay class, please take your seats."
Sakurai-sensei walks inside the room and talks with us just like how it always was, informing us our reminders and schedules for the week.
After our afternoon class, its time for the break time so I invited Kazuki and went to Yumi's spot.
"Yo! Yumi-chan, sorry about earlier."
"…"
She's not responding at me like always. I guess I'll have to trap you right now.
"Okay! It seems like I'll be treating you lunch today Kazuki-kun!" I said.
Kazuki is really bad at reading the atmosphere because he seems so happy.
"…"
No respond huh?
"Ohh, and I'll be treating you to the mall later! I'll buy you your favorite Ice Cream."
"Okay, Okay! I'll be coming." she responded.
Kazuki was devastated at her statement.
"We'll go the other time Kazuki." I said.
"Let's head to the canteen now or there'll be many students swarming the area." he replied.
We ate our lunch and went to the classroom to finish the remaining subjects. After the teacher said her final remarks, we started to pack our things up. She's really happy while we're going at the mall, I started to remember the days where we always play and eats as well.
I hope I can keep up with this daily life cycle of mine. I hope I can stay as a friend again with all of you guys. It's just hard for me that I'm not telling you these secrets of mine.
"Are you okay, Hideki? Why are you crying?" Yumi said while looking so worried.
I didn't notice the tears that falls in my eyes. I think I must be really hurting inside.
"No, its nothing, let's go." I said, while wiping my tears.
I think I'm just overthinking, there's no need to worry about my anxieties since my friends are at my side.