Bianca laid in her masters bed while he talked to her parents. She was anxious about how they would react, she was staring at the door anticipating them barging in and screaming at her. She tried to think rationally, she tried telling herself that her master wouldn't allow them to do that but it was hard when her brain wasn't cooperating. She felt like she had been lying there for hours.
When the door started to open Bianca sat up in alarm, she let out a sigh of relief when her master walked in. He shut the door and sighed rubbing his hand against his forehead. Bianca was nervous to ask how it went.
"How are you feeling?" he finally asked breaking the silence and looking at her. Bianca was still peeved at him for forcing her to drink his blood. She shrugged and looked down at her hands picking at her finger nails. She heard him sigh again and walk towards her. The bed dipped beside her. He grabbed her chin gently with her hand and made her look at him.
"I'm sorry I did that to you. I should've given you time to calm down before I tried that. I hate seeing you in pain...and upset with me." Bianca teared up, she knew he was only looking out for her, but she felt like she had no control of what was going on in her life right now and she freaked out. "Can you forgive me?" He pleaded with her, moving his hand to the side of her face and rubbing her cheek with his thumb. She nodded her head and averted eye contact, she tried pulling away but he pulled her back slightly harsher.
"Tell me you forgive me or I won't believe you." He said sternly yet Bianca could still sense his guilt.
"I forgive you." She whispered. He let go of her face and pulled her into his chest for a hug. She flinched at the sound of his heartbeat and tried to pull away. He held her tightly.
"You're okay, you won't hurt me." Bianca's fangs poked out even though she willed them not too, she let her tears silently fall onto his chest. She was so frustrated with her lack of self control over the last few days.
"Don't worry about your parents, I've taken care of them and you won't see or hear from them for awhile." Bianca nodded grateful, she didn't really believe they would stay away from her but she was glad he tried for her. "I can go fetch some things from your room for you if you would like." He added. Bianca shook her head no.
"I can do it myself." She said, her voice was muffled from the hug but Rowan heard her clearly.
"I still have to go with you."
"You'll stand outside." Bianca didn't want him to see the state of her room since last time he made her deep clean it.
"How messy is your room?" He asked chuckling a bit.
"It's not... I just don't want you looking at my stuff." He laughed again.
"Sure, we'll go with that for now." Bianca pulled away from the hug and looked at Rowan. He smiled down at her. She didn't understand how he could be so kind to her all the time, she had killed a human and drank the blood of two vampires in the last three days.
"Why don't we go to sleep for now? Hmm? Everyone else is." Rowan asked gently.
"Where am I sleeping?" Rowan gave her a quizzical look.
"In my bed." It was Bianca's turn to make a face at him.
"Where will you sleep?" She asked.
"In my bed." Bianca's face turned red.
"Like...at the same time." She asked looking at the bed.
"Yes Bianca." He replied finding her reaction humorous. She blushed more than she thought possible.
"Oh." Rowan stood up and walked to his closet, he shut himself in and came out wearing sweatpants and a tank top. Bianca couldn't help but look at his muscles but her attention quickly was on the clothes in his hand.
"These should fit you. They will be ok for now." Bianca took the clothes from him and went to change in the bathroom. The pants were long on her but fit her waist pretty well, and the shirt was a little baggy which surprised her. She walked out of the bathroom to see Rowan laying in the bed waiting for her. She stood shyly by the doorway until Rowan spoke up.
"Are you coming to bed or not, I want to shut the light off." Bianca nodded and walked over to the bed, she laid in it as far from her master as possible and faced away from him. It was silent for a moment before the clicking of the lamp was heard. Bianca felt the bed move as Rowan got comfortable. Bianca was nervous and didn't want to move to get comfortable, plus she was on the edge of the bed. After what seemed like an eternity to her, Rowan sighed deeply, he grabbed her by her waist and pulled her into him so they were in a spooning position. Bianca held her breath and shut her eyes tight. Rowans body was surprisingly warm, which meant he had fed recently.
"I can hear your heart beating out of your chest. It's distracting." He mumbled in a sleepy voice. Bianca mumbled an apology and tried to relax. Rowan could tell she was as stiff as a board and still not relaxed enough to fall asleep.
He chuckled in her ear, she felt his breath on her neck. "Relax Bianca, go to sleep. You're fine." He began to rub his hand up and down her arm soothingly. She felt herself relax after a little bit and began to enjoy the feeling. Rowan stayed awake until he heard her heart slow and her breathing even out, but then he too fell asleep.
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Bianca slowly woke up, she slept very pleasantly. She felt really warm and comfortable, yet when she moved to stretch something was holding her still. Bianca furrowed her brows in confusion and opened her eyes. She was in her masters bed which meant her master had to be the one holding her. She blushed when she remembered how they fell asleep.
"Morning." Rowan mumbled in her ear sleepily. Bianca mumbled morning back even though technically it was night. She yawned and was hit by the smell of Rowans blood, she swallowed harshly and shut her eyes again. She wished she was still asleep because that was better than her reality.
"Are you hungry Bianca?" Rowan questioned, seemingly more awake now. Bianca shook her head no but Rowan knew better.
"It's ok, you can drink my blood." Bianca really didn't want to, she shook her head no again. She could feel Rowan huff. "I won't force you."
Then Rowan got up, he walked into the bathroom and stayed in there. Bianca eventually calmed down, she just laid in the bed thinking about how long she could go without drinking blood. She wanted to go as long as possible. She also thought about how long Rowan would let her before he forced her again. She felt sick at the thought, her whole world and beliefs had been turned upside down in a moment. Bianca began to get dizzy the more she thought about her situation but she couldn't stop. She felt like she was trapped in a corner, her thoughts spiraled to Charlette and how she had hurt her. Sure, Charlette said she was ok and that she didn't mind but did she really? And if she had time to think on it would she still want to be her friend? Bianca loved Charlette and couldn't imagine being without her. Bianca felt tears run down her face, if Charlette grew to hate her because of this would her master too? Would she be able to ever control herself? Bianca figured if she couldn't control herself then she would rather be dead. Bianca wanted to crawl into a hole and stop everything. Her brain was going haywire and wouldn't stop telling her all these bad things would happen. She hadn't even noticed Rowan come out of the bathroom. He rushed over to her and tried to calm her down.
"Bianca breath! What happened? I was gone for a few minutes." He asked, he got her to look at him.
"Do you hate me?" Bianca sobbed, more tears streamed down her face and she couldn't breath.
"Of course not! Why would you think that?" He asked hugging her, again she felt her fangs slip out and she cried harder. "Bianca you're ok! This is normal. Calm down." He rubbed her head and cooed at her. Bianca eventually calmed down listening to Rowans words. She could finally breath again.
"I'm sorry..." She sniffled into his shirt, which was now damp with tears and not. He kept rubbing her head.
"Don't apologize, you've been through a lot." She just kept her head on his chest even though she felt as if her thirst would kill her. "Why don't we go and tackle your bedroom? Yeah?" He asked her.
She groaned but nodded, she knew that meant she would have to clean it.