The world suddenly feels like falling apart. I could hear the painful beating of my heart followed by the sound of raindrops on the roof of the car. It feels like I am heading back to the darkness where I was stuck before. I cannot change my way, whatever path I take it will always leads to this moment. I am coming back from the start where everything begins.
It's just so frustrating that I cannot keep everything in steady position. I want to get mad why can't I stay on the moment of good instead of letting it go. I should feel grateful meeting Seviro despite leaving him afterwards because at some point, I learn how beautiful life is. I learn how to smile genuinely, to laugh at my heart's content, to breath without feeling a lump on my throat. I was able to sleep soundly and peacefully, I was able to dream big- for once I become happy. But then, I just can't stop myself hating and getting mad at my situation.
