The 'me' before lived a busy and stuffy life.
As a student I studied, as a member of society I worked. Studies and work, when I realized time was always chasing after me, and my life became more hectic after the shift from a student's life to one of work.
As I wake up in the morning, go to work, work until I drop and return back home late at night. A full repetition. Gradually, I dazed off more and started to develop dizziness. My only pleasure through this kind of life is by reading web novels, though I did not have ample of time to enjoy it. Only during the short time in between commuting to work, before sleep, sometimes during the time of cooking a simple dish or during meals would I indulge myself in web novels.
One day, I found a certain short web novel.
The story revolves around the heroine, Misano, who overcame the doings of the villainess, Rhonya. About how Misano was able to steal away Rhonya's fiancé and make him her own. Amidst the curiosity, I continued on reading the novel.
The heroine is the daughter of a Baron, while the villainess a Count's. Their fierce battle started from the beginning and continued on. Of course the villainess has a bad personality, but the heroine is equally strong to stand up to her. The villainess had the tables turned on her, which resulted in her evil acts being exposed in public and her fiancé stolen away. While the heroine obtains the red string of fate with her loved one, the fiancé of the villainess.
I who finished reading the novel tilted my head unconsciously. It seems the novel was quite popular in the internet, but it was not to my liking. It was all about attacking someone and retaliating back to that attack… As it repeats, all that is left is just fatigue.
I believe there should have been a more peaceful way to end it. But then the story would not have been so exciting. As I deeply think of such, the usual dizziness came about and I fell on the spot.
As my consciousness fade away, I suddenly thought about how I could've died just like that.
…Well, whatever.
I'm too tired already, too tired to even rise up.
I have lived with the best I could. Thinking back, it was a harsh life. Most of the time I agonized with only slight times of happiness. If I could have another life, I wish to have a laid-back life. A life filled with much happiness, and live a happy life.
—A laid-back life.
As I embrace that wish, I reincarnated. To add, it was in the world of the web novel I read moments before my death.
My current name is Rhonya Gavizera, the villainess and the Count's daughter.
Having silver hair which shines in sky blue at the sight of light and blue eyes. The first time I saw myself in the mirror, the westernized facial features that I had felt odd. As if I was not myself, and even now I am unable to fully accept the fact.
My family holds the most influential power within the nobles, and is renowned as the 'Ruler of the Capital's Southeaster'.
Without a doubt the next head of the family would be my brother, but my role as a member of the Count's family engaged me to several types of education as soon as I was aware of my surroundings.
Equestrian and dance is a must, as well as the rules and manners of a noble were all stuffed into my head.
At first, all I could do was accept the fact as I was born to a noble's family, and worked hard towards them. But as a child, doing it at a slower pace would have been ideal. I wanted to live a more relaxed life.
The day I turned 7, I resolved to talk about it to my mother…
*SLAP!
Her palm stroke my face, leaving the small me falling down on the carpet.
"What a lazy person are you! Are you really my daughter!?" As I got scolded by my mother as such, all I could feel was fear wholeheartedly. My brother who was 5 years older than me who was present glared at me with a scornful gaze.
…Then, being a noble would mean that I do not have time to play around like a child would and my time filled with classes. That having time to relax is impossible…
But I… I do not want to live my life as how I had done. Else this will just be another repetition of my previous life. I would be better off not being a noble and just run away from the house.
What stopped me from acting as so was the fact that a small child like me would not be able to live by myself, and the fact that the presence of my grandfather was too dear to me. While my mother and brother did not shower me with warmth, my grandfather was kind.
Soon after my grandmother passed away to sickness, my grandfather decided to retire and handed over the head of family status to my father. He then started to live a secluded life, but still had influential power among the nobles.
My grandfather would sometimes come to visit, and when he does, classes end quicker than usual and I am able to spend some time relaxing with him. That is the only times of tranquility in my busy life.
Aah, how great would it be to just cry in my grandfather's arms and request to live a secluded life together with him. It was when I turned 9 did I seriously thought of so, and my engagement was decided. For the benefit of both families, a political marriage decided by both sides of parents. The younger brother of the king was granted the status of a Duke, his authority was lower of a vassal's but the quickest way to reach the status of royalty. As the engagement with his son was decided, the path towards living a secluded life with my grandfather is no more.