I guess I am not getting better just like what I had thought. I am still trying to figure out more of myself. I was just blinded with the happiness I felt the past few days that's why I felt like I can do anything. I make a fool out of myself just because suddenly I feel like I am okay. That I know exactly what I am doing. That those affirmation words that I received are powerful enough to be my weapon everyday.
I thought I am doing good but the truth is I am bottling it all because I am afraid to ruined the relationship I just had built to the people around me. I am afraid to bleed on the wrong person and pretend that I am alright. I am scared that they will saw my depressed side that's why I don't let them see the vulnerability in me. But then it explode that's why I couldn't control it right now. I lose my grip to myself.
