When fear become visible in front of your eyes, that's the moment you realize that it was real. This is what happening to me right now. I was preparing for this day but I guess my preparation is not enough yet. I am still surprise and terrified. I suddenly forgot how I am gonna handle the situation just like what I had plan. It feels like everything happen so fast and I could not keep my track on the situation.
I hope it isn't so selfish of me to keep everything from Seviro. And I hope that I will never regret anything. I hope I spend enough time with Seviro and I hope I will accept the consequences. Going back to Belgium is inevitable. I must really return and that's not something I can avoid for the rest of my life. I don't want to waste the courage, the strength, and braveness Seviro taught me.
